Hi all! I have been looking for a website like this for some time now, Im excited to finally find something like this. My story is I have been taking Lorcet 10/650 for about a year and a half now. A normal amount for me is 8-12 a day. In the last year and a half I have only gotten a prescription for these maybe 4 times at the most. The rest of the time I buy them from people that get them prescribed to them. My point being that I am in or have never been in any chronic pain so there has never been any reason for me to start to take these pills. I now literally cant function without them and Im not doing the best while on them either. I feel I have to take them now just to feel normal. I have tried stopping and the longest I have gone has been 4 days. It is just so easy for me to get my hands on them and it is really starting to hurt me financially. I started taking like a half a pill a day just because it would give me an energy boost and make me really happy. Now I can take 3 at a time and they no longer give me energy but bring me down. I am really starting to worry if I am doing any major damange to my organs. I have never done any other drugs or have ever had any other addictions in my life besides smoking and I use to always pride myself on that and that was always very important to me because most of my family members have some kind of drug addiction. My mother was actually the one who gave me my first couple of pills. I am married and have two small children and nobody knows what I am going through. I am really just looking for some people to talk to and to vent. I am very excited about that. I have noone to talk to about this now because I am too scared and ashamed to come out with it. I am hoping to get myself off of these pills by myself without anyone knowing about it. Crazy, huh? Me and my husband are having some trouble in our relationship that has been going on for many years now but have just recently gotten to the point where I have told him that I want to seperate. That is one reason I dont want him to know my problem because I am scared about what he would do if I tried to leave him if he knew about it. I know it would be so much easier to stop if I had somebody to be there for me and understand what I am going through. Do you all think it is possible to stop without any help from anybody? How long does the withdrawl phase last with the amount of pills I take, does anyone know? And is there any OTC stuff that you can take that might take the edge off just a little? Thanks in advance for any advice or comments I will get. I really hope to meet some people here that are going through the same thing as me. Have a good day everyone!
I really hate to do this because Im sure it will make me look like either a cry baby or somebody begging for attention but I just wanted to ask if I had said something wrong? This is all new to me so Im not sure if I may have said something that I shouldnt have. The reason I ask is because it has been over an hour since I posted and many people have read what I wrote but I have not gotten one reply. I am sorry that my story may not be the most interesting and Im sure this site gets many new people everyday with the same story, I was just hoping for a few hello's atleast. Gawd, I sound sooo desperate but I guess in a way I am because I am really needing some people to talk to who understand what I am going through. Sorry for being so forward.
OMG Claker... i am sooo sorry... i must have missed your post earlier... been trying to straighten this friggin house up. (Kinda hard with all the kiddos...lol). Well, first of all welcome to the board! You have come to the right place. I am a recovering pain pill addict. I was taking about 20 Lortabs a day (10mg). This is very similar to your addiction.
Oh crap... i have to go for a little while... the after school kids are about to be here... but i promise i will get back on sometime tonight... please don't give up on us... you are not alone! Stick around... someone will come along in the meantime. Promise i will be back. Love, Bri :)
Oh crap... i have to go for a little while... the after school kids are about to be here... but i promise i will get back on sometime tonight... please don't give up on us... you are not alone! Stick around... someone will come along in the meantime. Promise i will be back. Love, Bri :)
Claker, sorry that nobody is responding to you right now...It seems as though someone else has the floor right now......LOL...Really, I read your post when you first popped up here and I'm just trying to think of what to tell you..
First let me say Welcome to the board..Second, just hang around, someone will give you some advice soon..Try to avoid any drama that is going on right here for the moment, it will pass, always does...
Now, I'm going to re-read your post and think of something to talk to you about. If you feel like asking one question at a time, then do that as well...Hang around, I promise you will get some help and some hints on how to get through the w/d...... I've been there and done that too many times and you can make it...We'll be here for you....
First let me say Welcome to the board..Second, just hang around, someone will give you some advice soon..Try to avoid any drama that is going on right here for the moment, it will pass, always does...
Now, I'm going to re-read your post and think of something to talk to you about. If you feel like asking one question at a time, then do that as well...Hang around, I promise you will get some help and some hints on how to get through the w/d...... I've been there and done that too many times and you can make it...We'll be here for you....
Well you can do a few things. I myself would get your PCP to help you with this.
-You can go CT, take off work a week and treat it as if you have the flu. Because it will feel just like it. You simply veg out and think of nothing for a week.
