John Or Neon I Need You Guys ~

I went to Tenseness and I took more sub. than I was supposes to. Before I left I was doing great better I was doing everything by the book. I went up there with no support. Cause my husband was home and I couldn't get online except for a min to e-mail Misty. I am prescribed 10 mgs a day. I only have 4mgs for today and 4 mgs for tom. Then I see my detox Dr. on Wed. I will tell him what I have done (so afraid to) but I am.

My Question : Am I going to get sick ?
If yes how bad is it going to be ?
Should I call him and tell him today or wait until Wed. ?
Marina, I would call him today and tell him what you did, be honest with him. My doc calls me three times a week still, I think most doctors are learning about how sub works and appreciate the feedback.
I would think you have quite a bit of sub built up in your system and only taking 4mgs a day would be fine. So dont get anxious Marina you should be OK. Maybe you'll find out that you can get by with less sub and get used to a lower dose.

Good luck
Let me know how it turns out
JohnDee
Also his office opens back up in 20 mins !
From there lunch break.
John ~

I can stop crying !!! I just hate myself for messing up SOOOOOOOO Bad.
I had no one up there !

John I am so scared and I feel so alone !!!
Marina, dont be so hard on yourself, you didnt mess up, your body tells you when you need the sub, Im sure the doctor will understand. It takes a while for us the get used to life without drugs and there will be hard times now and then. Give yourself a chance to heal and get used to being drug free, for now the sub will help you make that transition.
Call your doc and let me know what he says.

Johndee
I am so glad you posted to him......John I am glad you were out there....listen to him....and check your e-mail!
Misty
I got your e-mail and wrote you back can you check it ?


John ~
I am going to call him now.
I left a message and he should be calling me back sometime today? ( my detox Dr.) He owns his own rehab clinic so he is a very busy Dr. I feel better just knowing that I will talk to him .

Thanks Jonh and misty you two really kept me going when I was really freaking out !!

Lot's of love and hugs

Bless you too. I only hope I can do that for you guys one day
Always your friend
Ok the kids are home and will be taking over.....I will keep peeking in but I lost my instant message abilities, to the younger sect....lol You hang in ok....
I shall return!
Hi Marina:
Don't worry - the Sub has a very long shelf life. When my boyfriend quit the sub, it took three full days before he felt the effects of stopping it C/T. He did this twice too so by that time, you will have seen you doctor and have gotten your new dosage and it's not like you stopping C/T anyway - you are still taking a dose. A lot of people also do doses every other day instead of every day because of the long life of it.
Don't worry - you aren't going to feel sick and even if you do, it will be barely noticeable.
Take care!
Mickey
Thanks Mickey !
I haven't talked to you in a long time. How are you and your partner ? I hope everything is well :-)
I finally stopped crying. Thanks to my friends here.
It means a lot to me that you posted to me, if you ever need me pal, you know where to find me.
Your Friend
Glad your feeling better Marina, keep us posted to how your doing

Hey Mickey,
Hope all is well......how is your boyfriend doing.......posted to you on the other board to see how things were. If you get a chance check it out......Talk to you soon.
Tina

Hey Marina.... I'll keep checking in go to go figure out what I am cooking for dinner......
Hi Marina:
We're doing pretty good. For some reason, I have some nagging suspicions about him using, but I haven't seen any signs at all yet so I guess that's a good thing!
It's hopefully just me having to deal with trusting him again and forgiving him for lying before but I'm keeping my eyes open. There's been a couple of weird instances where it's pretty definite he's hiding something or lying about something, but I'm not sure what or if it's just a huge misunderstanding on my part. But usually, your gut doesn't lie, right?
Anyway, we'll see and I'm going to try and be positive about it all. I can't stress myself out about his recovery right now. I've got enought to deal with with the Christmas season.
Keep us updated on what your doc says - and I wouldn't worry about telling him either. He knows your an addict in recovery and these slips happen often. You will probably get a lot of respect from him for being so honest with him and it will just allow him to help you even more.
Good luck and take care!

Tina:
I posted back to you on the other board!
Thanks!

Mickey
Marina
Like others have said you will be fine. The Subs long half life and the 4mgx2 will see you thruogh. I would look at it as an oppertunity. You mentioned that you want to be off before christmas.......Well.....I would not go back up but stay on the 4mg with a view of dropping further over the next few days. You may even find you feel better. If you dont you will have a job to get off before the target time. Most feel the Sub leaving when they get below 2mg and I suspect that you don't want to be feeling below parr during the holiday because it may be a trigger for you to use again.
Neon
Neon
I mentioned that, I thought that maybe it could be a good thing.
Maybe I messed up for a reason. Thanks for getting back to me !

lots of love

Neon did you ever get my e-mail ?
Hey sweetie,
Did you hear anything yet....jumped on real quick. Have to give it back up to a kid but I will be back.
Tina