49mg
Less than one week until last dose of methadone to transfer to subutex.
49mg
I'm getting close to the transfer weekend. On Friday i'm doing it! With God's power I'm going to succeed. In fact, with His power i'm going to be one of the 4% of persons who gets completely off the opioids and stays clean. I'm going to aa, church, working out, eating healthy, praying, sleeping good, and working with a doctor apart from my methadone doctor and addressing any other health needs. I would never have made it thus far without the anti depressant. He added another 50mg of a different anti depressant in the evening because I wasn't sleeping through the night. Now i'm getting 8 hours of sleep waking up still at 3am, but can go back to sleep until 4:30am. I know that God is with me now and that everything that's happening I can trust Him that it's all going to be OK. It's actually exciting to have such a huge challenge in front of me. It's something like climbing a mountain:)! I know I'm going to succeed and that's what is so exciting. Also, i'm so excited about getting my body back in shape! Methadone got me fat, fatter than I have ever been in my life. By summer time I"m going to be in excellent shape and completely free of ALL drug except my anti depressant, high blood pressure, and cholesterol meds.
I'm getting close to the transfer weekend. On Friday i'm doing it! With God's power I'm going to succeed. In fact, with His power i'm going to be one of the 4% of persons who gets completely off the opioids and stays clean. I'm going to aa, church, working out, eating healthy, praying, sleeping good, and working with a doctor apart from my methadone doctor and addressing any other health needs. I would never have made it thus far without the anti depressant. He added another 50mg of a different anti depressant in the evening because I wasn't sleeping through the night. Now i'm getting 8 hours of sleep waking up still at 3am, but can go back to sleep until 4:30am. I know that God is with me now and that everything that's happening I can trust Him that it's all going to be OK. It's actually exciting to have such a huge challenge in front of me. It's something like climbing a mountain:)! I know I'm going to succeed and that's what is so exciting. Also, i'm so excited about getting my body back in shape! Methadone got me fat, fatter than I have ever been in my life. By summer time I"m going to be in excellent shape and completely free of ALL drug except my anti depressant, high blood pressure, and cholesterol meds.
49mg
I dosed Friday morning at 6am... It's Sunday at 12:30pm and I'm doing ok. My legs are bothering me and I have a nervousness and my head doesn't feel right. I have a running nose and am yawning a lot. I'm going for the subtex induction at 5am tomorrow morning. I'm just going to pray that I don't go into P/W.
I dosed Friday morning at 6am... It's Sunday at 12:30pm and I'm doing ok. My legs are bothering me and I have a nervousness and my head doesn't feel right. I have a running nose and am yawning a lot. I'm going for the subtex induction at 5am tomorrow morning. I'm just going to pray that I don't go into P/W.
14mg of subtext
Did the transfer to sub's. I went to methadone doctor and my GP for any help loaded with medical advice of giving some benzo and clonidine. It's posted above. On Sunday I made a choice to do shot some H. I shot a gram and a half. I though I just left clinic loaded on GOV dope, coming back to get different kind of GOV dope and in the mean time they say suffer. Wait they gave me some GABAPENTIN threw it out and some vistrol that made me more nervous. To make a long story short I shot half sunday night and half Monday morning and skipped going in Monday. Great experience because the rush wasn't as exciting at all! And after that I just nodded then read. Wow! I love being alive and fishing, snowboarding, playing golf with my boy, going across on ferry on sunny day and riding bikes. Helping others, all the stuff that felt good I just could get going on methadone. It sucked the life out of me. I just wasn't me anymore. At any rate like the Holyfield title belt story that man persevered after hard diligent work. Every setback he didn't give up. He kept pushing. I've been pushing hard 7 years my time is here. God has my back. AA is messed up with so many things they say. We don't shoot our wounded. That saying is negative. I could go on and on about it. When they say take what you hear and leave the rest beware of those slogans the Nazi's shoot at you. They mean things.... Use discernment, knowledge, and wisdom if you have it yet. That's my two cents. I don't care what anyone thinks anymore this is my fight now. It's not to impress. Ride on my high horse or nothing else. I just want to enjoy life and the things im interested in. I like reading a lot also. I finished HS good, two year AA but not once read a book on my own. I pray that all these posts helps just one person. I'm cut over now and feel pretty good. The worst part was my worry and fear. When I accepted how I was feeling it wasn't bad. My mind was trying to play tricks on me. Fear fear fear. With out fear there is no courage!
