I stopped taking percocet for a little over two weeks, but then got another rx and started again (a week and a half ago). I took the meds for the past week and a half and have stopped again. I threw away the rest of the rx - I'm just ready to become "normal" - like my friends, my family, people I see on the street. I'm tired - in general - tired of the guilt and trying to figure out how to not run out of pills early, etc.
I'm really curious to know (for those of you who have made it past two weeks - and much longer of course), what should I expect once the w/d are completely gone. I'm not having a problem with physical w/d right now - hopefully I won't (keeping my fingers crossed) - I'm guessing that is due to the fact that I went through that hell a couple of weeks ago when I quite the first time. Even if I end up having the physical w/d - it wasn't that bad - it sucked, but it wasn't unmanageable. After the two weeks when I quit before, I started to feel more like "myself" - whoever that was. But, I did start feeling kind of depressed or just down in general. It wasn't an overwhelming feeling - nothing I couldn't handle. But, I'm very curious to know how long it takes for one to start feeling NORMAL, happy again. I've always been a very happy person - I have a wonderful husband, job, family. There's nothing for me to be depressed about. Mainly, I think I felt BORED - like there was nothing to look forward to. For instance, if my husband and I planned a vacation right now, I wouldn't be very excited about it because I haven't experienced a vacation (or a movie or a football game or anything for that matter) without pain meds for years (about 4 years). Just looking for some honest answers here. I know its not going to happen right away, but I'm scared I'll NEVER feel normal. Any help would be awesome!! Thanks!!!
Hi Jane congrats for addressing your problem. Im reluctant to start giving anyone advice on what will or wont happen sometimes when this is posted people can wait in expectation for things that may or maynot occur but i will however suggest you investagete your drug get to know it well and get to know yourself well. all too often we neglect to take notice of how we are feeling or of any changes in our bodys each person is different hun and it takes time and dam hard work i have no doubt that you will achieve your aims best wishes jackie xxxxxxxxx
You hit the nail onthe head for me when you said you maybe werent depressed but bored nothing to look forward to. I can totally relate to that. Some weekends Id' stay in bed for two days cause I just didn't see a reasonfor getting up. I wanted to go and check out the treatment place this weekend but hubby has to work both days, so that shot that idea down. Hang in there sweetiie, this group is very caring knowledgable and understanding.
Can anyone tell me (who have been clean for longer than 2 weeks) if the depression and/or bordem feelings go away at some point? I just need someone to tell me that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
I did stop for 2 weeks and I was starting to feel better, but gave up. I just need to know that those crappy feelings go away eventually.
I did stop for 2 weeks and I was starting to feel better, but gave up. I just need to know that those crappy feelings go away eventually.
Jane, I can assure you that the boredom and the anxiety will pass. It is just little "Spanky" our alter-ego druggie mind that is trying to get a hold on you again. He is telling you that you will not be happy or contented without him. But you will. This is a promise in the big book and it does come true. Believe me and not him. I have a year clean.
Margo
Margo
Margo - congrats on a year without meds! That's something to be very proud of!!! :) How long did it take before you felt like yourself though? I know everyone is different, but I just need to hear from someone that it took a month, two months, longer, etc. Like I said previously, I 'started' to feel normal after about two weeks, but everyday was like an unknown. I never knew if I was going to feel crappy again the next day or two days later or whatever. I hate the feeling of not knowing - not knowing what the next day was going to bring. I think that was the worst part. My body, my emotions, everything was unsteady, unbalanced. For those of you who are also feeling this unsteadiness, I do have good news since I began to feel like myself after that initial two weeks. BUT, I was constantly afraid of slipping back into that super crappy feeling again. I know there are good days and bad days, but when do the good days outnumber the bad days? I really need to know that after some amount of time, I will start to have confidence in my emotional well-being. Can anyone tell me how long it takes (of course, as I've said, I know everyone is different so I'm not looking for a diagnosis or anything). I guess I'm just looking for some reassurance that after some period of time I can be assured that I will once again be in control of my feelings and have that confidence I once had.
Jane, For me it took about 90 days to really feel wonderful again. However, 30 days was a milestone and 60 even better. I think all the drugs really came out of my system on the 90th day though and it was an awesome feeling to wake up one morning and say "It's over if I never use again". I still go through stress now and have up and down days, but they seem to be more like "normal" people's stress. I don't have the awful sense of doom and foreboding like I used to. Believe me anything is easier if I don't pick up. I can at least look people in the eye and not have anything to hide, even if I am stressed out.
Hang in there. Let me know how you are doing.
Hang in there. Let me know how you are doing.
Margo - thank you so much for your response. It was really helpful and made me feel a lot better. I'm feeling okay and hanging in there :). Keep in touch - you sound like someone I can learn from.
