I feel sad to see how upset you are today. You are good enough, don't doubt that please. On this board you give people so much. You capture all the ins and outs of peoples stories and can relate to everyone on a really personal level. I really admire that about you, I think it is a beautiful quality. One of many that you have. Try to think today of some of the successful things in your life, the things worth living for.
And stuff alcohol. It stinks. So do drugs. They suck.
Don't lower yourself to the levels of entertaining either of these things because you are so much better than that. You are making the efforts to overcome your addictions and that is reason to celebrate. So many people don't get that far, they just get destroyed. I am sick and tired of seeing good people destroyed by alcohol and drugs. I hate it, more and more every day. You are not one of those people, you have chosen to make your life work. You have chosen to live a better life. Embrace the wonderful changes you are making.
Also, the moon is full today. It really does stir up high emotion.
Take care of yourself.
Hi Lookinup. I am sorry to know that you are not feeling so good today. If you can , tell yourself that this too will pass. Try to remember the good and happy sober "days that you have had since giving up drinking. You are a wonderful person and one who have given me a lot of inspiration since I have joined this board. Your spirit has carried me through many bad days. I too have been having a bad day so my advice might not be much and my words of wisdom few but please know that I care about you and I wouldn't want you to do anything that would destroy the happiness you have found in your sobriety . Hang in there and please be assured that people DO care about you and that you are loved. God bless and be safe ((( )))
Lookinup, Lacey and pirate are so right. You have accepted me and encouraged me and have helped me feel that I can sometimes find the right words to support someone in their struggle, and that is a blessing to me, as you guessed. You have helped me more than you know.
Of course you are good enough. Every single child is worthy of love and although we might not always have received the love we needed in the past there is love enough for us in the present. I know I didn't feel that, in fact I've only just started to feel it these past one or two weeks.....things coming together....acceptance and understanding of what was and is....finding that my deep-seated feelings of never being good enough, of being "sent back" (whatever that was in my tiny child-mind....being punished, abandoned as worthless)...all those things have eaten away inside of me.....and yet now I'm finding peace. I'm finding love. I'm finding joy. Through AA, Al-anon, counselling, friends and family and strangers like you, an ocean away, who are fast becoming friends.
Life can be full of despair, but the genuine miracle is that in the deepest night stars still shine and soon will come the day.
Soon will come the day. One day at a time.
God bless you and keep you safe today. Your friends all wish you well.
Of course you are good enough. Every single child is worthy of love and although we might not always have received the love we needed in the past there is love enough for us in the present. I know I didn't feel that, in fact I've only just started to feel it these past one or two weeks.....things coming together....acceptance and understanding of what was and is....finding that my deep-seated feelings of never being good enough, of being "sent back" (whatever that was in my tiny child-mind....being punished, abandoned as worthless)...all those things have eaten away inside of me.....and yet now I'm finding peace. I'm finding love. I'm finding joy. Through AA, Al-anon, counselling, friends and family and strangers like you, an ocean away, who are fast becoming friends.
Life can be full of despair, but the genuine miracle is that in the deepest night stars still shine and soon will come the day.
Soon will come the day. One day at a time.
God bless you and keep you safe today. Your friends all wish you well.
Chris,
Keep it simple. Drinking isn't an option, period. Lacey hit on something in her post. You're at a milestone so PAWS is probably kicking in and on top of that, the moon is full. But these feelings will pass.
Pray, even if you don't feel like it, go to a meeting, even if it's just to sit on your hands and listen, and no matter what, don't drink today. Focus on today. Sometimes, I find for me, writing in my journal can help get me through difficult and troublesome feelings plus it makes me focus on one thing, not the committee going crazy in my head.
I'll say a prayer for you. Don't drink, pray and remember, this too shall pass.
Take care,
Stacey
Keep it simple. Drinking isn't an option, period. Lacey hit on something in her post. You're at a milestone so PAWS is probably kicking in and on top of that, the moon is full. But these feelings will pass.
Pray, even if you don't feel like it, go to a meeting, even if it's just to sit on your hands and listen, and no matter what, don't drink today. Focus on today. Sometimes, I find for me, writing in my journal can help get me through difficult and troublesome feelings plus it makes me focus on one thing, not the committee going crazy in my head.
