Good morning everyone! Hope you all are doing well today and make it through OK. It is day 18 for me and I am battling the mental stuff. Someone wrote me this the other day
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This is so true! I am going on a field trip with about 300 school kids and 30 parents today. Yesterday I couldn't finish the grocery shopping without crying. If I make it through this, I will be very proud. Please pray for me today and I will, as usual, keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers, as well.
It is so bizaar to me that what used to be the simplest, seemingly mundane tasks are now so trying. My God! What have I done to myself?
Take care all.
Hello,
You are doing great, 18 days is real good. Keep going. It does get better. I have around 2 weeks. Not exactly sure of the how many days this time. I am still having memory problems. I'm not going through any wds though. I think because I cut back until I was taking 1 pill a day for a couple of months before just stopping. Plus I stopped for a few days and then went back. Now I'm pretty sure it's been 2 weeks since I've used and the only problem I'm really having is memory loss. I was put on a new medication called Cymbalta that I believed just helped me so much. Made me feel alive again, so I haven't even felt the fatigue this time.
The mental obsession is always the worse. I will keep you in my prayers. Hope you have a great day today.
Love,
Liz
You are doing great, 18 days is real good. Keep going. It does get better. I have around 2 weeks. Not exactly sure of the how many days this time. I am still having memory problems. I'm not going through any wds though. I think because I cut back until I was taking 1 pill a day for a couple of months before just stopping. Plus I stopped for a few days and then went back. Now I'm pretty sure it's been 2 weeks since I've used and the only problem I'm really having is memory loss. I was put on a new medication called Cymbalta that I believed just helped me so much. Made me feel alive again, so I haven't even felt the fatigue this time.
The mental obsession is always the worse. I will keep you in my prayers. Hope you have a great day today.
Love,
Liz
A field trip with 300 students and 30 parents???? If that doesn't keep your mind distracted, nothing will! lol Good luck, M.
None is right if those kids don't distract you nothing will........I don't think you will need all 300 just a few should keep you busy enough. Look at the bright side...it will be fun.....kids are great to watch very entertaining. Best of all if someone asks you why you look so tired, you won't have to fib...you got a great excuse, it could carry thought the weekend!
Have a great time today.....
Tina
Have a great time today.....
Tina
Hi Mom - I will always consider when I hit 30 days clean to be about the biggest achievement of my life. Honest. I won't go into details here, but that 1st month was really hard work for me, and when I finally got my 30 day recognition at an NA meeting it was so gratifying. Today it's still a lot of work, with ups and downs, etc. But a day at a time I'm now past two months clean, and trust me it does get better. Most days I have such a tremendous sense of gratitude that I'm on the right path in life. It truly is an inside job. Stay strong, and I've found that keeping busy, for me at least, has been the best thing for keeping clean. Gives me less time to think.
Hi Liz - 14 days clean? That is just awesome! I'm really happy for you...I know it hasn't been easy, but you are such a strong and determined person. It's great to see you sharing your strength and experience here. And I too am finding that with the right med - for me it's effexor - my brain chemicals can be balanced so that I really feel like I can focus and cope to the best of my ability each day. I'm realizing that so much of my drug use/abuse, just as my drinking years ago, was simply a means of self-medicating my mood swings. Gosh, there are times when my mood can get so dark, but with the help of a wonderful psych and the right AD's, as long as I just get out of my own way, I can have a really good life.
I'm really happy for both of you. Stay strong, and keep sharing!
Thanks;
Jim
Hi Liz - 14 days clean? That is just awesome! I'm really happy for you...I know it hasn't been easy, but you are such a strong and determined person. It's great to see you sharing your strength and experience here. And I too am finding that with the right med - for me it's effexor - my brain chemicals can be balanced so that I really feel like I can focus and cope to the best of my ability each day. I'm realizing that so much of my drug use/abuse, just as my drinking years ago, was simply a means of self-medicating my mood swings. Gosh, there are times when my mood can get so dark, but with the help of a wonderful psych and the right AD's, as long as I just get out of my own way, I can have a really good life.
I'm really happy for both of you. Stay strong, and keep sharing!
Thanks;
Jim
Hey Jim,
Thank you so much. Yeah, my mood swings is why I always self medicated. I couldn't deal with depression but with the help of these new meds I really am feeling so good. I'm thinking I have about 2 weeks clean. I got clean when I started with this medication. I can't believe the difference I feel. I'm also going to be starting therapy. The counselor has been calling for me to make an appointment. Honestly because I have been feeling so good I have been putting that off. I should go though. Just in case this medication stops working like the others did. I sure hope not. I really love how I feel these past couple of weeks. I have a nice clean home now too. lol.
My son will be here today at noon. He gets a half day once a month. Thankfully it's been landing on my weekends. :o). Have a great day. Thanks for sharing. I thought I was the only one that struggled with self medicating because of the mood swings.
Love,
Liz
Thank you so much. Yeah, my mood swings is why I always self medicated. I couldn't deal with depression but with the help of these new meds I really am feeling so good. I'm thinking I have about 2 weeks clean. I got clean when I started with this medication. I can't believe the difference I feel. I'm also going to be starting therapy. The counselor has been calling for me to make an appointment. Honestly because I have been feeling so good I have been putting that off. I should go though. Just in case this medication stops working like the others did. I sure hope not. I really love how I feel these past couple of weeks. I have a nice clean home now too. lol.
My son will be here today at noon. He gets a half day once a month. Thankfully it's been landing on my weekends. :o). Have a great day. Thanks for sharing. I thought I was the only one that struggled with self medicating because of the mood swings.
Love,
Liz
I am on day 28 today....I have to host a Christmas party tonight for over 100 people. I don't have my crutch! I'll be thinking of you...you think of me. We can do it!!!!!
Thanks everyone for the kind words of encouragement!
Katboyd>>>>>>>>GOOD LUCK! You can do it!
I am back from the trip.........we went to see Polar Express......rented the theater. Had fun, great movie, glad it's over, and I did fine!
I agree with none- That field trip by No MEANS is mundane..haha..GAWD!
