I will do so well, I can go months without drinking and seriously think I'll never drink again. Until, a day like today comes along and I think if I have a drink it would calm me down. All it ever does is depress me. Top it all off, lately I have been losing control on pills again as well. Why do I always think this crap would make me feel better? Never does but I will fall for it everytime..
I know once an alcoholic and addict always will be. I know what I need to do, been down this road so many times. I have to stop and now before it goes any further.
Now we know the problem. What's the solution? I remember trying that controlled using. It never worked for me either. Keep comin back.
Just reachin' out is part of the first, admitting your powerlessness is accepting your disease. Now its time for the action. Go to a meeting, don't drink, read the Big Book of AA, get a sponser and start working the 12 steps. That is if you are truly ready to go to any length to stay alive.
Lost Again, Hello, you are in the right place. I know all about staying away from the crap for months and talking yourself right back into it. I've been through the same thing time and time again, and let me tell you IT DOES NOT WORK. If you are an alcoholic like me, every time you go back to it, it will be harder to stop. Please believe me, i've been there, and i'm there now. If you know you have a problem, get the alcohol the hell away from you and don't buy any more.
Yeah, it's hard as hell those first few days, i am a chronic alcoholic and i can go weeks and months without drinking., but once i start i can't stop. After i'm done with my 3-4 or 5 day binge i tell myself never again, and i feel lower than the ground beneith your feet. I sweat and puke and crawl out of my skin for a few days, get my s*** back together, and when i start to feel better, i let my guard back down and do it all over agian. Please believe me, it is a vicious cycle that never ends. Get out while the getin's good!!!!!
Yeah, it's hard as hell those first few days, i am a chronic alcoholic and i can go weeks and months without drinking., but once i start i can't stop. After i'm done with my 3-4 or 5 day binge i tell myself never again, and i feel lower than the ground beneith your feet. I sweat and puke and crawl out of my skin for a few days, get my s*** back together, and when i start to feel better, i let my guard back down and do it all over agian. Please believe me, it is a vicious cycle that never ends. Get out while the getin's good!!!!!
exactly what happens. Same ole cycle starts again. Well I'm through with it. Tomorrow I'll get back to recovery.
Good on you!!!!
Your post reminded me of something...when I managed and controlled my drinking I didn't enjoy it, when I enjoyed (I say that with sarcasm) my drinking I wasn't managing and controlling it...
Great posts everyone. Lost Again I know what you mean, I think we all do - once you've gone awhile without drinking (or using) it's very easy to fall into the trap of "hey that wasn't so hard, I can be in control," and just as easy to forget that, as you said, once an addict/alcoholic, always an addict/alcoholic. The best part I think is that today is always a new day, and a new chance to start over and get help. Jayde is right, you're in a good place here, everyone is so supportive and helpful. I hope you will keep posting with us...
VW that was very interesting what you said about managing & controlling... once again reminds me of the saying, telling an alcoholic to control their drinking is like telling a person with diarrhea to control their bowels... not so easy.
VW that was very interesting what you said about managing & controlling... once again reminds me of the saying, telling an alcoholic to control their drinking is like telling a person with diarrhea to control their bowels... not so easy.
hoping everybody is doing ok today. I'm not doing so well. First thing I did was run to the pills and alcohol again.
no excuse i have learned that much. I get so frustrated with everything and as always I call it quits. I say f*** it. tomorrow is another damn day.
there are times I can be glad to be alive then i can swing all the way to the other side and just wish i wasn't here.
life just always seems to catch up to me. I struggle to stay with my son, if it weren't for him I be checking out.
no excuse i have learned that much. I get so frustrated with everything and as always I call it quits. I say f*** it. tomorrow is another damn day.
there are times I can be glad to be alive then i can swing all the way to the other side and just wish i wasn't here.
life just always seems to catch up to me. I struggle to stay with my son, if it weren't for him I be checking out.
