Ok, Well, I don't even know where to start. I'm just doing this because I feel like writing/talking about it, might help me just a little, instead of holding it in, Because I really dont have anyone to talk to around here. But when i was born, my mom had to leave my dad because he spent all our money an drugs, and he would get drunk all the time, and was mean. So We left him. I'm not sure if that kind of stuff is genetic, because some people on my mothers side has also delt with some problems just like that. But I've been noticing for the past 2 years, that i have been very unhappy, like, dont get me wrong though, my life really isnt that bad, i have a wonderful boyfriend, that is soo good to me, i really dont have any bills i have to pay, i am in debt like 600 right now for a court cost, but my parents are good to me, and im going to school. I just can't help but have an empty feeling inside of me, it's like there is something missing in my life, and no matter how much i do to try and stay busy, or be around people i love, i am always unhappy, i think this is why i have picked up my drinking problem, and im not even old enough to buy it, 19. That is why i had to go to court also. But when im drinking, it just kind of makes everything go away for a little while, like it actually makes me happy. But since i have gotten introuble, and started dating my boyfriend, i've decided that i dont need to do it because its not good for me. But now im just always so unhappy and i dont know what to do or what i should do to take the place of the alchohal, and it just sucks.
Hi Jam...20 years ago I was 19 and felt like you...very unhappy...I didn't know what the problem was...went for counseling...thought I was going crazy...I wasn't really...I was (am) an alcoholic...And 2 months after I turned 19...I went to AA....I thought I was too young...I thought it had to be something else or someone else...But what it came down to was my addiction to alcohol...It wasn't easy to walk into the rooms...Rehab was a last option...I didn't have insurance....And one day at a time I have stayed sober since....Life is still not perfect but I handle it a lot better...AA gave me tools, a program, the steps to deal with life on life's terms without alcohol....
And to my surprise there were many "young" people in the rooms...
Can you go and talk to your psych services at college? Or you can call the AA hotline...and keep posting...there is hope...there is help....{{{HUGS}}} Love Gina
And to my surprise there were many "young" people in the rooms...
Can you go and talk to your psych services at college? Or you can call the AA hotline...and keep posting...there is hope...there is help....{{{HUGS}}} Love Gina
Hi Jam, You came to the right place their are people that post here that have been in your shoes. Some of them are at the same point you are. Others are a little further ahead & some still are much further down the path of recovery. And some havn't even come to the realization that they may have a problem. I'm glad your questioning things, I'm glad your reaching out for help. Start reading some of the threads they will speak to you. You will know that your not alone. Put up some posts it will help you to let it out. It also helps somebody like me who knows the pain. I know drinking only helps the pain go away for a little while. Then it comes back even stronger. If you have Ins. talk to a counselor, maybe your school counselor can refer you to one. Call the AA hotline & find a meeting you will receive some help there. Keep reaching out to others it really does help. I'm glad your here. Chris
Welcome! Drinking made me sad and depressed for most of the 28 years I drank...in the end I did not have a choice, I had to drink, until I surrendered and embraced a 12 Step program of recovery that is....I still at times get depressed but nothing like I use to when drinking and I come out of it much faster now. Keep posting and venting!
thanks you guys for caring and helping :).
Hi Jam, I've been thinking & praying for you this AM. I hope you will keep coming back & reaching out for help. May your day be a little easier knowing that other people have walked in your shoes. That these same people have found some peace & happiness in their lives. Jam you are not alone! Read some of the threads they will speak to you. Love, Chris
Gidday Jam
Have you tryed talking to your Mum about how you feel about things and does your boyfriend know what is going on for you. Dont let fear quieten your ability to talk with the ones you love
Light and love Zac
Have you tryed talking to your Mum about how you feel about things and does your boyfriend know what is going on for you. Dont let fear quieten your ability to talk with the ones you love
Light and love Zac
