I am back now if you need to talk. Are you there?
Kathleen.....I have to leave again and take my son to b'ball practice. There is a topic posted on the main page of Pain Pills......Getting Clean and Staying Clean. Please read it, it will be helpful.
Also, need to know how much you were taking and for how long.
I will be back around 7:30-8:00 if you want to talk. In the meanwhile, there may be someone on here who can help you. Most of us have been where you are and know what you are going through. Please hold on, the w/d are bad, but they do pass. Talk to you later I hope. Take it easy!
Carol
Hi, I have been on the couch with blanket over my head. I will look up main page post on staying clean....can't seem to get off the couch today and I am not looking forward to tomorrow. I have a friend coming over later - she is in AA but has never taken these meds. Hope she does not think I am just plain crazy. I am not making any sense, will get back on here when I feel better. I can't stop thinking about vicoden, can't stop thinking about it long enough to even watch something on TV or try to read. Went thru all my coat pockets, my old purses, etc and felt like a fool. when does that feeling pass? I guess I could live with the craving if it was not constant 24 hours-if it would just leave me for five minutes and give me some relief. sorry for whining. Kathleen P.S Oh dear, I was taking around 14 10mg a day. I started about four years ago with one every six hours. I have alot left to give in this world - am going to get thru this somehow.
Kathleen......Dear woman, I feel for you. That was about the same I was taking, so I can imagine how you must be feeling. I was able to taper down to about 6 a day before quitting, though. Did you go cold turkey?
It will take much resolve to not order any more pills. I contacted all my sources, including the internet pharmacies and made sure they would not sell me anymore. You really have to burn the bridge if you think you may be tempted to order again.
It is different with everyone, but the worse should be over in 5-7 days. After that, your energy will be low and sleep may still be scarce, but the bad physical hurts are usually over. Please hang on. Having an AA supporter is great and I am sure she will not think you are crazy, just addicted. Have you thought about what you will do after the w/d are over in order to stay clean?
If you want to talk, post to me and I'll try my best to help you! I will keep you in my prayers!
Love, Carol
Thank you Carol! I believe I have only been about 21 hours without, I did not taper, tried over and over to taper and it just never worked out. Oh no, I have been reading things and guess its only going to get worse. I think I almost would welcome the physical symptons right now if it would take this horrible craving away. I just never thought I could feel like this. I have never gone this long without, always made sure I had my medicine. Kande wants me to go to a meeting with her, I can't bring myself to get dressed. I told her I would be okay, don't even want to LOOK at anyone and I just want to be alone. I am only getting on the internet to talk to people like myself then I need to get OFF immediately. I want so bad to go into another website if you know what I mean. However, I won't. I know I will need your help. I know this will be tough and I just wish I had started it two years ago before I went into debt. I probably don't sound "right" my mind seems to be flitting all over. I feel like I am going to turn inside out. I don't even want to talk. Someone called me and I was just irritated so turned off my phone. I will now crawl back to the couch and cover my head with the television on for background sound and will be in touch tomorrow. I don't know what tomorrow is going to bring but I know its NOT going to be Vicoden. I also feel very scared and I can't figure out why I have this "scared" feeling. is that normal? is that a withdrawal sympton or is this who I am when I am not all medicated up??? I was always a pretty upbeat happy person when I started taking vicoden. Everything I read says to go out and walk - it is very cold here. does that really help? I am willing to do ANYTHING, I hope I don't sound too ditzy - I just can't seem to stay focused on anything - I don't feel sick to my stomach yet, just perspiring alot and then I get cold, no appetite (back to the couch now) thanks again
Kathleen, The scared feeling is just part of the w/d. Anxious? Skin crawling? It is to be expected and may get worse before it gets better. But, you sound like a very strong, determined woman and I know you can get through this.
Do you by chance have a doctor you could call and confess all to? One who might be able to oversee your w/d? It would really be preferable to doing it alone. There are things a doctor could prescribe to make the next few days more bearable and safer. Please think about doing that. You are coming off a pretty high dose c/t and I would really feel better knowing you had a dr. involved.
Try to get some rest. Tylenol PM, Benadryl 25 mg., or Sleep Time helps some. A hot bath, long walks (helps with leg cramps), potasiuum, vitamin B12 (energy) are other suggestions. Some say flu medicines.....Comtrex, etc. help.
Advil for the muscle pain. These are just a few things off the top of my head.
But again, I would call a doctor first thing tomorrow and get some help and/or advice. Take care and post when you feel like it!
Love, Carol
I owe every physician MONEY. I will go to ER if I feel like I am in danger but I don't even want to walk outside my door, scares me to think about it. I just read where caffeine enhances w/d - i drank a pot of coffee when I got up this morning, won't do that tomorrow. I am reading some other posts of other people's misery - i guess if they lived through it to post then I can live through this too. I have been wanting for so long to stop the viscious cycle but kept saying next day, next week, etc and could not stop. If something happened you did not hear from me for a day or two you know I went to ER during the night; or that I am so sick I can't make it to my computer and I will be in touch as soon as I feel better. or, as soon as I can crawl to my computer. thought I would try a little humor there. Now I am on this "will I lose my job kick" - I am glad to know this feeling scared is part of w/d because it keeps creeping up on me. It is a new/strange feeling and I don't like it at all. Okay, I am definitly going back to the couch now. I go with the thought in mind that I WILL MAKE IT THRU THIS-thanks for being around. I will stay in touch. Kathleen
