Hi every1 been away, but a should be home soon, a was nearly clean but the gf was not detoxing at all and I new if I came over here I would be right back on it, anyway I am going home soon, and a will do it myself, hope she can do it 2 as we will have to stay apart til she is clean, hope she can, It just 1 excuse after another to keep using.
When I get home am going to do a quick detox on subs as she saved up loads 4 me, just shows how much she was using, thats where all the money went. I am so angry, we should of been well clean by now. just have to start again when I get home.
Hope every1 is going ok, hope to get back on as soon as I can.
G
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geoff mate long time no talk ,hope all is as well as can be expected,thought you were m.i.a for awhile im down Kerry with my nipper plenty of guiness&grub&funny accents.Will be back at the wknd.keep us posted mucker , missed ya.All the best AS ever ...davey
..Geo..
..Maybe thats wot you need is time apart..its hard enough trying to stop on ya own..but if your g/f is using still..then its gonna be double hard for you to stop..
being by yaself for a while will give you the space you need to get clean..you know wot they say..if at first you don,t succeed..try again..good luck..Robbie..
..Davey..
..Good to read things are good over there with you and your daughter..enjoy ya time away..see ya when i see ya..Robbie..
..Maybe thats wot you need is time apart..its hard enough trying to stop on ya own..but if your g/f is using still..then its gonna be double hard for you to stop..
being by yaself for a while will give you the space you need to get clean..you know wot they say..if at first you don,t succeed..try again..good luck..Robbie..
..Davey..
..Good to read things are good over there with you and your daughter..enjoy ya time away..see ya when i see ya..Robbie..
Hello my trusted friends, went over 2 meet the gf and she was on the gear all the time, As you all no was down 2 10mil meth once a went 2 scotland was scoring 16th all the time, new that would happy, well a did think the gf was on the detox, I throught wrong, I told her if she was taking I can't come over, and she said she was, lies, I was there 4 1 month.
Got loads of subs on 8mil, on me own again so will try a quick detox of the subs, will try my best this is a first, will not tell no lies would kill 4 a burn, but it will kill me in the end,
I crave, but i will not give in, clean is my goal, why why, never in my life have I been controled by a drug, we all can do it, WE ALL CAN WIN!!!!!!!!!
Luv G
loads 2 tell u all
Got loads of subs on 8mil, on me own again so will try a quick detox of the subs, will try my best this is a first, will not tell no lies would kill 4 a burn, but it will kill me in the end,
I crave, but i will not give in, clean is my goal, why why, never in my life have I been controled by a drug, we all can do it, WE ALL CAN WIN!!!!!!!!!
Luv G
loads 2 tell u all
Geoff,mate..how do,seems like youve been having yer ups"n"downs.when you were away for a bit&wasnt posting i did think it might have gotten hold of you again(gear of course).Gonna be straight,you gotta get away from yer missus if yer ever goin to be clean,i dont know the whole story but it seems you are in love with her&smack,not just her&she seems to be the trigger for you using.Hows your wee one?good i hope.Alls o.k wid me.Mate stay strong,will talk soon....all the best...Davey
Alright again Geoff,was gonna ask about the subs&the rattle you have to do before getting stabilised on them,but read another post you sent to Sash,so it seems youve already started.Geoff you sound confident about ataying off&im sure the subs will help in yer struggle.All the best as ever....Davey.p.s working till 10pm so will be on after that if you want a chat,take care bro...
Dave you our totally right bout the gf, have always throught that but a just want to try so hard 2 keep my family 2gether.
I was never a drug person just maybe the odd week-end, til the gf introduced me 2 gear, I swear I never in my life throught that a drug could have so much hold over a person, and the withdrawels, I still don't believe, but u know the only way 2 find out is to actually have been an addict.
When I went over 2 meet the gf I was on the gear every day, it was really onexpected, so I came home early, don't know if she will ever detox, and I am starting to get pissed of, she said she stop when I went home, she is going to go back on the meth, so I really hope she will.
We even met a guy abroad that we were getting smack of, could not believe it,
Wee girl of starting to string words 2gether, I some times throught, I would have finished with her a long time ago, if I did'nt have my girl, it's amazing how much u love them.
just got my boardband account ready 2 install so should be on alot more, it took me 11hrs to dowload the browser, dail-up never new how slow it ready was til a got b-band.
How are you Dave what mils r u on, how is ur little 1.
Hope ur doing well mate.
Geo
I was never a drug person just maybe the odd week-end, til the gf introduced me 2 gear, I swear I never in my life throught that a drug could have so much hold over a person, and the withdrawels, I still don't believe, but u know the only way 2 find out is to actually have been an addict.
