Just another day of crying and waitng till my son returns safely home.Only this time it feels diferent.he said his fed up and wants it all to end,maybe thats cos i caught him using herion this morning and he feels like crap.He said he loved me before he went out.my god i hope he comes home safe.
When I was a running heroin addict I also scared the schit out of my family as most of do. We also mean it when we say "I love you mom"
However,when your out there feeling sick ,nothing else matters except to get the product that will make you feel better.
The worrying isnt going to stop until he does.
Hang around this board and better yet -the family board - You,ll find good people who have been thru it and have a lot of good advise.
all the best
jack
However,when your out there feeling sick ,nothing else matters except to get the product that will make you feel better.
The worrying isnt going to stop until he does.
Hang around this board and better yet -the family board - You,ll find good people who have been thru it and have a lot of good advise.
all the best
jack
JackofHartzz,
Your son will come home. Try to not worry too much; ask your Higher Power or God to be with him and the people he is hanging around with. Ask your Power to keep your son safe and to surround him with good, safe people. (Who knows: Maybe one of those people will be someone who can play a positive role in your son's recovery.) He WILL come home, though, that's the main thing. Everyone here can probably relate to how you feel and what you're thinking right now. Always a worst case scenario, of course. But soon he'll be back home and, even if he used, he will be back, safe in the house. And that's all we can really ask for, just for today.
prayers sent up for you and yours
SuzySezSo
Your son will come home. Try to not worry too much; ask your Higher Power or God to be with him and the people he is hanging around with. Ask your Power to keep your son safe and to surround him with good, safe people. (Who knows: Maybe one of those people will be someone who can play a positive role in your son's recovery.) He WILL come home, though, that's the main thing. Everyone here can probably relate to how you feel and what you're thinking right now. Always a worst case scenario, of course. But soon he'll be back home and, even if he used, he will be back, safe in the house. And that's all we can really ask for, just for today.
prayers sent up for you and yours
SuzySezSo
Thanks for your kind words and prayers i,v been doing a lot of that lately
Paul did come home. He had used and was full of sorrow and guilt.we talked about guardian angels.Paul thinks his will have done a runner.Keeping him safe is too much work even for an angel.
Paul did come home. He had used and was full of sorrow and guilt.we talked about guardian angels.Paul thinks his will have done a runner.Keeping him safe is too much work even for an angel.
it might be of help to call him" my son that usues heoin " rather than " my junkie son ". i know that making someone feel guilty just makes the problem worse. with me that is. and if he believes in angels (which i do ) then he has to call upon them to help him rather than wait for them to help.they will give him a little sign which he will recognize. good luck and all the best.
Dear Jack,
Thanks for writing these words...."We also mean it when we say "I love you mom" However,when your out there feeling sick ,nothing else matters except to get the product that will make you feel better." I still carry around some hurt that it seemed like my son didn't care about what he was putting us through...especially me because we were always close. I still feel some distance between us and I think it's his guilt. Even though he's been doing so well, he is quieter around me. It's sad. I hope some day that our relationship is restored to what it was before drugs!
Love,
Susan
Thanks for writing these words...."We also mean it when we say "I love you mom" However,when your out there feeling sick ,nothing else matters except to get the product that will make you feel better." I still carry around some hurt that it seemed like my son didn't care about what he was putting us through...especially me because we were always close. I still feel some distance between us and I think it's his guilt. Even though he's been doing so well, he is quieter around me. It's sad. I hope some day that our relationship is restored to what it was before drugs!
Love,
Susan
My mom used to score for me sometimes when I was sick. She worried so much about and loved me so much. She couldn't stand to see me in pain and I know I took advantage of that fact. when my mom was dying, she was ready to go but she was so worried about me that my sister had to promise to look out for me before Mom could let go. And I was 43 years old!!! I'm glad at least that I started on a methadone program before she got sick and she did start seeing a change in me. She had been through alot of relapses with me. I hope she knew how much I loved her as I'm sure your son loves you. It's hard to show love when you're using. It takes everything you got(mentally and Physically) to feed the gorilla on your back. And he's lucky as I was to have a mom that so obviously loves him. Jack's right. If you post on the family board here, I bet you'll find other Mother's with the same worries. It does help to talk about things with people who are understanding. PEACE, Shirley
