To all of you who have fought your addiction and are still beating it I commend you for the courage you had in yourself to stop. For those who are still fighting keep on punching and kicking and screaming everyday because it it worth it for yourself most of all and your families I have been watching the love of my life for 20 years slowly destroy himself. Mostly it was drinking everynight for the first 17yrs. The he got hurt and the doc gave him Percs. Thats when the hell really started..... We traded up the drinking for the pills and when times were really bad traded up the pills for herion. I have watched him and helped him through the herion withdrawl twice so far but the pills never leave. And withdrawl never really happens because when the herion (which he will take only for a week or so stops) the pills are right there to bail him out. So today I hope will be the last day of hell in my house because tomorrow I am off to the doctors with him. I hope he has the strength to admit that he is in over his head and that I alone can't help him anymore. I will stand by him to the end to get him clean. But in the end it will be his choice alone. I can't explain how hard it is to watch him destroy himself like he does day after day. My heart is heavy and my eyes damp....hence the name. I know that after all is said and done he could bolt and I will lose him to the drugs. So all of you out there be strong no matter what side of the fence you are on and stay safe.
hi,
wow, you are incredible. i have a good feeling God will answer your prayers. I will put you in my journal and pray for you guys everyday. He is a lucky man to have someone like you stick by him through thick and thin. i hope i never get to that point in my life with pills. its because of stories like yours i got off the pain medication before i got to the point your husband is at. my family never had a clue i was taking pills everyday. 3-4 a day was my limit. most days it was 2. i know they say the more and longer you take them the worst the w/d's. that was the most unconfortable feeling i ever experienced while getting off that crap. our story really inspired me. thanks
i really wish you the best.
runner
wow, you are incredible. i have a good feeling God will answer your prayers. I will put you in my journal and pray for you guys everyday. He is a lucky man to have someone like you stick by him through thick and thin. i hope i never get to that point in my life with pills. its because of stories like yours i got off the pain medication before i got to the point your husband is at. my family never had a clue i was taking pills everyday. 3-4 a day was my limit. most days it was 2. i know they say the more and longer you take them the worst the w/d's. that was the most unconfortable feeling i ever experienced while getting off that crap. our story really inspired me. thanks
i really wish you the best.
runner
Yes, your husband is very lucky. Good luck to the both of you...M.
Thanks runner and none4me. I am hoping that tonight he will read what I wrote and some of the posts and get himself involved. And maybe even share what he is going through.
hi again
tell him to call me and i will tell him how lucky a guy he is. he needs to you you are really special. at least he needs to know to give it his best shot.
runner
tell him to call me and i will tell him how lucky a guy he is. he needs to you you are really special. at least he needs to know to give it his best shot.
runner
He is very lucky to have you in his life. You are truly compassionate. Good luck to you both
Misty:
I traded up to heroin at times to because I couldn't get loaded enough on the pills. It's hideous this addiction. He is lucky to have a support system like you. I chose to isolate and hide my addiction until I was so desperate. I go to meetings and that's what works for me. Believe me when I say it was the last house on the block for me. Now I am glad to go and have that structure. Good luck to you.
Peace,
Rachel
I traded up to heroin at times to because I couldn't get loaded enough on the pills. It's hideous this addiction. He is lucky to have a support system like you. I chose to isolate and hide my addiction until I was so desperate. I go to meetings and that's what works for me. Believe me when I say it was the last house on the block for me. Now I am glad to go and have that structure. Good luck to you.
Peace,
Rachel
Thanks to all who responded today. Stay strong Rachel! The day is almost ending here. The eclipse has started and the sox are winning. All I want to do is sleep and have it be 1:00 tomorrow afternoon so we can get this thing started. The other half is on the couch nodded out in a sweats*** with a quilt over him. He is burning up on the outside and freezing in, I guess 5 percs today weren't enough to stem the tide. Know I won't sleep tonight, hope something is good on late night TV. Will write again I am sure to vent alittle. Will help if anyone needs it. Will cry I'm sure. Will laugh again sometime soon I hope......
