HI Melissa, (response to what you wrote on DDs post)
You cant get frustrated with yourself. It takes as long as it takes. That doesn't mean that your weak. The first time I really tried to get help was 26 years ago....I have gotten frustrated too and I hated myself for what I considered my weakness. I was always so tough when I was young so being fearful now just makes me angry....Counseling is going good. Ive only been there twice and I just talked and talked. Im tired of being sick so Im not wasting anytime not talking about the hard stuff...Ive done some really bad things...things I was terrified to share for fear of long term prison time. I wasnt sure about all the confidentiality laws, but this lady said she would help me and promised she would never tell unless I threatened myself or others. She said my past was my past. So I got out my deepest darkest secret in my second session....and she was still nice to me. I dont feel cured or anything, but THAT burden was killing me. Now she wants me to cry over my childhood..."C'mon! Really?!" not a real big cryer. But we'll see what happens.
Ooooh...Hi Jessi!! I'm very sorry I didn't respond right away.
I did write this long, beautiful post and it went *poof* when I accidently hit the back button on my browser. Boy was I pi*sed off!!! lol We need emoticons here!! >:(
I'll write it again in a little while - I'm under a deadline at work so I'm in and out of here today and tomorrow. Thanks and I'll write ya back soon. (((hug)))
Love,
Melissa
I did write this long, beautiful post and it went *poof* when I accidently hit the back button on my browser. Boy was I pi*sed off!!! lol We need emoticons here!! >:(
I'll write it again in a little while - I'm under a deadline at work so I'm in and out of here today and tomorrow. Thanks and I'll write ya back soon. (((hug)))
Love,
Melissa
