Library Again...

I needed to get to the library to get on here to ask for more help from ANYONE!

Im not sure who is on here and at what times. But if there is anyone out there scanning through the posts and is able to write to me for a bit...i could use it(like nothing new).

People are problobly getting sick of me asking for help on here, but i truly am asking for a friend to talk with , even if its only for a few min, it helps me get through another few min. alone. (make any sence?)

I could sure use one now.......

Your Friend, Christina (a.k.a) Haveinithard
Christina, what can I help you with today?
Hi Gidget....I havent herd your name before, but i havent been here in a long time and just started back again.....have you already herd my story?? Im only asking because it makes it easier the less i have to explain it. But i can tell it all again, its just very embaressing for me.

Yuor Friend, Christina(a.k.a) Haveinithard
Yes Christina, I have heard some of your story. No need for you to go into details, I don't think.

Well, i keep getting up in the middle of the night and haveing the same nightmare.....im always killing someone. One night i was buying smokes at the store and i wanted a certain kind and they told me that they were out and i started to yell and i just grabed the guy and strangled him.
The next night i was walking down the street and i say my ex-fiancee and he didnt ask me how i was doing or if the baby was o.k. and i got angry and i popped his tires on his truck and he ran into a BIG truck and died.

Well, you get the picture.....but last night it was different, i went into labor and i was crying and i kept calling out to my ex and he wouldnt get to me or even listen and i started to walk down the street to tell him that his baby was comeing and he just looked at me and rolled his eyes and told me to stop bothering him and he went into his house and i had the baby right there all by myself and nobody came out to help me. My ex was looking out his front room window and he just watched us there until the baby died and once it was gone he smiled at me and i woke up in a sweat!!!
I know that your not a "dream reader" but what do you think this is all about? Well, maybe that was a stupid question, but how do i make it go away?? I havent been able to sleep a whole night in 2 weeks, but last night was by far the worst.

Your Friend, Christina(a.k.a) Haveinithard

P.S. Thanks for listening.....i know it got realy long.
Christina,

I have to go pick up my kids, but if you'd like to email me at ke_gina@hotmail.com, I'd be happy to listen. Take care of yourself.

Regards,
Gina
I would say that it has to do with built up anxiety and stress. I didn't start having vivid dreams again until i got off the pills... so maybe it's just your brain waking up. There's really nothing to worry about for now... if it continues you might try seeing a dr. Hope this helps some... good luck and God Bless, Bri :)
Christina, it sounds as though you have a bunch of pent up anger inside of you. Try to think of pleasant things while lying in bed right before you go to sleep. No, I can't analyze your dreams but I have had dreams that one of my children died and in my dream my Mother kept trying to keep me from going into the funeral home to view him at his wake. I have also had dreams where I saw loved one's murdered right in front of me. Do you dream in color or black and white? Think about it. Most people that I know have never dreamed in color, only black and white dreams that they can remember. Let me know if I can help you in any way.
Wow Gidget... most people you know only dream in black and white? I never realized it was unusual to dream in color... i have never had a dream that was in black and white... mine are always in color. That's interesting.... what does it mean?
Hell if I know,.... Have you ever flown like a bird in your dreams? That is pretty cool... Think about it as you are falling asleep and you can do it. It is a trip and it is fun.
Gidget... lmao! Yep... have you ever dreamt that you could look at things and "force" them to move to you? Kinda like telepathy or whatever it's called? And then wake up and feel like it was sooo real that maybe you really can move things without picking them up? Bri:)
Wow, never moved things in my dreams by looking at them, but it sounds pretty cool. Think I'll have to give this one a try.
I have one question for all of you........

You aren't by chance taking trazadone are ya??

I had some of the wildest kraziest dreams when I took that stuff.scared me so bad I stopped taking them and now I dream.....well lets just say alot different...like I normally did before the trazadone
No Trazadone here.