Hi Guys, I'm kinda new to this website. Just reading the posts that people send has helped me though difficult days. I have been addicted to pain killers for atleast seven years, it all started with a throat operation which was suppose to be a simple procedure, but I got an infection and it ended up being a problem that meant going in and out of the hospital for three years. So I was on all kinds of pain meds which led to addiction. I see alot of similair cases on this message board like mine. I stoped taking my lortabs and oxycotin in late nov '03 and signed up at the little methadone clinic down the street, so now I have this monkey with 100mg a day. I hope and pray I can kick it oneday,,,I just don't see myself being drug free in my life, maybe oneday. No one in my life understands how it is to be an addict. No one knew that I had been taking pills until I told them in Nov. It was a big shock to my wife and the few people that I chose to tell, now that I have been going to the clinic my family thought that I would just go for a couple of weeks and that I would be fine, they don't understand that I didnt' get addicted overnight, so it is going to take awhile for me to off this s***...I'm not ready yet and if I do ween myself off methadone now I will be right back were I was,,probably a worse habit then before. I am just glad to have found a place to talk to people that understand me, because we are all in the same boat...
Hi Jake,
Welcome friend. I am glad that you have found us, i am still a newcomer on here as well, under a month. I still use, but fewer pills everyday and in June(2nd week) i am going into detox.....i have things to clear up first and being a single mom and only I to rely on for money I can't just up and go.
I know what you mean about people thinking that you can just quit just like that....ask them ( if any are smokers) to "just quit" smoking and see how easy it is for them!!!!! I used to get into with my ex-boyfriend, he is a smoker and I have an eating disorder since i was 14. He told me one day to just stop "eating and puking can't imagine it is that hard to do".....i replied to him when he totally quits smoking then i will stop doing what i am doing....he tried then realized that it isn't as easy as it may sound and apologized....i know this isn't about drugs, but i needed an example seeing as how only 1 person in my life (knowingly knows, sure some may suspect) about my addiction.
Only thing i can tell ya Jake is to take one day at a time....corny i know.
love and take care,
Hilary
again welcome to my extended family, there are dozens of us with all different stories and experiences....later, babe.
Welcome friend. I am glad that you have found us, i am still a newcomer on here as well, under a month. I still use, but fewer pills everyday and in June(2nd week) i am going into detox.....i have things to clear up first and being a single mom and only I to rely on for money I can't just up and go.
I know what you mean about people thinking that you can just quit just like that....ask them ( if any are smokers) to "just quit" smoking and see how easy it is for them!!!!! I used to get into with my ex-boyfriend, he is a smoker and I have an eating disorder since i was 14. He told me one day to just stop "eating and puking can't imagine it is that hard to do".....i replied to him when he totally quits smoking then i will stop doing what i am doing....he tried then realized that it isn't as easy as it may sound and apologized....i know this isn't about drugs, but i needed an example seeing as how only 1 person in my life (knowingly knows, sure some may suspect) about my addiction.
Only thing i can tell ya Jake is to take one day at a time....corny i know.
love and take care,
Hilary
again welcome to my extended family, there are dozens of us with all different stories and experiences....later, babe.
Hi,
Well, you say you are not ready yet, but you came here and asked for help so I think it's fair to say you are stuck in an ambivalent state of mind, a place we all have been (usually at some point close to getting that dang monkey off our backs). I have been reading a lot on this board about doing a subutex wean. From what I gather, Subutex is easier to come off of than Methadone. I also think (though I am not certain) that you can take it at home because if you take more than the recommended dose, it won't get you high and in fact, you won't get high if you take pills while you are on it (someone correct me if I am wrong).
I took alot of pills and was given methadone at rehab to withdraw. Not Fun, coming off the Methadone! Good Luck, you have taken the first step and come to the right place. There are a lot of knowlegeable people here.
Sara
Well, you say you are not ready yet, but you came here and asked for help so I think it's fair to say you are stuck in an ambivalent state of mind, a place we all have been (usually at some point close to getting that dang monkey off our backs). I have been reading a lot on this board about doing a subutex wean. From what I gather, Subutex is easier to come off of than Methadone. I also think (though I am not certain) that you can take it at home because if you take more than the recommended dose, it won't get you high and in fact, you won't get high if you take pills while you are on it (someone correct me if I am wrong).
I took alot of pills and was given methadone at rehab to withdraw. Not Fun, coming off the Methadone! Good Luck, you have taken the first step and come to the right place. There are a lot of knowlegeable people here.
Sara