I'll say a prayer for you. Don't drink, pray and remember, this too shall pass.
Take care,
Stacey
Lookinup: Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you.
Hugs,
Zipper
Hugs,
Zipper
Hey Lookinup:)
You are never alone and even as far away as NZ is my thoughts and energy prayers are on there way to you
light and love zac
You are never alone and even as far away as NZ is my thoughts and energy prayers are on there way to you
light and love zac
Hey Chris...
Check in...I'm thinking of you....
xoxo
Stacey
Check in...I'm thinking of you....
xoxo
Stacey
Hello,
Thank You, for your prayers, your words, your thoughts, your kindness. I didn't drink. Yesterday was hard. I felt like I was in an emotional hell. Mother's and Daughter's, Daughter's and Mother's. She told me I was more annoying now, then when I was drinking, what the hell. I havn't cried so much in one day like that in a very long time, today it feels sorta cleansing.
It triggered many memories of my life will I ever be good enough for anyone ever. sober, or not.
She sent me a nice card apoligized, I saw my part and apoligized to for all the harm done. The residual effects are still lingering abound for all.
I did a meeting on line at recoverychat.com. There were 22 people in the rm. chapter two. I've never done that, it was good. I was on my hands and knees alot yesterday. I felt like I was being tested. I not only survived, but felt the Lord's love and mercy. I know that fear doesn't come from him, I know that there are mighty evil spirits that we can't see who want to harm people.
It is over! Today is a new day full of God's grace and mercy. Today marks 100 days of continued sobriety, by the grace of God. I had a lovely e-mail from my daugter this AM. The sun is shining in Oregon. This is are 5th day in the low 60's no rain; blue skies. I'm off to go pick up our taxes with my husband and other errands. I will be back later as there's some threads I want to write on. I'm going to try and hit the 5:30 meeting. I never made it to the store, need to go. I'm glad the day of perguratory is over. Yes, this to shall pass.
It is nice to know that there are people who care. You all make a difference. Thank You, for reaching out your hands in love and friendship to me in the good and the bad times. Thats what friends are for. Sometimes thats all it takes is just a little love, a little encouragement, an open ear, a hug oceans away.
Thank You,
Chris
Thank You, for your prayers, your words, your thoughts, your kindness. I didn't drink. Yesterday was hard. I felt like I was in an emotional hell. Mother's and Daughter's, Daughter's and Mother's. She told me I was more annoying now, then when I was drinking, what the hell. I havn't cried so much in one day like that in a very long time, today it feels sorta cleansing.
It triggered many memories of my life will I ever be good enough for anyone ever. sober, or not.
She sent me a nice card apoligized, I saw my part and apoligized to for all the harm done. The residual effects are still lingering abound for all.
I did a meeting on line at recoverychat.com. There were 22 people in the rm. chapter two. I've never done that, it was good. I was on my hands and knees alot yesterday. I felt like I was being tested. I not only survived, but felt the Lord's love and mercy. I know that fear doesn't come from him, I know that there are mighty evil spirits that we can't see who want to harm people.
It is over! Today is a new day full of God's grace and mercy. Today marks 100 days of continued sobriety, by the grace of God. I had a lovely e-mail from my daugter this AM. The sun is shining in Oregon. This is are 5th day in the low 60's no rain; blue skies. I'm off to go pick up our taxes with my husband and other errands. I will be back later as there's some threads I want to write on. I'm going to try and hit the 5:30 meeting. I never made it to the store, need to go. I'm glad the day of perguratory is over. Yes, this to shall pass.
It is nice to know that there are people who care. You all make a difference. Thank You, for reaching out your hands in love and friendship to me in the good and the bad times. Thats what friends are for. Sometimes thats all it takes is just a little love, a little encouragement, an open ear, a hug oceans away.
Thank You,
Chris
Good for you, Chris, you made it thru the crisis without drinking and are that much stronger for it. That saying that I hated so much in early recovery "this too shall pass" is so true. But if we drink it seems like the troubles never go away. If only that saying didn't pertain to the good times too, huh?
100 days!!!!! Wow!!!!! How amazing, I am so pleased. Also, I am so pleased you got through your dark night of the soul day! You will have emerged stronger than before, fantastic!
