Please don't go out again !!
Izzy I told you long before I knew how you felt;" xxxxxxx." Idgie thanks for your honesty, Please, can I over come this ? I 'm so sick. Ginge my fellow ,so glad you found that special lady and ya never picked up. I'm so very very sick, my family must be in denial. They don't know how ill I am. Zac the ping poll balls, can some one get rid of them?. VWGIRL, must have already been there,so glad you made it past those awful places. I'm so happy for you & your girl's. Thanks for being a bright lite to us. Lacey so creative, I love you! , so I wish I could meet ya f2f girl we could be friends. Stacy, & Cookster you both kept me positive. I love you all ! Stacey Gorden I read your writings. Always giving to others and the other boards as well. I love you best, because you remind me of him Skg not sure what to think about ya? As it apperas to be about you. Perhaps your SP has a name? For the other boards: WW, JJ , Bryn, CG , Jewels, Gram's,SP,CO,DE, MNM ,Thumper, sorry if I forgot some others. What would Danny, Tim, Jeff do without you gals? I have learned from you all negative & positive as well. My Chankras heart is open. Guess I'm not so bad. Danny, I told my husband the boat that arrived,was for a snorkling lesson. Not a fishing boat.
Hey Lookinup,
Its good too see that you are posting again, although I'm not sure what to make of this post. You are still alive and since you are in a therapy program , I think you said it was called "the journey" I'm assuming that your are still sober. Recovery takes time, sometimes life is harder to deal with during the earlly stages of recovery that it was while using. Don't give up, you are only as sick as your secrets. One day you will look back on this and be proud you overcame it.
one day at a time, Cookster
Its good too see that you are posting again, although I'm not sure what to make of this post. You are still alive and since you are in a therapy program , I think you said it was called "the journey" I'm assuming that your are still sober. Recovery takes time, sometimes life is harder to deal with during the earlly stages of recovery that it was while using. Don't give up, you are only as sick as your secrets. One day you will look back on this and be proud you overcame it.
one day at a time, Cookster
Hello Lookinup,
It is great that everyone is inspiring and helpful to you.
It is hard to try and pretend you are ok when really you are a mess and nobody knows; I can empathise believe me!
Hey - keep lookin up!!
Love Lacey
It is great that everyone is inspiring and helpful to you.
It is hard to try and pretend you are ok when really you are a mess and nobody knows; I can empathise believe me!
Hey - keep lookin up!!
Love Lacey
Thanks for that Lookin Up...yes, I'm pretty sure most of us here can relate to what your head is doing to you......I was a mess, yep...and sometimes I still am! In sobriety I can get cuckoo and I just don't pick up a drink...because there isn't a problem I have that a drink would make better. I just have to breakdown my life into 24 hours at a time. I have to remember that I am powerless over people, places and things. We are all here because we have a common bond, alcoholism, whether we are active in our addictive, in remission or if the disease affects someone in our family. There is strength in numbers... I'm constantly reminded that the Promises of the 12 Step program will be realized before "we are half way through" and to "wait for the miracle". Take care of yourself.
lookingup took me 6-8 months to start seeing any kind of healing. Although I still struggle and pickup now and then for the most part I know a lot of peace and am in a much better place than I was 1 year ago.
for me learning to love and trust God has been the biggest step forward. I was SO against that for years, but its the key to opening the door to freedom it really is. After all what have you got to lose?
keep posting lookingup.
Idgie.
for me learning to love and trust God has been the biggest step forward. I was SO against that for years, but its the key to opening the door to freedom it really is. After all what have you got to lose?
keep posting lookingup.
Idgie.
Gidday lookinUp
So good to see your post and the ping pong balls well they keep bouncin as long as im hitting them sometimes faster sometimes slower depends on how much open mind space im giving addiction at the time and for me 5 seconds is too much.
Keep posting and searching your fears and if you have opportunity to talk to counsellors or people at meetings talk and talk some more and hand the hard stuff over to God.
Accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative by getting the ping pong balls out of your head, it all takes time and some of that time will hurt.
The seed of hope and recovery is planted in your life and for me i didnt even know about AA etc till i stopped, but hey if i had of know i may of ran harder in the other direction.
Whatever is happening for you keep posting/ or talking about it to someone.
Light and love Zac
So good to see your post and the ping pong balls well they keep bouncin as long as im hitting them sometimes faster sometimes slower depends on how much open mind space im giving addiction at the time and for me 5 seconds is too much.
Keep posting and searching your fears and if you have opportunity to talk to counsellors or people at meetings talk and talk some more and hand the hard stuff over to God.
Accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative by getting the ping pong balls out of your head, it all takes time and some of that time will hurt.
The seed of hope and recovery is planted in your life and for me i didnt even know about AA etc till i stopped, but hey if i had of know i may of ran harder in the other direction.
Whatever is happening for you keep posting/ or talking about it to someone.
Light and love Zac
Hi LookinUp,
"because you remind me of him Skg not sure what to think about ya? As it apperas to be about you. Perhaps your SP has a name? "
I'm not sure I uderstand the comment, but that's okay. If by, "All about me," you mean that I'm sharing too much, I accept that. Sorry if you feel that way, but it's my understanding that sharing AS IT RELATES TO MY EXPERIENCE is kind of the concept. Sorry if you think it's more than that.
"because you remind me of him Skg not sure what to think about ya? As it apperas to be about you. Perhaps your SP has a name? "
I'm not sure I uderstand the comment, but that's okay. If by, "All about me," you mean that I'm sharing too much, I accept that. Sorry if you feel that way, but it's my understanding that sharing AS IT RELATES TO MY EXPERIENCE is kind of the concept. Sorry if you think it's more than that.
Hey Lookinup,
still thinking of you, hang in there....
one day at a time, Cookster
still thinking of you, hang in there....
one day at a time, Cookster
Lookinup......it's been a few days.....what's new ?
Love and light,
D
Love and light,
D
