Yesterday, I went back to my home group. I cried when I shared; didn't intend to. I shared to an "Elder" that sometimes I picture his gray hair to get me through..LOL..
After the meeting, he told me to read page 419 of the big book. I opened it up, and it was a story about growing up all over again....the story fit me well.
Now it hurt my pride a little, but it is things like that I need to hear. It was also the manner in which he applied the lesson. He did it with love..
Thanks for letting me share.
I am off to grow up...ha ha.
Kerry
He might have meant 449...lol..but either way, I need both lessons...
ha ha..
Kerry
ha ha..
Kerry
Kerry I think you are brave for even going to a meeting,I just don't feel able yet.Anyways don't we all need alittle child in us?I understand what he said,but I just wanted to say that,besides I think your child sober side is cute....mj
Good Job LB
It is not easy learning lifes lessions, but that is how we become what we are.
You should be proud of yourself I am !!!!!!!!
It is not easy learning lifes lessions, but that is how we become what we are.
You should be proud of yourself I am !!!!!!!!
Off to grow up, huh? Take me with you! lol. Take care, Kerry. Love, Kat
Well I am glad that yesterday brought you something you could use.....and hopefully gave you some hope for yourself.....
As far as the growing up, yes it is nice to age, but it is even better to do it with some sense of childhood in your heart.......
You take care,
Tina
As far as the growing up, yes it is nice to age, but it is even better to do it with some sense of childhood in your heart.......
You take care,
Tina
LB...Thanks. I needed to be reminded that there is probably something good waiting for me in a meeting.
I had a pretty low day today....again......and decided I was going to a meeting tonight. Well, after searching for one within 30 miles, discovered there isn't one anywhere near me tonight. I was so psyched. Guess I will try again tomorrow.
Hey Carol,
I was alittle low today too, Know that it happens to all of us......I am sorry that you couldn't find a meeting but you remember you do have all of us here. If ever you need to dump something don't think you will have any problem finding some hope here. There are so many wise people here, trust that they will help you as you have helped them.
You take care,
Tina
I was alittle low today too, Know that it happens to all of us......I am sorry that you couldn't find a meeting but you remember you do have all of us here. If ever you need to dump something don't think you will have any problem finding some hope here. There are so many wise people here, trust that they will help you as you have helped them.
You take care,
Tina
precious kerry -
he meant page 419 of the 4th edition - it's page 449 of the third edition. you wanna focus on some gray hair? just picture me sitting with you reading this verse he suggested. can we say thank you, lady clairol?
this was written by dr. paul o. in the chapter doctor, alcoholic, addict. i suggest you sit down, quiet your mind, find that chapter and read - there are some profound pearls of wisdom written by dr. paul.
dr. paul is credited with the formation of pills anonymous. there's a fabulous of interview of dr. paul in the AA grapevine archives (1995) about this. while he was an alcoholic, he was also a pillhead. he recognized the significance of "singleness of purpose" and went to AA for permission to start PA while he practiced addiction medicine.
below i believe is what your friend (elder) was referring to today. in some way i hope this helps. i know it has served as daily prayer for me.
thank you everyone for your heartfelt kind thoughts/words/expressions/actions to me.
if anyone hasn't told you they love you today, i do.
namaste'
sammy
and acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. when i am disturbed, it is because i find some person, place, thing or situation -- some fact of my life -- unacceptable to me, and i can find no serenity until i accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. until i could accept my alcoholism (addiction), i could not stay sober; unless i accept life completely on life's terms, i cannot be happy. i need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
emphasis added
he meant page 419 of the 4th edition - it's page 449 of the third edition. you wanna focus on some gray hair? just picture me sitting with you reading this verse he suggested. can we say thank you, lady clairol?
this was written by dr. paul o. in the chapter doctor, alcoholic, addict. i suggest you sit down, quiet your mind, find that chapter and read - there are some profound pearls of wisdom written by dr. paul.
dr. paul is credited with the formation of pills anonymous. there's a fabulous of interview of dr. paul in the AA grapevine archives (1995) about this. while he was an alcoholic, he was also a pillhead. he recognized the significance of "singleness of purpose" and went to AA for permission to start PA while he practiced addiction medicine.
below i believe is what your friend (elder) was referring to today. in some way i hope this helps. i know it has served as daily prayer for me.
thank you everyone for your heartfelt kind thoughts/words/expressions/actions to me.
if anyone hasn't told you they love you today, i do.
namaste'
sammy
and acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. when i am disturbed, it is because i find some person, place, thing or situation -- some fact of my life -- unacceptable to me, and i can find no serenity until i accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. until i could accept my alcoholism (addiction), i could not stay sober; unless i accept life completely on life's terms, i cannot be happy. i need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.
emphasis added
SAMMY- Don't ever leave again...PLEASE!
BTW, I am getting a little grey hair too.."of
course", it is blond...
course", it is blond...
Sweet Misty.........yes, I do know that and I thank you so much for reminding me. But I feel like at this point, I should be doing something more to help myself.
