Hello! I have visited this website only one other time about 6mos ago when I really saw that I needed to get off the methadone..... I never did.
I started using methadone a little less than 2yrs ago. Before that it was the tabs, percs, oxy's, and so forth and so on. My favorite happened to be the methadone, so I've continuously used it to get by and to get high everyday.
The supply I was getting finally came to an end, so I started the MMT program. What a joke that was! I couldn't stand that place because I saw myself being there for several years like they like you to be. I didn't want to be one of those people. I stayed for a month, and decided I wanted to quit on my own.....I didn't. I found another good hook up on the pills, and was going to slowly come off, but I decided I wanted to keep getting high.
I went back to the clinic for a second time, and just quit again two days ago. I was there for 2 1/2 mos this time. They were giving me 100mg a day, and I was taking more on top of that on my own to get me to my real daily dose of about 180mg a day. A little less some days. So I have finally decided to put this to an end, and quit. I dropped myself down to 15mg two days ago, and today I used 30mg. The 15mg was too little, and I knew that, but that's all I had at the time. Right now I'm just scared to go through the withdrawal process especially since I live with my family, and they have no idea about what I've been doing. They think that I'm taking too much xanax, and that's why I fall in and out of sleep doing everything. (Oh, I do take xanax, and somas with the dose.) I'm not going to tell them though(for several reasons), and I know that's going to make this quitting process harder.
A good friend of mine who was taking a lot more than me just quit, but he had to tell his family what was going on because he needed the extra help, and support. He also had to move out of the state to get away from the supply.
So for right now I'm just going to see how I react to the cutting back. I'm just hoping I don't feel the way I did coming off of oxy's. We'll see.
I have always had a substance abuse problem my entire life, and have substituted one thing for the next. I'm just tired of going in the wrong directions, and ruining my life. Even though I have so much fun:) This is by far the only addiction I have felt I couldn't get past. I want to get past it before I get any older though, so hopefully the end will soon be here.
Hi J-M well hun big congrats for not giving up its always the hardest thing the start but once you start you can see changes you seem to be determined to quit good luck to you hun jackie xxxxxxxxxxxx
I deleted everyone's phone numbers that I had that I knew had access to the meds and I am in the process of telling each one of my doctors to never give me a narcotic again (unless it is major surgery and then only at the hospital). I can't move out of state, but I can make it a lot easier to be away from all of that
Wackyjacky-Thank you for replying with such nice words. I started to feel pretty bad late last night already. I barely got any sleep. I can tell I'm going to have to get outta the house, and stay really busy to keep my mind off of the stuff. My friend told me to just try and sweat everything out as quick as possible. So some outdoor activities is what I'll do...as much as I can.
J-ME sounds like you have a good friend with plenty of great advice take it hun i sure wish i had had someone when i started my recovery take care jackie xxxxxxxxx
I know you all will think i am nuts,but it is a medical fact that a large dose of immodium 2 to 3 times per day of about 20 tabs,can get you through the withdrawral period withiut any major symptoms.
Jenna-Hey so that really works with the immodium huh? Have you or somebody you know tried it as well as it being a medical fact? Maybe I should try it then...
I'm no doctor and I'm not sure how accurate this info is, but I had read on another website that Immodium crosses over the blood-brain barrier like an opiate does and therefore "tricks" your brain into thinking that it is still getting at least some of the drug. Don't quote me on this... I didn't even use Immodium b/c I didn't have any nausea or vomiting and only slight diarrhea (which I was thankful for... taking pain pills for 2 years had pretty much stopped me from going all together).... that's just what I read somewhere
