Hi everyone. I just wanted to say that yesterday was a big day for me and my boyfriend. Our 90th day fell on my Dad's birthday. I realized this a month ago and wanted a really nice dinner to celebrate. We have a food related business and boy was it a nice dinner...8 courses and lots of sparkling water with a splash of Italian soda in it...in champagne glasses! Yesterday we got a call for a large party today and because we are sober and didn't get wasted last night we woke up early and felt just fine. I woke up yesterday so depressed and missing my drugs and alcohol...I talked to my boyfriend about it and the feelings passed after a hike and some tears. The bad feelings do pass and I would always think they were going to stay forever, but they don't. I feel there is some misinformation going on with the media and getting sober. If people think they must enter a rehab to get sober they may never do it...expense, time, availability....so many of us have detoxed at home with eachother's support. I would not be sober right now if I was going to wait for a rehab bed. Sure, some people need a medical detox, but I think most do not and how many more people would get sober if there was more information about doing it at home with support like this site, NA/AA, or whatever suits your needs. So if there is someone out there not getting sober just waiting for a rehab bed to open up why don't you start today and by the time that bed opens up you will already be detoxed! If you don't know my story I got off of heroin, oxycontin, nubain, valium, soma, halcion, pot and alcohol at home with the support of the wise folks from this board and I owe them so very much...you know who you are, those who wrote to me and I am forever grateful! One small day at a time or even hour and minute at times...that's how we all do it, it's no easier for anyone. CAS.
CAS:
You are doing so well. Congratulations. You have taken great responsibility with your addiction and educated yourself wholeheartedly. Knowledge is power!
Rachel
Rachel, You definately inspired and encouraged me, especially to get out there and get some exercise. I just took your advise and it was good. I always enjoy reading your posts. CAS.
good to see you Cas, and I'm glad you are doing well
CAS:
You make me smile :-) Thanks for that..You inspire me daily. I feel like I need to do more, lol.
Rachel
CAS, Congrats. You must be a very strong person. Always remember that strength is there. How did you do it? C/T? taper?
Congrates. Cas.You have done a great job!
DJ
DJ
Janet, Thanks for your continued support and encouragement! Rachel, I sometimes wish you lived aroud here so we could go hiking together! I went CT and suffered very much, but those few weeks of suffering were NOTHING compared to the suffering of 13 years plus of addictions that were soon to kill me. I am telling you people that CT is actually a cleansing experience that you can get into and it's worth a lot in the end to feel that way. It is a limited experience and now, at night I am really tired and I actually fall asleep and not pass out. It is liberating to sleep on your own. I thought I was a lifetime insomniac, but I quit caffiene, lost any taste for chocolate(I thought I was a chocoholic and I find I prefer the subtle taste of vanilla now!), and now I WANT to eat healthfully because it tastes better to my now clean taste buds and I feel better. It's ALL connected. My Mom told me last night that I have never looked better...not at any age. I will be 40 in March, by the way. It still seems unreal to say I am sober after so many years of drug abuse, but it was a journey I had to take and without that extreme of an addiction I would have never appreciated what I have now, which is just to wake up and be functional without any substances. It is freedom and it is there for the taking. I am NOT a strong person...I gave up my power over my drugs and from there I had a place to start. If you think I am stronger or different than you then you may find a reason not to begin your own journey. You are me and I am you...we are more alike than different.Please quit today if you are even considering it... there is no better time than today, right now! CAS.
That was well said, Cas.
Kerry
Kerry