-You can be up front an honest with your husband, you will need support ( I highly recommend you come clean about this )
-You can taper
-You can go to your doctor spit it all out, as to what you are doing and ask them to help you get off of them. They will give you meds to help with the WD symptoms. Blood pressure is an issue, it goes up during WD
-You can search for a sub doctor and go off that route
- Inpatient detox or Outpatient.
-Cut off all sources
Mentally educate yourself as much as possible get prepared. Google opiate withdrawal message board, or forums. Read what others have gone through, as well as read this board.
This is just the first step:.. you will need a plan in place for after you get off so you will not relaspe. You can do one on one counseling, NA or AA, join a church group, whatever is in your area, for addicts. So you can relate and not feel alone.
Others will come on shortly to share and offer a wealth of information.
-You can go CT, take off work a week and treat it as if you have the flu. Because it will feel just like it. You simply veg out and think of nothing for a week.
-You can be up front an honest with your husband, you will need support ( I highly recommend you come clean about this )
-You can taper
-You can go to your doctor spit it all out, as to what you are doing and ask them to help you get off of them. They will give you meds to help with the WD symptoms. Blood pressure is an issue, it goes up during WD
-You can search for a sub doctor and go off that route
- Inpatient detox or Outpatient.
-Cut off all sources
Mentally educate yourself as much as possible get prepared. Google opiate withdrawal message board, or forums. Read what others have gone through, as well as read this board.
This is just the first step:.. you will need a plan in place for after you get off so you will not relaspe. You can do one on one counseling, NA or AA, join a church group, whatever is in your area, for addicts. So you can relate and not feel alone.
Others will come on shortly to share and offer a wealth of information.
claker,
Welcome!!
I can certainly understand not wanted your hubby to know if there is the possiblity of a break up in the near future.
You WILL need face-to-face support though. IMO you should try some NA and/or AA meetings. They are completely anonymus and you will get lots of help & support.
As for getting off the pills, you have a couple of choices - tapering is an option, though it works for very few addicts, most successful if a taper plan is written out and someone else is in charge of giving you the pills so you do not "cheat" on the taper. Another option is to just quit cold turkey, use the OTC's to help with the w/d's, and get it over with much quicker. The worst of the w/d's are usually gone in 5 - 7 days, like having a bad flu.
After that is the hardest part - - STAYING CLEAN!!
It CAN be done, but you should not have to do it alone!!
Best of luck to you!!
Keep posting here!!
Welcome!!
I can certainly understand not wanted your hubby to know if there is the possiblity of a break up in the near future.
You WILL need face-to-face support though. IMO you should try some NA and/or AA meetings. They are completely anonymus and you will get lots of help & support.
As for getting off the pills, you have a couple of choices - tapering is an option, though it works for very few addicts, most successful if a taper plan is written out and someone else is in charge of giving you the pills so you do not "cheat" on the taper. Another option is to just quit cold turkey, use the OTC's to help with the w/d's, and get it over with much quicker. The worst of the w/d's are usually gone in 5 - 7 days, like having a bad flu.
After that is the hardest part - - STAYING CLEAN!!
It CAN be done, but you should not have to do it alone!!
Best of luck to you!!
Keep posting here!!
Thanks Ladies......... I appreciate you coming here to help clacker......Maybe we didn't run her off with all of the drama on the board today...Really, I appreciate you helping this person out, I was at a loss for words momentarilly.
Claker...
Sorry I didn't respond earlier (forgive me, I'm at work and should be working, thank god it's Friday) anyway, I'll try to answer some of your questions...
Yes, you can do this...I did the cold turkey route myself from 25-30 a day Norco habit (10mg hydro's) and this is what I went through...basically, I did nothing for the first 4 days...day 5 felt much better mentally and physically...lack of sleep lingers for awhile. There's an OTC thread that hopefully someone can find & bump up..
You don't have to do this alone...you can reach out here when your in need or scared or have questions...Keep posting...
Take care
Sorry I didn't respond earlier (forgive me, I'm at work and should be working, thank god it's Friday) anyway, I'll try to answer some of your questions...
Yes, you can do this...I did the cold turkey route myself from 25-30 a day Norco habit (10mg hydro's) and this is what I went through...basically, I did nothing for the first 4 days...day 5 felt much better mentally and physically...lack of sleep lingers for awhile. There's an OTC thread that hopefully someone can find & bump up..
You don't have to do this alone...you can reach out here when your in need or scared or have questions...Keep posting...
Take care
what is funny pam is I was writing then posted, saw all these threads ..
AWESOME.. people!!!!
AWESOME.. people!!!!
