Hey you..havent' heard from you since Sunday night and I'm a little worried. You said you would get ahold of me on Monday.
Please check in and tell me what's up. If you're not comfortable talking on the board, please email me. Although, there are alot of people who care about you here. I don't have all the answers Jodi, someone here just might.
and in case no one has told you they love you today, consider yourself told.
Lisa
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Lisa (and Jim, too),
I really appreciate you asking about me. It means more to me than you will ever know. But I feel that all I can do now is apologize to those of you who have wasted your time on me. I can't see a way out. To put it simply, I feel like I am f***ed. Your friendships have meant the world to me. Lisa, Jim, Wendy, Tim, Michelle, Sharonn, Kat, Bish and to everyone else who has ever talked to me...Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I can only hope that someday I will find my way. But for now, I give up. I don't know what else to say or do. I am hurting, lost, so sad and I don't have it in me at this point to give a s***. I love all of you guys.
Talk to you later.
I really appreciate you asking about me. It means more to me than you will ever know. But I feel that all I can do now is apologize to those of you who have wasted your time on me. I can't see a way out. To put it simply, I feel like I am f***ed. Your friendships have meant the world to me. Lisa, Jim, Wendy, Tim, Michelle, Sharonn, Kat, Bish and to everyone else who has ever talked to me...Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I can only hope that someday I will find my way. But for now, I give up. I don't know what else to say or do. I am hurting, lost, so sad and I don't have it in me at this point to give a s***. I love all of you guys.
Talk to you later.
Jodi, I just wrote this long email to tim about how maybe you felt...can I share it with you? Tell me if Im right?
sure
Oh no you don't Jodi. I am not going to let you give up. I know you feel bad, and I know your hurting, but you have to believe that there is a way out. I know things don't seem that way, but trust me, it will get better.
I used to wish to God I could be like people who were not addicts. I used to sit and cry because I needed a freakin pill to get up and take care of my kids, but you know what Jodi, thats all an illusion. I didn't need those pills, all I needed was some time, time for me to get myself on the right track.
I wish I could just come and pick you up, and give you a big hug. What can I do to help you Jodi, I hate seeing you like this. It breaks my heart. Can I help you with a taper, call a doctor for you, anything, you say the word. Please email me.
michelle
I used to wish to God I could be like people who were not addicts. I used to sit and cry because I needed a freakin pill to get up and take care of my kids, but you know what Jodi, thats all an illusion. I didn't need those pills, all I needed was some time, time for me to get myself on the right track.
I wish I could just come and pick you up, and give you a big hug. What can I do to help you Jodi, I hate seeing you like this. It breaks my heart. Can I help you with a taper, call a doctor for you, anything, you say the word. Please email me.
michelle
sent, let me know..k?
Jodi where are you?
Jodi...please don't give up..you can make one tiny step..better than nothing at all...can you taper? is it possible for you to go to a medical detox? I hate to see you this way..I've been there and i know how hopeles it sems...but it's not...I can tell you have a good head on your shoulders...addiction is hell..please try..ok? Love,, Sharonn
Dear Jodi,
We've never met but I feel your pain. Ive had your pain. I have felt the exact same emotions you describe.. many people on this board have...you may not believe it right now but you can and will feel better. I am sure that not ONE PERSON felt like theyve "wasted their time' on you REGARDLESS of whether you were succesful at first, 2nd or 3rd attempt to stop using your DOC..
Very few people wake up and say gosh..i think im going to change my life and stop smoking today, stop my DOC today...thats why its a process...and what you are feeling right now is part of that process.Its normal.
I remember the absolute panic when a friend of mine, ( ironically she has the same name as you...) who was also taking narcotics, started to taper herself....she met someone knew and had decided this was it, she wanted OFF the drug and wanted to go to Europe in 2 months with this new guy...i kept saying...but how? how are you doing it? she kept saying the same thing...well this week i take X amount then next week Y amount etc....I knew WHAT she was saying but i just DIDNT GET HOW SHE WAS ABLE TO DO IT......her offer to "write the taper down for me" just exasperated my feelings of defeat.....And as sure as God made little green apples, she stuck to her taper and fluttered off to Europe with her good looking male sidekick....I was devastated.
Its years later now...and Im just starting to "get it'....starting to have even the ability to make postive moves to come off this damn drug....its a process honey and it may take you 3, 4, or 10 times to finally do it but as you will see on this board it is NOT IMPOSSIBLE.
We are capable of changing our lives for the better, capable of changing our outlook, it may just not happen as fast as you are wanting it to happen...but when you are feeling like your at the bottom theres no way out but up....thats why they call it rock bottom...(lol)
Try not to be so hard on yourself, keep posting, lets learn from each others mistakes and triumphs....again no one feels they are wasting time here encouraging others, helping each other IS helping ourselves...
Keep posting!!!
Hugs,
Ali
We've never met but I feel your pain. Ive had your pain. I have felt the exact same emotions you describe.. many people on this board have...you may not believe it right now but you can and will feel better. I am sure that not ONE PERSON felt like theyve "wasted their time' on you REGARDLESS of whether you were succesful at first, 2nd or 3rd attempt to stop using your DOC..
Very few people wake up and say gosh..i think im going to change my life and stop smoking today, stop my DOC today...thats why its a process...and what you are feeling right now is part of that process.Its normal.
