...where are you guys? Check in and let us know how you are doing.
hi vwgirl
thanks for thinking of me. not doing too great actually. drank yesterday so feeling pretty miserable today about myself and life not to mention a raging hangover. my sponsor is coming round at lunch to take me to a meeting.
thanks for thinking of me. not doing too great actually. drank yesterday so feeling pretty miserable today about myself and life not to mention a raging hangover. my sponsor is coming round at lunch to take me to a meeting.
Idg,
How'd the meeting go with your Sponsor? If you don't mind me asking what Step were you on when you back out? Believe me I know how hard it is...but there is hope as you know and you'll get it, you will, you've got perserverance....I can read it in your posts....but try to put your perseverance and reliance on God, it is just a suggestion...but it has worked for me. Remember this is a fatal disease, if you be alcoholic like me, it eventually will kill you.
How'd the meeting go with your Sponsor? If you don't mind me asking what Step were you on when you back out? Believe me I know how hard it is...but there is hope as you know and you'll get it, you will, you've got perserverance....I can read it in your posts....but try to put your perseverance and reliance on God, it is just a suggestion...but it has worked for me. Remember this is a fatal disease, if you be alcoholic like me, it eventually will kill you.
Hey Geri
struggling with Step 3 is where I was. Though my sponsor thinks really I haven't done step 1 properly - obviously.
She advised me to talk to a professional - a God professional that is :) in fact she wanted me to do so months ago but I kept procrastinating. I have placed the call now - waiting for a call back. Its someone I know, a life long friend of my family who is a retired minister with the Church of England.
I am not religious as you know but L thinks this man might be able to help me with Step 2 and 3 at least give me some guidance. I'm not thrilled because I know how embarrassing and humiliating its going to be talking to him, however I have promised to do what she tells me in regards to recovery, as my way is not working.
Hope all is well with you Geri - I haven't been posting but have been following what has been going on with you and your daughter recently.
Idgie.
struggling with Step 3 is where I was. Though my sponsor thinks really I haven't done step 1 properly - obviously.
She advised me to talk to a professional - a God professional that is :) in fact she wanted me to do so months ago but I kept procrastinating. I have placed the call now - waiting for a call back. Its someone I know, a life long friend of my family who is a retired minister with the Church of England.
I am not religious as you know but L thinks this man might be able to help me with Step 2 and 3 at least give me some guidance. I'm not thrilled because I know how embarrassing and humiliating its going to be talking to him, however I have promised to do what she tells me in regards to recovery, as my way is not working.
Hope all is well with you Geri - I haven't been posting but have been following what has been going on with you and your daughter recently.
Idgie.
Idg,
You are not alone, the God thing is hard for a lot of people...especially turning one's will over each and everyday...maybe just pray for the willingness to be willing to allow God to reveal himself/herself/itself to you....a little willingless goes a long way. Don't fret about talking to the Minister, I bet you are going to feel a million times better and relieved after you do. It's time for you to start taking care of yourself Idgie, because a lot of people care about you; and you are so, so worth it to have a happy, joyous and free life.
Your friend in Recovery,
Geri
PS-I'm watching the UK music awards on TV right now! Boy, some of that 70's music is a trigger for me, gotta be careful...thank goodness I am aware of it now.
You are not alone, the God thing is hard for a lot of people...especially turning one's will over each and everyday...maybe just pray for the willingness to be willing to allow God to reveal himself/herself/itself to you....a little willingless goes a long way. Don't fret about talking to the Minister, I bet you are going to feel a million times better and relieved after you do. It's time for you to start taking care of yourself Idgie, because a lot of people care about you; and you are so, so worth it to have a happy, joyous and free life.
Your friend in Recovery,
Geri
PS-I'm watching the UK music awards on TV right now! Boy, some of that 70's music is a trigger for me, gotta be careful...thank goodness I am aware of it now.
Hey Idgie
The best thing someone ever said to me was to fire my old God and find myself a new one. Because i was to hung up on all the crap that went down in our school with dirty priests and nuns that liked to inflict pain.
You don't have to look for spirituality as it is already there all around you and i think you know it but just allow yourself to believe it and Idgie the force is with you, stop looking and just feel and the faith will come.
light and love zac
The best thing someone ever said to me was to fire my old God and find myself a new one. Because i was to hung up on all the crap that went down in our school with dirty priests and nuns that liked to inflict pain.
You don't have to look for spirituality as it is already there all around you and i think you know it but just allow yourself to believe it and Idgie the force is with you, stop looking and just feel and the faith will come.
light and love zac
Thanks Zac you always have wise words. Yeah sometimes I think I try too hard with that stuff when its right there in front of me anyway.
