I totally understand the part about talking to my doctor but that is kind of a hard one for me because I work at a hospital in medical records. I have been there for over 5 years and my job is to work one on one with all our doctors. My doctor and my childrens doctor all work there and I know them well on a personal level. The reason it is hard for me is cause whatever gets wrote down about me on paper will be available for all my co-workers to read if that wanted and some not just because they wanted but because they would be doing some sort of work with it. Kind of hard to explain. Then I worry about, would they have the right to fire me if they found out I was taking these pills and were addicted and me not even having proof that these were prescribed to me because I dont. I buy all of my pills from a "friend" (yeah right).
Go to a doctor somewhere else, an hour away maybe.