hi all, ive used gear an methadone 4 the last ten years sincei was 18 i came off meth an gear the first time 5 years ago wen i had my son it was horrible i cudnt sleep 4 weeks after an ended up using again then going back on meth .i avnt used for a few years now and am on the last 5 mls of meth im so sceard now that ive got to the last bit coz i think its the hardest,dunno wots worst cold urkey off gear or comin of meth ,ive got so much enegy already and finding it hard .i think about gear a lot at the moment an keep dreaming of it to its like i can taste an feel it.i cant talk about it at home as my boyfriends never used and doesnt like me talking about it but i feel i need t stop ignorng it an be able to talk about it or im always guna think about it,is driving me mad dunno wot to do.anyone else struglin ?
I hope you have a plan- - It could take a long,long time before your functioning normally again.
I walked off of a 10 year-100 mg- methadone program years ago>, thinking I could do it.
I wound up in a jail(shopliffting), then a hospital in PA -and I liveD in NY- ** then >>>>
Back to dope- then back to mdone- - now Im on MM and just stay on my dose -no extra drugs -get 6 bottles> so I dont have to see that clinic everyday***
and life live the best I can - - good luck- - find a support system!!
keep in touch
jack
I walked off of a 10 year-100 mg- methadone program years ago>, thinking I could do it.
I wound up in a jail(shopliffting), then a hospital in PA -and I liveD in NY- ** then >>>>
Back to dope- then back to mdone- - now Im on MM and just stay on my dose -no extra drugs -get 6 bottles> so I dont have to see that clinic everyday***
and life live the best I can - - good luck- - find a support system!!
keep in touch
jack
hi jack,ur rite i def need more support ive always found excusses not to or thought i didnt need any, but think its time now i do need more support.my kca key workers always trying to get me to go to groups or see the theropist ,i mite just take her up i no i need more help im not as recoverd as i think iam.feeling a bit more possitive 2day
Hey Lou
Hope your doin ok- I know that the lousy 5 mg doesnt feel like its doing anything,, but it is. The hardest part is when you dont have it anymore. Your routine is broken. No dope- No methadone- Just you, and your will, and thoughts > that my friend ,is a relapse waiting to happen. Not to scare ya away from your plans to clean up, but I can see that your about 30 yrs old- just around the time I decided to get serious.
Im 53 now- and have been on a methadone (nothing else -for 20 plus yrs) -I dont recommend that for the average addict at all. I wont get into my whole story, it would take about a 2 years of typing .
All I want to say is> if you need to go back on your medically assisted treatment, dont feel like you failed. The first step ,is to stop using heroin* -find a good support group- a therapist, one on one- or a group-, get a plan to keep busy,if you arent working. Exercise &, try to eat healthy- - and stay away from the people and places that you know will bring you down. Easier said than done, but if your motivated to stay of the dope, you,ll seek out a plan.
best regards,
jack
Hope your doin ok- I know that the lousy 5 mg doesnt feel like its doing anything,, but it is. The hardest part is when you dont have it anymore. Your routine is broken. No dope- No methadone- Just you, and your will, and thoughts > that my friend ,is a relapse waiting to happen. Not to scare ya away from your plans to clean up, but I can see that your about 30 yrs old- just around the time I decided to get serious.
Im 53 now- and have been on a methadone (nothing else -for 20 plus yrs) -I dont recommend that for the average addict at all. I wont get into my whole story, it would take about a 2 years of typing .
All I want to say is> if you need to go back on your medically assisted treatment, dont feel like you failed. The first step ,is to stop using heroin* -find a good support group- a therapist, one on one- or a group-, get a plan to keep busy,if you arent working. Exercise &, try to eat healthy- - and stay away from the people and places that you know will bring you down. Easier said than done, but if your motivated to stay of the dope, you,ll seek out a plan.
best regards,
jack
