liz,
you have to at least hang cute santa stuff on the walls, get in the spirit and enjoy : ) you just gotta retrain your brain by the way, it can be done, i promise you i felt like a lost cause,buried in the deepest darkest place ever. i didnt get happy (remind me partridge family "come on everybody get happy") hehehe anyway i just didnt get happy/normal over night. it took some soul searching and working on me. i would say though in a matter of 6 months (call me determined (and so are you liz, you are no different from where i was, i see me in you so much its scary) this is why i know you have what it takes and its notsomething that will take forever to achieve, we are fighters liz, we want what we want and we want it now!!! (i want it now dadddy----willy wonka hahaha) i am so a dork but anyway the beauty of it all is we GET it. now start visualising what you want and set out to go for it!!!! do i need to kick your hiney?
terrianne
Ok Jacky,
Have fun walking the dogs. Don't forget the bags. lol
Have fun walking the dogs. Don't forget the bags. lol
Hey Terrianne,
That's funny, I loved watching that movie with my son. I kept laughing because I know my son seen himself in that little spoiled girl. THen that song where it said something like, Who is the blame? The mother and the father. lol. That's so true. I used to give him everything he wanted inspite of not having the money and letting important things go. How sick is that? It was all from guilt, that much I know.
I may have to go into a rehab. I keep telling myself I can make it here. But it's been a vicious cycle. The pills are here and just knowing I can get relief I find myself taking them again. I really need some help to first, get a grip on the addiction, then to get on my own feet.
That's funny, I loved watching that movie with my son. I kept laughing because I know my son seen himself in that little spoiled girl. THen that song where it said something like, Who is the blame? The mother and the father. lol. That's so true. I used to give him everything he wanted inspite of not having the money and letting important things go. How sick is that? It was all from guilt, that much I know.
I may have to go into a rehab. I keep telling myself I can make it here. But it's been a vicious cycle. The pills are here and just knowing I can get relief I find myself taking them again. I really need some help to first, get a grip on the addiction, then to get on my own feet.
Ok, now to break up the depressing with a funny story my son reminded me of last night.
A few years ago I had a $20 bill in my hand when I got home from some place. I had to go to the bathroom bad. So, I went, when I came out I realized I no longer had the $20. lol. Talk about an expensive wipe eh?
A few years ago I had a $20 bill in my hand when I got home from some place. I had to go to the bathroom bad. So, I went, when I came out I realized I no longer had the $20. lol. Talk about an expensive wipe eh?
liz,
hahaha spoiled isnt such a BAD thing : ) i consider myself spoiled and LOVE it. although i am grateful and appreciative always. oh and the best part.....i dont have to even live with the dude or put out hehehhe oh that prolly doesnt sound very good but hey again i am human get the heck over it!! do i feel guilty? hell naw, i raise the mans kids!
as far as rehab, well thats a personal choice that i wont talk anyone out of, but i do believe we all have it within us to dig deep down in thw farthest deepest depths of our soul to bring out the power beyond comprehension to do anything we set our minds too.
terrianne
hahaha spoiled isnt such a BAD thing : ) i consider myself spoiled and LOVE it. although i am grateful and appreciative always. oh and the best part.....i dont have to even live with the dude or put out hehehhe oh that prolly doesnt sound very good but hey again i am human get the heck over it!! do i feel guilty? hell naw, i raise the mans kids!
as far as rehab, well thats a personal choice that i wont talk anyone out of, but i do believe we all have it within us to dig deep down in thw farthest deepest depths of our soul to bring out the power beyond comprehension to do anything we set our minds too.
terrianne
I believe that to, we can do what we set our minds to. But I shut down here. Life here is so depressing and I just can't get passed that.
hahahaha liz ....expensive wipe, thats priceless lol i love it,
my friend john has property that mine and his son love to dress in camo and play army, well nick (johns son) is 14 my son 10, so i trusted them out there an hour away while we were out to dinner, we get a call at dinner that nick and cj burned up the scare crow which had a $20 bill hanging out of the pocket to make it look like the scare crow was stuffed with 20's hahaha the worst part was there was no running water!!! the best part was the way they told the story how it all went down hehehe. i was grateful they were safe and all i could come up with is boys will be boys hahahaha, that was soooooooo mild compared to growing up with my brother and my brother at age 39 hasnt changed hehehe and i love him for it all the more!!
terrianne
my friend john has property that mine and his son love to dress in camo and play army, well nick (johns son) is 14 my son 10, so i trusted them out there an hour away while we were out to dinner, we get a call at dinner that nick and cj burned up the scare crow which had a $20 bill hanging out of the pocket to make it look like the scare crow was stuffed with 20's hahaha the worst part was there was no running water!!! the best part was the way they told the story how it all went down hehehe. i was grateful they were safe and all i could come up with is boys will be boys hahahaha, that was soooooooo mild compared to growing up with my brother and my brother at age 39 hasnt changed hehehe and i love him for it all the more!!
terrianne
Hey Terrianne,
Was good talking to you. Think I'm going to try and get some more sleep. Have a great day.
Love,
Liz
Was good talking to you. Think I'm going to try and get some more sleep. Have a great day.
Love,
Liz
LOL Terrianne,
That's funny about the scare crow. I always say, two boys putting their minds together is very dangerous, never know what they will come up with. I grew up with 3 brothers and it was hell. lol
That's funny about the scare crow. I always say, two boys putting their minds together is very dangerous, never know what they will come up with. I grew up with 3 brothers and it was hell. lol
liz,
i was shut down too, believe me i so know where you are coming from, all i could do at one point was sit in the corner of my couch in a fetal position staring out the window. please trust me there is hope and it can and will get better. i promise that you are not different or "out there" are you taking your cymbalta? that helped me big time!
terrianne
i was shut down too, believe me i so know where you are coming from, all i could do at one point was sit in the corner of my couch in a fetal position staring out the window. please trust me there is hope and it can and will get better. i promise that you are not different or "out there" are you taking your cymbalta? that helped me big time!
terrianne
ok liz, i get some much needed rest and angels on your pillow oh and thanks for the chat.
terrianne
terrianne
Been trying to keep up with the cymbalta. Then like yesterday forgot to take it. I know missing doses doesn't help.
Thank you too Terrianne,
Was nice talking to you. I'll catch up with you later.
Was nice talking to you. I'll catch up with you later.
well all you can try to do is be consistant, all we ask is your best : )
goodnight
terrianne
goodnight
terrianne
yo boo you up yet???????????????? we sleep long enough when we are dead hun lmao jaxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Good Morning Jacky,
I'm up, lol....
I'm up, lol....
Hiya liz hows things today hun????????? jaxxx
Hey Jacky,
I'm doing ok this morning. Sitting here thinking about all the things I used to put my younger sister through and cracking up. How are you this afternoon? lol
I'm doing ok this morning. Sitting here thinking about all the things I used to put my younger sister through and cracking up. How are you this afternoon? lol
Yeah im good lol funny eh i remember my sister sitting and sewing all these shinny beads on her fur handbag 1960s then i took it out and w=swoped it for marbles oh sh.. was i in trouble lol jaxxxxxxxxxxx
lol Jacky, When my sister and I were in school nobody could tell us apart. They thought we were twins. They called us the twins and my sister is almost 2 years younger then me. I was the evil twin and so many times they thought she was me and boy did she get it.