The force IS with me, I just went over to the dark side for a bit :). Fortunately, I didn't try to kill MY mentor in hand to hand combat though LOL.
The force IS with me, I just went over to the dark side for a bit :). Fortunately, I didn't try to kill MY mentor in hand to hand combat though LOL.
Hi everyone.... Just thought I'd say hi.
Had my appointment with the alcohol cancelled so was annoyed about that...
Anyway... I'm ok...
Hope everyone else is too???
Izzy X
Had my appointment with the alcohol cancelled so was annoyed about that...
Anyway... I'm ok...
Hope everyone else is too???
Izzy X
glad to hear you are OK Izzy.
I had my talk with the priest it went really well. I didn't think it was all that helpful at the time - but after I slept on it I realised he'd given me the key to unlock the door.
peace all.
Idgie.
I had my talk with the priest it went really well. I didn't think it was all that helpful at the time - but after I slept on it I realised he'd given me the key to unlock the door.
peace all.
Idgie.
Izzy and Idgie, Glad you both are well and posted what is going on with the both of you...I think of both of you often and you gals are inspiration to me.....helping me to do the deal and stay sober one day at time.
Geri
Geri
Oh I don't know if I'm an inspiration to anyone I can hardly keep myself sober but I'm trying... getting help now.
Just having a bad couple of days. My dog is putting on weight because my dad is feeding him crap like biscuits and bread and he wont stop when I ask him to because he never thinks he's wrong. So I have to suffer the vets telling me to get weight off him but there's nothing I can do.
Yet again he's won and he's not only ruining his own health he's ruining my dog's and I have a responsibility towards Freddie because I took him on under my name.
I'm just pissed off... That man wants a kick up the jaxie.
Izzy X
Just having a bad couple of days. My dog is putting on weight because my dad is feeding him crap like biscuits and bread and he wont stop when I ask him to because he never thinks he's wrong. So I have to suffer the vets telling me to get weight off him but there's nothing I can do.
Yet again he's won and he's not only ruining his own health he's ruining my dog's and I have a responsibility towards Freddie because I took him on under my name.
I'm just pissed off... That man wants a kick up the jaxie.
Izzy X
Izzy, you do help me stay sober because you remind of how hard it is to get sober...I struggled for twenty years, I think I told you that...for eight years it worked for me, the alcohol, but the last 20 years were tough...and the last 18 months of my drinking were absolutely miserable. I'm glad you check in here drinking or not....because it is helpful for all of us to share and let each other know what is going on with us. I'm sorry about your dog....too.
Hey IZZY
Never doubt the inspiration that You are...
I read and see courage, determination, love and the raw emotion that We addicts and alkys carry up front.
Try not feeding Your Dog as much of the good tucka and let Your old man think he is winning, Also take Freddie (bet he's named after Mr Mercury) for walks and it will do You both good and give You a rest from the pain in the a*s back home.
Remember Your dad only does what he does to see the hurt and power that he percieves he has. Build Your strength and stand, and in Your own way tell him he is an arsehole, Talk with Your Mum and really talk with Her about all that is going on with You and Your dad and Your Mum as well, there may be options that could suit You and Your Mum....
Izzy the capitals show it is about You and not him
Light and love Zac
Never doubt the inspiration that You are...
I read and see courage, determination, love and the raw emotion that We addicts and alkys carry up front.
Try not feeding Your Dog as much of the good tucka and let Your old man think he is winning, Also take Freddie (bet he's named after Mr Mercury) for walks and it will do You both good and give You a rest from the pain in the a*s back home.
Remember Your dad only does what he does to see the hurt and power that he percieves he has. Build Your strength and stand, and in Your own way tell him he is an arsehole, Talk with Your Mum and really talk with Her about all that is going on with You and Your dad and Your Mum as well, there may be options that could suit You and Your Mum....
Izzy the capitals show it is about You and not him
Light and love Zac
Thanks Zac and Geri... yeah my dog is named after Freddie Mercury lol... his kennel name is Starshan Kind of Magic. He's the one thing I feel is positive in my life... I have to get myself motivated to groom him and keep him well... the grooming is a lot of work but it's something I HAVE to do otherwise he'd be a complete mess and he'd be miserable and I'd hate myself for that.
My dad is just impossible sometimes but he heard what the vet said this time so hopefully he'll screw the nut and stop the dog snacking. He doesn't need it...
He had Pheasant for his tea tonight... spoiled doggy... lol
Anyway... thanks for the kind words Geri and Zac
Izzy X
My dad is just impossible sometimes but he heard what the vet said this time so hopefully he'll screw the nut and stop the dog snacking. He doesn't need it...
He had Pheasant for his tea tonight... spoiled doggy... lol
Anyway... thanks for the kind words Geri and Zac
Izzy X
