SOMETIMES, I DREAM OF USING AGAIN, JUST FOR THE FUN OF IT.. THEN I REMEMBER THERE WAS NO FUN IN THE END OF MY DRUG DAYS. STILL I OFTER HAVE DREAMS ABOUT IT,AND WAKE UP AND KNOW I HAVE BEEN SOBER FOR 3YRS AND GO GET MY OC'S ONE MORE TIME, TELLING MYSELF AFTER I PUKE IT UP, " IM NOT GOING TO DO THAT AGAIN" AND 6 MONTHS LATER I DO IT AGAIN.. THINKING JUST FOR THE FUN OF IT.. SICK I KNOW
Hi Susan - Just browsing this site and read your post about your dream of using again. Well I don't know if I can help you any but I used to smoke quite a lot once upon a time and I finally made up my mind to quit as I was admitted to hospital with bronchial problems, etc..., anyway . . . before this happened I had tried quitting every way I could over a number of years and and finally I just did 'cold turkey' and it worked!!! Then one night I had the most depressing reality dream of actually smoking two packs of cigs in no time flat and when I realized what I had done after having quit I was very disappointed with myself and soooo discouraged . . . . but then after awhile I realized I was wide awake! and it was really only a dream - I hadn't gone back to smoking and that dream made my resolve stronger than ever and it satisfied any further cravings for cigs. I still haven't smoked to this day!!!! SO! dreams can be messages to help you keep fighting to win over our vices! Hope this helps, o.k.?
