KeeKee,
Its Brien just writing back about your questions. Im glad u never stayed on methadone. Im 25. Stareted vic's and loratab at 13 and had one 67 day clean period from 14yr to 25. I was on oxy by 17. By 19 had a dr perscibing eight 80mg oxy a day and doing H. His brother a Veternarian was giving me 50 fentnyl patches a month. Went through horrible w/d at 20yr. Cold turkey from five 80's a day. Lasted 67 days and went back on them. Was then arrested for trafficking Heroin, which my probation ended saturday, dont know how but got into no trouble since (didnt get caught at least). Started methadone at 30mg and by 3rd year was doing 300mg a day and 10-12 mg of xanax for 3yrs. Was on methadone for 5yrs. Last year was drinking yeg at 9:00 in morning. Dont remember much. Quit drinking Dec. "06. W/D from xanax in Jan. "07. Then got down to 190 mg methadone a day, lied to dr. so i could get on suboxone. Was stupid but rehab refused to take me, Not a cop out they seriously wouldnt , but my addiction dr ran the facility and when he went into private practice he treated me. Went through horrific w/d, worse than Oxy and H. Over 45 days and still achy and fatigue, stomach problems, have an ulcer. Has me on 28mg sub for a few mths till i feel normal and will go back to 24mg. Its costing $530.00 a mth, but only charges me $30 a visit. Real nice dr. Going 2 at least 10-12 meetings a day, doing my 5th step in the morning, and going to the gym everyday now. Have one class to finish in college, and luckily still have my own business that i love. Thats my story. Glad ur ok. C ya.
Brien
Brien,
Thank you so much for sharing all of that. It sounds as if you have really ran the course are done being sick. I don't know why as addicts we do what we do to ourselves. The good news in all of this Brien is that you are still so young! The world is literally at your doorstep.
Thank god you are off the methadone. I do believe it has its place in some certain circumstance. Hard core H users....it has saved some lives. I truly believe the way in which it is administered is not efficient so many take it and don't' have a program and get so horribly addictive.
We have another member of this board (JW) that has a story very similar to yours in that he was on massive amounts of methadone for a long time and tapered down...but still wasn't enough and BOOM precipitated w/d. I couldn't imagine the pain. I do know that if you are on methadone and have not tapered down and are in active w/d the sub rips the methadone off the receptors and can't fill it them.
You are one tough cookie...I am so happy for you..keep it up! You are doing terrific!
Thank you so much for sharing all of that. It sounds as if you have really ran the course are done being sick. I don't know why as addicts we do what we do to ourselves. The good news in all of this Brien is that you are still so young! The world is literally at your doorstep.
Thank god you are off the methadone. I do believe it has its place in some certain circumstance. Hard core H users....it has saved some lives. I truly believe the way in which it is administered is not efficient so many take it and don't' have a program and get so horribly addictive.
We have another member of this board (JW) that has a story very similar to yours in that he was on massive amounts of methadone for a long time and tapered down...but still wasn't enough and BOOM precipitated w/d. I couldn't imagine the pain. I do know that if you are on methadone and have not tapered down and are in active w/d the sub rips the methadone off the receptors and can't fill it them.
You are one tough cookie...I am so happy for you..keep it up! You are doing terrific!
Thanks Kee Kee. I read my post. I meant 10-12 meeting a week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That sounded stupid thanks for your positive comments. I went to the nations largest methadone clinic and they treated people who were just doing codiene and vic's, REDICULOUS! Its purpose wasnt for me. Im a drug addict and cant control myself and when something is legal and im in controll of how much it doesnt work. Luckily i feel nothing good from sub. I feel halfway normal and thats all. Whats ur history. Oh yeah im also a crack-cocain addict. Still have all my teeth (and they still look good) and burns on fingers from the pie healed long ago. Whats your story???????????????
Brien
Brien
Brien, be proud of yourself. Thank god you are clean now and are actively doing something about your recovery. There is a big difference to just stopping your doc and being in recovery.
My story is not unique...in fact its like every other addicts out there! I luckily didn't have to take a trip all the way to the perverbal basement in order to get clean. But it could have happened. I started taking percocet in which my husband happily supplied me with for menstrual cramps. The first few years were great...much energy...super women...then like always...they turned on me.
I thankfully found an educated addiction Dr. and with the help of suboxone, AA/NA, and now private therapy, I am clean and working on tapering off the sub.
PS. your young...so its a good thing that your teeth didn't suffer. Neither did mine but I am obsessive about good teeth! brush brush brush I say!
My story is not unique...in fact its like every other addicts out there! I luckily didn't have to take a trip all the way to the perverbal basement in order to get clean. But it could have happened. I started taking percocet in which my husband happily supplied me with for menstrual cramps. The first few years were great...much energy...super women...then like always...they turned on me.
I thankfully found an educated addiction Dr. and with the help of suboxone, AA/NA, and now private therapy, I am clean and working on tapering off the sub.
PS. your young...so its a good thing that your teeth didn't suffer. Neither did mine but I am obsessive about good teeth! brush brush brush I say!