Thank you Bri and Pam for your reply. I really do appreciate it! I have been reading the posts most of the day off and on when I find the time and I have noticed the drama going on so I was thinking that may have been some of the reason nobody had replied yet. That is understandable, I just wanted to make sure I didnt say something wrong.
All of you guys seem to be very supportive of each other and that is what made me post on this site. Like I have said I have really been feeling the need to talk to other people who are in or have been in my situation.
The first question that I can think of to ask would be what people think about getting over an addiction by yourself, is it possible? Nobody in my life besides my mother (and she is no help at all and actually makes it worse) knows that I am addicted to pain pills and I would like to think I could get over this without anybody ever finding out about it.
All of you guys seem to be very supportive of each other and that is what made me post on this site. Like I have said I have really been feeling the need to talk to other people who are in or have been in my situation.
The first question that I can think of to ask would be what people think about getting over an addiction by yourself, is it possible? Nobody in my life besides my mother (and she is no help at all and actually makes it worse) knows that I am addicted to pain pills and I would like to think I could get over this without anybody ever finding out about it.
Claker,welcome to the board.Your story is very similar to mine. I was taking about the same amount of norcos as you 9-15 a day.I was taking them 3 at a time after 2 years use.I am now 4 months clean.I originally quit 9 months ago relapsed after a few months clean ,had enough,quit again,and am now 4 months clean. I went CT the second time,it was hard,thats for certain,but i did it and survived,as many othres here have.So as far as CT goes,yes,you can do it,you will be quite sick for a week or so,but after that,the worst of the WD's will be over.I finally opened up and told my husband,i needed his support.So as far as doing it ALONE???...i dont know if I could have done that,i needed support,and it makes the whole process so much easier to have at least one person aware,someone to talk you through it.This board is very helpfull that way.You can always come here any time day or night and theres always someone here to help.You say you and your husband might be seperating and you feel he would use this against you? Well then you probably cant count on him,though he will be able to see you are sick,you wont be able to hide it.You can always say you have the flu,its just sad you are going to have to do this all by yourself,because it is a very difficult time.But you can do it,many here have and quite a few have done it wihtout their spouses knowledge.Keep coming here,especaiily the first few days,post often,ask questions,just ask for some support even if its just to chat,it 'll help alot.I wish you the best and hope it all turns out well for you.Keep us updated!~KIM
Yes it is possible, we can do anything we set our minds too. If you feel more comfortable trying it alone, then by all means do it. It is a step in the right direction. Just take all advice given and use it however you feel best works for you. Don't feel quilty if it doesn't work, dust yourself off and try another avenue.
We are here to walk you through it. the good the bad and to celebrate with you when you succeed..
We are here to walk you through it. the good the bad and to celebrate with you when you succeed..
claker,
I am going thru the same thing, just like you. No one knows about this problem I have. I have only been off for 4 days but I was taking xanax to help, along with valium but the people on this site helped me flush them this morning. I have 2 teenagers who just got home from school but luckily they are out playing in the snow so I can talk more.My children know nothing about my problem. My husband knows but he feels I need to suck it up and do it, even though he is an alcoholic. I have a hard time leaving the house, showering, climbing the walls, no sleep, diarriaha, and much, much more. So far I have spent the whole day on this site just so I dont think about getting more pills. Plus it has kept me off the couch.
The people on this site are great at answering questions. I just joined yesterday and so far they have been my only source of comfort and help.
I am going thru the same thing, just like you. No one knows about this problem I have. I have only been off for 4 days but I was taking xanax to help, along with valium but the people on this site helped me flush them this morning. I have 2 teenagers who just got home from school but luckily they are out playing in the snow so I can talk more.My children know nothing about my problem. My husband knows but he feels I need to suck it up and do it, even though he is an alcoholic. I have a hard time leaving the house, showering, climbing the walls, no sleep, diarriaha, and much, much more. So far I have spent the whole day on this site just so I dont think about getting more pills. Plus it has kept me off the couch.
The people on this site are great at answering questions. I just joined yesterday and so far they have been my only source of comfort and help.
Claker...
With me, I know I'll never get over my addictions...Once I figured out that I'll never be "cured" and that the best I can hope for is "remission", I found some peace...Yes, you can do it by yourself but it is so much easier to have a support group that has been down the road before you and can teach you from their mistakes and success...Keep posting...
Take care
With me, I know I'll never get over my addictions...Once I figured out that I'll never be "cured" and that the best I can hope for is "remission", I found some peace...Yes, you can do it by yourself but it is so much easier to have a support group that has been down the road before you and can teach you from their mistakes and success...Keep posting...
