Through attending AA meetings on regular basis i have managed to acheive a little over 2 years sobriety but lately i have been suffering from a terriblr racing head and constantly projecting worse case scenario's for everything in my everyday life....i know that i need to learn how to keep it in the day but i'm really struggling to do this of late no matter how much i try.This has been going on now for the last 4 months and after a few trips to my GP he has prescibed me valium for emergency's which i dont want to start taking as i know where that will lead me.
My question is how do you other recovering alcoholics keep it in the day when the s*** starts to hit the fan.
Thanks in advance
Paul
How's things Paul
I grew up in a environment where worst case scenario was normal thinking and all through my life this has hindered me because of the fear i let it build in my head about doing anything and trusting anybody. In recovery i can still think the negative of anything or anyone i am involved with the trick for me is to hand it over to my higher power and pray for it to pass now as i type i fear that you will say another god botherer etc etc. But at the moment i am applying for a new position at work i have already done the worst case scenario but also the best case scenario. At the end of the day my fear is fuelled by self doubt which is fuelled by lack of confidance and if i allow it to this all builds up so that i achieve and try nothing. My wife is on to me and can spot a fear based reply a mile away and this helps. Also i know when i am doing this self sabotage because addiction needs me to fail to get stronger.
Now when i get these little fear attacks i pause and think okay this is my negative fear talking and i can do what i want to and take it from there.
How strong are you spiritually and if you hand it over do you keep taking it back?
Believe in yourself try small things one at a time and when the self doubt starts up laugh at yourself and put it where it belongs out of your head and into Gods.
Light and love Zac
I grew up in a environment where worst case scenario was normal thinking and all through my life this has hindered me because of the fear i let it build in my head about doing anything and trusting anybody. In recovery i can still think the negative of anything or anyone i am involved with the trick for me is to hand it over to my higher power and pray for it to pass now as i type i fear that you will say another god botherer etc etc. But at the moment i am applying for a new position at work i have already done the worst case scenario but also the best case scenario. At the end of the day my fear is fuelled by self doubt which is fuelled by lack of confidance and if i allow it to this all builds up so that i achieve and try nothing. My wife is on to me and can spot a fear based reply a mile away and this helps. Also i know when i am doing this self sabotage because addiction needs me to fail to get stronger.
Now when i get these little fear attacks i pause and think okay this is my negative fear talking and i can do what i want to and take it from there.
How strong are you spiritually and if you hand it over do you keep taking it back?
Believe in yourself try small things one at a time and when the self doubt starts up laugh at yourself and put it where it belongs out of your head and into Gods.
Light and love Zac
Thankyou for taking the time to reply,i have tried handing it over to my higher power when i pray but it does not seem to be working at the moment.
thanks again
Paul
thanks again
Paul
Hey Paul W is it not working because you are saying just that, because it is the worst case scenario. Keep trying and as you hand it over be aware of when you grab it back. Do you like to be in control of things? I asked this because sometimes that can interfere with when things are handed over. Believe in what you are doing and if you have to hand it back 100 times a day do it.
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
Just a word of advice...flush those pills. They'll open a whole new can of worms. If you feel you need medical help, get some antidepressants. Valium addiction was worse than alcohol for me. They are just alcohol in pill form. What does your sponsor say? Good luck to you.
Thanks again zac...12 stepper i thanks also,i'm aware of the dangers of the valium amd know hor addictive they can become and how hard they are to come off through reading the other boards,been back to see my gp today and hes prescribed me some antidepressants(mirtazapine) to try.
The thing i have been asking myself lately is are all these symptoms my alcoholism playing with my head or am i suffering a secondry illness too,ie anxiety depression.
I have a good sponsor but he's never suffered from anxiety or depression in the 16 yrs he's put the drink down and he was the one who reccomended i see my quack.
Thanks again
paul
The thing i have been asking myself lately is are all these symptoms my alcoholism playing with my head or am i suffering a secondry illness too,ie anxiety depression.
I have a good sponsor but he's never suffered from anxiety or depression in the 16 yrs he's put the drink down and he was the one who reccomended i see my quack.
Thanks again
paul