When I went over 2 meet the gf I was on the gear every day, it was really onexpected, so I came home early, don't know if she will ever detox, and I am starting to get pissed of, she said she stop when I went home, she is going to go back on the meth, so I really hope she will.
We even met a guy abroad that we were getting smack of, could not believe it,
Wee girl of starting to string words 2gether, I some times throught, I would have finished with her a long time ago, if I did'nt have my girl, it's amazing how much u love them.
just got my boardband account ready 2 install so should be on alot more, it took me 11hrs to dowload the browser, dail-up never new how slow it ready was til a got b-band.
How are you Dave what mils r u on, how is ur little 1.
Hope ur doing well mate.
Geo
Geoff,mate...so the story goes eh!,mad how junkies can spot each other,i.e your man abroard.but if you want it youll get i suppose.Geoff i really feel for ya concerning yer wee girl,as you know ive got mine f/t bar the odd wkend her mum wants to see her,long storey,wot im saying mate is you have got as much input into yer daughters life as yer g/f.Mines 7 now&all is good,we cant look for perfection but getting on suits me.Maybe a meth. maintenance is better for your g/f it is for me&to ans.yer Q?im on 70ml&get my takeouts,its a drag but im a realist&never want to do a rattle again,so it suits me,each to there own.The relationship i had wid my ex was based around smack,once the gear was gone all our demons surfaced,so we split,v hard but i thank my blessings now.God i hope im not depressing ya.Take care bro...all the best as ever...Davey
Not at all Dave, I took about 2mg subs 2day and a hope it holds me just tried to order vally's so when they come I am going to stop the subs, and take the vally's 4 a couple of days, and then hopefully, I will be FREE.
Dave don't get me wrong I know the battle is only half over, man it just takes one thing to kick of a craving, and you could just kill to get some,
I was stupid pal, I was going with the gf about a year are more, tryin 2 get her off it, and then I think I must of just said, if u can beat them join them,
At least I understand what she is going through, and my people can get drawn back to gear, my internet connection is going my nut in, and a can't find away to uninstall norton internet secruity,
Also bought a wireless dsl modem and a can't get it to work, it worked 1 time then when I tried to log on again it did'nt work, 70 down the drain.
I see they have a link now to chat rooms on the main page, going now to check it out, so if your about, a might c u in there.
it's 12:44am fri.
C u later mate
Geo
Dave don't get me wrong I know the battle is only half over, man it just takes one thing to kick of a craving, and you could just kill to get some,
I was stupid pal, I was going with the gf about a year are more, tryin 2 get her off it, and then I think I must of just said, if u can beat them join them,
At least I understand what she is going through, and my people can get drawn back to gear, my internet connection is going my nut in, and a can't find away to uninstall norton internet secruity,
Also bought a wireless dsl modem and a can't get it to work, it worked 1 time then when I tried to log on again it did'nt work, 70 down the drain.
I see they have a link now to chat rooms on the main page, going now to check it out, so if your about, a might c u in there.
it's 12:44am fri.
C u later mate
Geo
Geoff am about for a bit ,take care,also having computer probs,talk soon...Davey
Checked out that chatroom link, load of crap, any what time u start work at.
by the way made an email n.i.guy@hotmail.co.uk, if you ever wana chat.
Geo
by the way made an email n.i.guy@hotmail.co.uk, if you ever wana chat.
Geo
Geoff,had a look for that link,couldnt see it?your right getting off is one thing its staying off thats the kicker,i thought i could have a bit every now&then,with me being on the meth.etc...but the now&agains just got closer,closer so its all or nothing.Ive got 3mnths.off now&the smack still in my head but its the benzos that i really have to take care with coz i would gobble loads,you wouldnt think it but staying off valium or wotever is that bad but believe you me they are the worst,thats if youve been on them for 3yrs,like me.your setup sounds good,subs&then the vallys for a while.We seem to be just missing each other by minutes on this board ,am off to work shortly,but will log on bout 8pm.later mate...Davey
I know mate thats why we need to find a chatroom, there is only so much you can say on these boards, cause u never no who is reading them.
might go on the piss 2nite not sure, was full on wed. night so don't know if a could be bothered with another hangover.
So much I would like 2 tell u. but as i said who knows who reads these.
Talk later pal
Geo
might go on the piss 2nite not sure, was full on wed. night so don't know if a could be bothered with another hangover.
So much I would like 2 tell u. but as i said who knows who reads these.
Talk later pal
Geo
Hope things are goin good for ya...hows the subs ?Dunno how much ya can say on these boards,but as long as the nicely named Northern Irish Police Authority arnt wanting a wee chat LLOL you should be sound.My computer has more viruses than a 40yr old Ballyfermot iv user...so i dont wanna use my email,but will hopefully having it sorted soonish.Will be about as usual....take care Geoff...All the best...Davey