I remember the absolute panic when a friend of mine, ( ironically she has the same name as you...) who was also taking narcotics, started to taper herself....she met someone knew and had decided this was it, she wanted OFF the drug and wanted to go to Europe in 2 months with this new guy...i kept saying...but how? how are you doing it? she kept saying the same thing...well this week i take X amount then next week Y amount etc....I knew WHAT she was saying but i just DIDNT GET HOW SHE WAS ABLE TO DO IT......her offer to "write the taper down for me" just exasperated my feelings of defeat.....And as sure as God made little green apples, she stuck to her taper and fluttered off to Europe with her good looking male sidekick....I was devastated.
Its years later now...and Im just starting to "get it'....starting to have even the ability to make postive moves to come off this damn drug....its a process honey and it may take you 3, 4, or 10 times to finally do it but as you will see on this board it is NOT IMPOSSIBLE.
We are capable of changing our lives for the better, capable of changing our outlook, it may just not happen as fast as you are wanting it to happen...but when you are feeling like your at the bottom theres no way out but up....thats why they call it rock bottom...(lol)
Try not to be so hard on yourself, keep posting, lets learn from each others mistakes and triumphs....again no one feels they are wasting time here encouraging others, helping each other IS helping ourselves...
Keep posting!!!
Hugs,
Ali
Jodi, you don't have to apologize to anyone...no one "wastes their time" when trying to help a fellow addict. You can ask anyone here how long I fought to get clean...nobody ever gave up on me, and I thank my lucky stars that they have been here to support me. Don't ever think that you aren't good enough to be here, we love you and will be here to support you, whether you are using or not.
Just keep on posting, eventually things will fall into place and you will find yourself at the point that you need to be in order to quit.
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Just keep on posting, eventually things will fall into place and you will find yourself at the point that you need to be in order to quit.
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Jodi...you know me well enough by now to know that I don't give up very easy. So giving up on you isn't an option.
I've been where you are. Thought, what the hell, I'll just be an addict the rest of my life. I could not see any way out of it. I know it's harder for you because of your home situation but Jodi, I know you don't want to die. I know you want to be there for your children. You are all they have. If you won't keep trying for yourself, at least try for them. You don't have to quit right this second. But you never stop trying. You need to talk to us, keep posting on this board. Keep emailing me those wonderful long emails that I look forward to. Do you know how much you have helped me?
Please, don't give up. Just take a break for a moment or two, but never give up.
Sorry kiddo, but you're stuck with me. And I stick like glue.
I do love you
Lisa
I've been where you are. Thought, what the hell, I'll just be an addict the rest of my life. I could not see any way out of it. I know it's harder for you because of your home situation but Jodi, I know you don't want to die. I know you want to be there for your children. You are all they have. If you won't keep trying for yourself, at least try for them. You don't have to quit right this second. But you never stop trying. You need to talk to us, keep posting on this board. Keep emailing me those wonderful long emails that I look forward to. Do you know how much you have helped me?
Please, don't give up. Just take a break for a moment or two, but never give up.
Sorry kiddo, but you're stuck with me. And I stick like glue.
I do love you
Lisa
Jodi,
I know you're frustrated and feel lost right now, but please don't give up. The pills are making you feel that way. And, please, don't ever feel like you're wasting our time. That's just not possible. That's why we're all here. To talk to fellow addicts, whether they're using or clean. You can do this, Jodi. Today might not be the day it happens, but don't rule it out altogether. We get a new chance every morning we wake up. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you as well.
Love,
DeNae
I know you're frustrated and feel lost right now, but please don't give up. The pills are making you feel that way. And, please, don't ever feel like you're wasting our time. That's just not possible. That's why we're all here. To talk to fellow addicts, whether they're using or clean. You can do this, Jodi. Today might not be the day it happens, but don't rule it out altogether. We get a new chance every morning we wake up. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you as well.
Love,
DeNae
Today is a new day Jodi.
I hope you are feeling better!
Take care;
Jim
I hope you are feeling better!
Take care;
Jim
Come back Jodi, there are so many people here that really care about you. We've all been in that dark place, you don't have to stay there. There is hope for you Jodi.
xx
Redd
Hi Jodie,i agree with everthing that has been said.I think at some point we have all felt like its just useless,its never going to happen,im just WASTING my time and others.And as hard as it feels right now,for you,the fact that you are still here,still reaching out,shows that no matter what,you DO want this,and in time,you will.It just takes time.Like Denae said,we get a new chance every morning.There is no LIMIT on how long it takes.Just dont ever give up the WANT.It will happen,and we will all be here to help.Thats the beauty of this board and the people here.There is no wasting of anyones time time,we are all here to help and be helped,through good and bed.I pray today is a better day for you.Stop in and say hello,you are a part of us!Take care~KIM
Jodi..tell you what, if you don't come back here and post, I'll share your email with everyone on the board so that they can all email you hundreds of letters telling you why they care about you. And then I'll send it to every spammer and then....well, you get the picture.
Today IS a new day. A new day to start over.
Come on girl..
Lisa
Today IS a new day. A new day to start over.
Come on girl..
Lisa
Hi Jodi(so much for my going to bed)I read your post & I had to say something.I think by now you can tell that most of us have been where you are.I know thats little comfort when its you going through it.You say you give up but I just dont see you wanting to.From what I read about you you are at such a hard crossroad right now.It probaly wouldnt be so bad if it was only one thing going on but you seem to have so much on your plate.I cant say much more than what the other say only to say I hope you keep posting,as long as you keep reaching out to us Im sure we will keep reaching back.hopefully youll feel how strong you can be.If nothing else you dont have to walk alone when so many of us can understand.thats about all I can say.I hope you take care & I hope you keep posting((((((((((hug))))))))))))))))mj
