Hello everyone, My name is actually Maryserp. I have come to this site on word from a dear friend and I would like to seek support and guidance in some ways.
I am a recovering alcoholic with just over 2 yrs sober. I have been told by many that I have a huge haert which loves to give to others. I have been in AA since 1995/1996. Yes, I have had many stumbles on my road, but I am walking on a good path for today. A little bit about myself is this..
I was born to a loving family, who did wonders for me as a baby and child.
I had been brought into this world 41 yrs ago with a facial deformity called Cleft Lip/ Cleft Pallette... which had been surgically corrected many times.
My drinking had begun at a young age. I was constantly being tormented by my peers in schools, I was a slow learner in school too. I started to drink at age 13 yrs old, to cover the hidden hurts that I felt constantly and having that drink,just gave me the invisibilty to sweep away those unbearable hurts that I had endured for so many years. I will say that I have had a high belief in a power
greater then I.. long before I ever stepped into the rooms of AA. God had his hand on me every step of the way throughout my growing up stage.
I had many attempts with suicide some years ago, with drinking, I was also a driving drunk. I was fortunate enough not to end up in jails.. much less ending up dead due to my erratic driving behavior. So, now I wanted to come here, so that maybe I could catch a glimpse of moving forward in some phase of my life today? I don't like battling in controversies, as that is not my fortay for me.
I like to be involved to where I feel I can be helpful to others as best I can too.
Thanx for listening here. I will keep reading these boards daily. Love, Maryserp
Hi there - your story has touched me. I give you so much credit for your courage. I am in the contemplative stage of change and will hopefully be able to stop drinking. I am a binge drinker. I can go without for several days or even weeks, and then I binge to the point of blacking out. I plan to take therapy. AA is not for me. I'm too shy and would not feel comfortable. I could use an online support though - would you be interested?
Serp, I hope for your continued courage. I started drinking when I was 13 also and have been battling "IT" since.
Cassie if you read this please reply.
I do the same thing you do and I don't understand why.
I have been sober (not one drink) for the last 8 days. Last year I went for 2 month's. I don't know why I started again, if I did I would be better adept at not drinking.
Day 8 sober and I feel GREAT, I want to feel this way permanently. Any suggestions ? anyone ? AA is not for me.
Cassie if you read this please reply.
I do the same thing you do and I don't understand why.
I have been sober (not one drink) for the last 8 days. Last year I went for 2 month's. I don't know why I started again, if I did I would be better adept at not drinking.
Day 8 sober and I feel GREAT, I want to feel this way permanently. Any suggestions ? anyone ? AA is not for me.
Welcome Maryserp. Your a welcomed addition to our little family of struggling addicts. I too am in recovery almost 2 years now.
I'm a recovered alcoholic with 16 years of sobriety. Two things should be known right off the bat. (1) Alcoholism, left untreated, will kill you. (2) Alcoholics Anonymous is the ONLY proven method for long-term and successful sobriety. When I say long-term, I mean 20 plus years.
I am also an Addictions Counselor. I believe (obviously) in counseling as well. But one does not replace the other. They should be used in concert. To say that you don't feel comfortable in an AA meeting is saying "I would rather die than to feel uncomfortable".
Personally, I would rather feel uncomfortable than die. But....that's just me.
I am also an Addictions Counselor. I believe (obviously) in counseling as well. But one does not replace the other. They should be used in concert. To say that you don't feel comfortable in an AA meeting is saying "I would rather die than to feel uncomfortable".
Personally, I would rather feel uncomfortable than die. But....that's just me.
Well, after reading all the stories, I am definately not alone. I have just ended a relationship 2 days directly related to alcohol. Although my boyfriend turned out to be an alcoholic, I also discovered that I might also be one. I called things off since I no longer can support this terrible habit. I have taken out a line of credit to support the habit. I am a professional, with a 16 year old teenager and it is becoming more and more difficult to cover it up.
My boyfriend was recently caught with drinking and driving and also lost his career as a result of it (financial planner). You see, in this profession, you can not have a financial license if you have charges pending.
Although, I feel empty and alone, not to mention missing him like crazy, I know that being without him is the best thing I could do for my child, career and overall health. The only way I will accept him back in my life is if we both seek professional help.
I am also a binge drinker... when I start, I cannot stop. I could go without it, but my non-drinkers days are become fewer than my drinking days. Trying to cover it up at work is also very challenging. The other day, I partied all night, went into work at 6:30 am. I lasted 1.5 then had to go home.
My doctor, who incidently, is a reformed alcoholic, suggested that I go for treatment. He also highly recommends AA.
I hope I beat this disease before it takes over and ruins my life.....
My boyfriend was recently caught with drinking and driving and also lost his career as a result of it (financial planner). You see, in this profession, you can not have a financial license if you have charges pending.
Although, I feel empty and alone, not to mention missing him like crazy, I know that being without him is the best thing I could do for my child, career and overall health. The only way I will accept him back in my life is if we both seek professional help.
I am also a binge drinker... when I start, I cannot stop. I could go without it, but my non-drinkers days are become fewer than my drinking days. Trying to cover it up at work is also very challenging. The other day, I partied all night, went into work at 6:30 am. I lasted 1.5 then had to go home.
My doctor, who incidently, is a reformed alcoholic, suggested that I go for treatment. He also highly recommends AA.
I hope I beat this disease before it takes over and ruins my life.....
surfer
i can relate to everying you say - you have taken the first step - admitting to yourself you have a problem - your already on your way - stick with the people here they will help you to - AA is also a good option as your doctor suggests - you will learn a great deal there i did - although i dont go now - been of the alcohol many years - but once an addict remember always an addict - you have to be careful of everything - i am now a painkiller addict and now fighting another long battle
have courage you will get their
lots of love
rosy
i can relate to everying you say - you have taken the first step - admitting to yourself you have a problem - your already on your way - stick with the people here they will help you to - AA is also a good option as your doctor suggests - you will learn a great deal there i did - although i dont go now - been of the alcohol many years - but once an addict remember always an addict - you have to be careful of everything - i am now a painkiller addict and now fighting another long battle
have courage you will get their
lots of love
rosy