Take care
Hi there,
First off, I think you should go to your regular physician. Do you have one? I was always totally honest with mine even when I was using. I know it is scary but you need to understand what your body is going to go through. They are not going to prescribe you anything but can check for damage possibly done by the pills and also give you the best advice as to if whether you should go cold turkey or ween yourself off. Also, is there any way you can see a counselor? Keep coming to the board. It seems like alot of people have great advice. I am new here as well. I had broken my arm and had to have surgery and my doctor couldn't prescribe enough oxycontin. Within a few weeks I was like the walking dead, crying fits, loss of memory, nodding out. I was completely out of it and one morning I woke up and was so scared I quit cold turkey. My doctor didn't seem the least but phasesed and wanted to prescribe me something else. I said no and dealt with the withdrawls. It was terrible. Like coke , meth, heroin combined. I made it through. You can too!
First off, I think you should go to your regular physician. Do you have one? I was always totally honest with mine even when I was using. I know it is scary but you need to understand what your body is going to go through. They are not going to prescribe you anything but can check for damage possibly done by the pills and also give you the best advice as to if whether you should go cold turkey or ween yourself off. Also, is there any way you can see a counselor? Keep coming to the board. It seems like alot of people have great advice. I am new here as well. I had broken my arm and had to have surgery and my doctor couldn't prescribe enough oxycontin. Within a few weeks I was like the walking dead, crying fits, loss of memory, nodding out. I was completely out of it and one morning I woke up and was so scared I quit cold turkey. My doctor didn't seem the least but phasesed and wanted to prescribe me something else. I said no and dealt with the withdrawls. It was terrible. Like coke , meth, heroin combined. I made it through. You can too!
Claker... Brooke laid your options out for you. She had some very good suggestions... including seeing your doctor. I know you don't want to let your hubby in on this and i completely understand the reasons why. Been there, done that. I would highly recommend going to meetings... you definitely need face to face support. Good luck and keep coming back! Love, Bri :)
You guys are awesome! Thank you! =) I will admit that after reading all of your replies it has made me cry. I dont know if it is because the reality of it all has just now sank in after reading what all of you wrote to me. Like I said I have never talked to anybody about this so to read all of this is kinda bitter sweat for me. I now know 100% that coming here today is going to help alot, I already dont feel as alone.
I have came close to coming clean to my husband but I have always backed out just because I dont know what the outcome would be. I think the thing that hurts the most is that he has NO IDEA! I am not at all putting any blame on him for anything but I just cant wrap my brain around that. How could he not know? Everything about me has changed within the last year and he has No questions for me??
I have tried the tappered off thing and that would never work for me. I get too greedy and then end up taking more then I normally would because in the back of my mind I think... "I will go ahead and enjoy these last ones and then just go cold turkey after that." That seems to be my vicious cycle right now. I dont even know how I ended up as hooked as I am? It started with just a half a pill every few days.
Thanks everybody, you are very appreciated!!! =)
I have came close to coming clean to my husband but I have always backed out just because I dont know what the outcome would be. I think the thing that hurts the most is that he has NO IDEA! I am not at all putting any blame on him for anything but I just cant wrap my brain around that. How could he not know? Everything about me has changed within the last year and he has No questions for me??
I have tried the tappered off thing and that would never work for me. I get too greedy and then end up taking more then I normally would because in the back of my mind I think... "I will go ahead and enjoy these last ones and then just go cold turkey after that." That seems to be my vicious cycle right now. I dont even know how I ended up as hooked as I am? It started with just a half a pill every few days.
Thanks everybody, you are very appreciated!!! =)
Hi Claker...
I always tapered that way...promised myself I'd stick to it and downed them all anyway with the promise I'd deal with it tomorrow...my addict had me believing alot of lies...anyway, I bumped up the OTC thread for you...
Hang in there
Take care...
I always tapered that way...promised myself I'd stick to it and downed them all anyway with the promise I'd deal with it tomorrow...my addict had me believing alot of lies...anyway, I bumped up the OTC thread for you...
Hang in there
Take care...
Claker, I know of some people that have done this without their spouses knowing, I even know a girl that w/d cold turkey from methadone without her husband knowing......She had bigger, well, you know whats, than me.......Anyhow, I'm sorry that it has taken me so long to get back to you but I'm glad to see all of the responses that you have gotten....Really, you have gotten some good advice and you came to a good place to start on your journey to recovery.....Keep talking to us......
PLease consider going to your physician. Maybe it will help you feel more onfident telling him after you have some information about your health, etc. He will also see that you made a positive step towards getting clen. Think about it.