I have been on this board for 50 days and reading all the posts about AA/NA meetings.I have only been to one. I have had so many long timers encourage me to go to a meeting. So, I will.
At this stage of my recovery, it is very strange. I don't know who I am anymore at all. I don't know how to live day to day without pills. The funny thing is, I don't want a pill. All I want to relearn how to live happily. I need to get some help and I am going to put my faith in the meetings and see if they in fact, help.
Thanks, Carol
Kerry, 419...449...lol. I've done that.
I heard an old-timer (25+ years) once say that after he'd listen to his sponsees vent at length about all of life's troubles, he often would just pick a Step or a page out of the Big Book at random, and tell his sponsee that they might find some use in reading it. They got something out of it every time! The old-timer was kind of making light of himself also, since it wasn't his sage advice that was helpful, but rather the willingness of the sponsee to do the work and find his own meaning.... M.
I heard an old-timer (25+ years) once say that after he'd listen to his sponsees vent at length about all of life's troubles, he often would just pick a Step or a page out of the Big Book at random, and tell his sponsee that they might find some use in reading it. They got something out of it every time! The old-timer was kind of making light of himself also, since it wasn't his sage advice that was helpful, but rather the willingness of the sponsee to do the work and find his own meaning.... M.
Welcome back Sammy. I sure have missed your posts. Hope you are well and rested. Great post above. I am going to buy the Big Book at my first opportunity.
Sammy,
You put a smile on my face. Very nice to see you posting again. Take care! Rae
You put a smile on my face. Very nice to see you posting again. Take care! Rae
ahhhhh, danny and tmom -
you see that smile on my choppers?
over there
<---------- on that avatar pic?
with all these gray hairs - that smile has only gotten broader, bigger and is directly proportional with the love i receive.
thanks for loving me today - i am beaming!
namaste'
sammy
you see that smile on my choppers?
over there
<---------- on that avatar pic?
with all these gray hairs - that smile has only gotten broader, bigger and is directly proportional with the love i receive.
thanks for loving me today - i am beaming!
namaste'
sammy
Sammy.........nice to see your smiling face, hey I got those gray hairs too.
Wonderful to know that you are back, spreading the love.....
You have a wonderful evening!
Tina
Wonderful to know that you are back, spreading the love.....
You have a wonderful evening!
Tina
I found my 3rd gray hair the other day....I cried with the first two, but this time I just screamed really loud for about 2 minutes and then thought "Oh well." My husband, who started losing his hair in his twenties and now shaves his head (and looks just like Bruce Willis) said, "At least you HAVE hair." How can you argue with that???
Kerry..... good luck with the growing up.... Maybe I'll consider doing that, too
Kerry..... good luck with the growing up.... Maybe I'll consider doing that, too
LOL...Danni...I will let you knowif I make it..I doubt I will...but I see a few changes. I am just like you....I freak out, and then a minute later I realize it is futile, and just accept it..
Sammy, thank you..you brought tears to my eyes. It is your brand of recovery I want..by giving me love, I feel good enough to give it away to someone else..I think that is how it should work. I don't think "telling it how it is" helps at all. Kind reminders and pointers when I am off track are greatly apprieciated, but superiority and demeaning just don't work for me.
Mom, you just wrote my insides. I am sorry that I didn't type out the text from the book, I forgot you don't have one. But I would really suggest a meeting. I think that you will be pleasantly surprised. And a hint....look for the similarites, not the differences...If you keep your mind open, you will hear your story and your insides in there..
Thanks all...
Another thing I am still finding out is HOW DO YOU KNOW GOD'S WILL FROM YOUR OWN..I still get so confused on this one. I know the next right thing, and listen to your gut, but sometimes I get caught in that mad questioning state, and fear sets in..
Any suggestions would be apprieciated as to how you all obtain this knowing..
Kerry
Sammy, thank you..you brought tears to my eyes. It is your brand of recovery I want..by giving me love, I feel good enough to give it away to someone else..I think that is how it should work. I don't think "telling it how it is" helps at all. Kind reminders and pointers when I am off track are greatly apprieciated, but superiority and demeaning just don't work for me.
Mom, you just wrote my insides. I am sorry that I didn't type out the text from the book, I forgot you don't have one. But I would really suggest a meeting. I think that you will be pleasantly surprised. And a hint....look for the similarites, not the differences...If you keep your mind open, you will hear your story and your insides in there..
Thanks all...
Another thing I am still finding out is HOW DO YOU KNOW GOD'S WILL FROM YOUR OWN..I still get so confused on this one. I know the next right thing, and listen to your gut, but sometimes I get caught in that mad questioning state, and fear sets in..
Any suggestions would be apprieciated as to how you all obtain this knowing..
Kerry
None, I remember sharing when I first got off the pills and was still out there about acceptance..I told them all in that group.."I don't know how you people can just accept all of this stuff..." I obviously had some work to do. Right after that, one of the guys shared about damaged synapses...lol...I got the point..
I was way out there..
Kerry
I was way out there..
Kerry
