oops, you already started a thread. nevermind.
atlas
i already was able to read what you had posted before you edited it. i want out so bad but i cant afford to support myself yet. i am working 3 part time jobs and my income is not very good.
my counselor says no major life style changes in the first year of recovery and i am to detach from him. it is starting to take a toll on me as before when i was using my self esteem was zero and my mom will always defend him and say julie you know he didnt want to get married again.. and i would always reply, but i plan to give him the world and be june clever and linda lovelace and i was! so i spent many years thinking i deserved to be treated this way, after all julie you know you gained alot of weight after the boys were born and you know he likes thin women
my being sexually molested by my dad and the comments mom made that she hated me and wished i was never born made me feel i deserved this.
\but now things are changing and i am taking baby steps and have put it into Gods plan to guide and direct my path. one of these days one of those 3 jobs are gonna start to pay off and get me out of this mess i am in. it has been hard to devote myself to building a clientele as i was using drugs and taking time off of work to have surgeries so i could get drugs. sick , i know. i lost alot of people and they went elsewhere, my depression and lack of confidence kept me from promoting myself too..
but i am am starting to feel better and like myself more every day.
he says this house is his and i have not contributed anything to claim it as my ownl i insisted that i be a stay at home mother for which i was and the benefits from that have paid off as i alone raised them to be the good children that they are. i lost my financial independance and i plan to get it back! thanks for your concern atlas julie
i already was able to read what you had posted before you edited it. i want out so bad but i cant afford to support myself yet. i am working 3 part time jobs and my income is not very good.
my counselor says no major life style changes in the first year of recovery and i am to detach from him. it is starting to take a toll on me as before when i was using my self esteem was zero and my mom will always defend him and say julie you know he didnt want to get married again.. and i would always reply, but i plan to give him the world and be june clever and linda lovelace and i was! so i spent many years thinking i deserved to be treated this way, after all julie you know you gained alot of weight after the boys were born and you know he likes thin women
my being sexually molested by my dad and the comments mom made that she hated me and wished i was never born made me feel i deserved this.
\but now things are changing and i am taking baby steps and have put it into Gods plan to guide and direct my path. one of these days one of those 3 jobs are gonna start to pay off and get me out of this mess i am in. it has been hard to devote myself to building a clientele as i was using drugs and taking time off of work to have surgeries so i could get drugs. sick , i know. i lost alot of people and they went elsewhere, my depression and lack of confidence kept me from promoting myself too..
but i am am starting to feel better and like myself more every day.
he says this house is his and i have not contributed anything to claim it as my ownl i insisted that i be a stay at home mother for which i was and the benefits from that have paid off as i alone raised them to be the good children that they are. i lost my financial independance and i plan to get it back! thanks for your concern atlas julie
Jewels...before my electric kicks off(i got a feeling it may)I just wanted to send ((((((((((((((((((((((((a huge hug))))))))))))))))))0I know what its like to feel stuck & my heart is here for you.Anytime you need to vent just write ok?
Love Molly
Love Molly
(((((((((((((jewels)))))))))))))
i have to remind myself to let go of the past and live for today, to forgive those that have wornged me.........every single day
its hard.......
especially when new things come into play........
i am very greatful that when i feel so alone and have no one.......
i still have the Lord.......
i also pray that there will always be a desire for me to always turn to God....
i just wanted to let you know, although i have no words of wisdom, except your husband is not worth you loosing your self over.......
find your happiness and if it is without him then so be it.......
i truely believe that the Lord would not want us to stay with someone that is abusive in an shape or form...........
hugs
and
kisses
love
and
wishes
thumper
i have to remind myself to let go of the past and live for today, to forgive those that have wornged me.........every single day
its hard.......
especially when new things come into play........
i am very greatful that when i feel so alone and have no one.......
i still have the Lord.......
i also pray that there will always be a desire for me to always turn to God....
i just wanted to let you know, although i have no words of wisdom, except your husband is not worth you loosing your self over.......
find your happiness and if it is without him then so be it.......
i truely believe that the Lord would not want us to stay with someone that is abusive in an shape or form...........
hugs
and
kisses
love
and
wishes
thumper