Did the transfer to sub's. I went to methadone doctor and my GP for any help loaded with medical advice of giving some benzo and clonidine. It's posted above. On Sunday I made a choice to do shot some H. I shot a gram and a half. I though I just left clinic loaded on GOV dope, coming back to get different kind of GOV dope and in the mean time they say suffer. Wait they gave me some GABAPENTIN threw it out and some vistrol that made me more nervous. To make a long story short I shot half sunday night and half Monday morning and skipped going in Monday. Great experience because the rush wasn't as exciting at all! And after that I just nodded then read. Wow! I love being alive and fishing, snowboarding, playing golf with my boy, going across on ferry on sunny day and riding bikes. Helping others, all the stuff that felt good I just could get going on methadone. It sucked the life out of me. I just wasn't me anymore. At any rate like the Holyfield title belt story that man persevered after hard diligent work. Every setback he didn't give up. He kept pushing. I've been pushing hard 7 years my time is here. God has my back. AA is messed up with so many things they say. We don't shoot our wounded. That saying is negative. I could go on and on about it. When they say take what you hear and leave the rest beware of those slogans the Nazi's shoot at you. They mean things.... Use discernment, knowledge, and wisdom if you have it yet. That's my two cents. I don't care what anyone thinks anymore this is my fight now. It's not to impress. Ride on my high horse or nothing else. I just want to enjoy life and the things im interested in. I like reading a lot also. I finished HS good, two year AA but not once read a book on my own. I pray that all these posts helps just one person. I'm cut over now and feel pretty good. The worst part was my worry and fear. When I accepted how I was feeling it wasn't bad. My mind was trying to play tricks on me. Fear fear fear. With out fear there is no courage!
God bless! I feel excited today.
Oh my gosh! I have been having to push my piss out for years! This morning before doing the switch I would drink a cup of water and have to pee in 5 mins. I did this a number of times! Came right out! It was weird and then I drank a cup in case of UA. I just pissed got in the car and bam I had to go and it was ready to fire! No pushing no nothing. I was uncomfortable almost. This methadone has messed up my T, my P and the list goes on! look above:)
14mg subutex
I feel good today. I finally fell asleep at 6pm and slept 7 hours. My body feels better. My system flushed out sweat last night to the point that my bedding was soaked.
Read about the MU receptor on Wikipedia if you get a chance. Its very interesting because taking methadone plugs them up. I now understand why I just could feel life like I had use to.
I feel good today. I finally fell asleep at 6pm and slept 7 hours. My body feels better. My system flushed out sweat last night to the point that my bedding was soaked.
Read about the MU receptor on Wikipedia if you get a chance. Its very interesting because taking methadone plugs them up. I now understand why I just could feel life like I had use to.
14mg subutex
This was an excellent decision. I feel better than I have in a long time. I have a new energy in me. My body at night has just been sweating when sleeping! It's pushing those methadone toxins out of me. I'm so grateful I can't begin to explain. I'm going to stay on this dose for a month to let the methadone get fully out of my system. Then the doctor and I are going to setup a subutex taper.
God has all power and all good things come from God! I can do nothing on my own, but with Him everything is possible.
This was an excellent decision. I feel better than I have in a long time. I have a new energy in me. My body at night has just been sweating when sleeping! It's pushing those methadone toxins out of me. I'm so grateful I can't begin to explain. I'm going to stay on this dose for a month to let the methadone get fully out of my system. Then the doctor and I are going to setup a subutex taper.
God has all power and all good things come from God! I can do nothing on my own, but with Him everything is possible.
14mg Subutex
205 pounds!!!
Wow, I'm motivated and feel great. The withdraw is almost completely gone now. I was back into withdraw in the mornings, but it's almost completely healed. I'm so grateful right now! I feel so good. It's like someone has given me life again. I feel happy, excited, sad, and all the emotions life use to give me. My body is functioning differently also. It's processing food better and healthy. I'm having spontaneous erections and wake up every time with morning wood to go pee! I can't believe how much life methadone sucks out of me. It's like it stole my soul for a long time. I'm going to stay on 14mg of sub for one month and then complete the sub taper. I'm going to make it! It's exciting to have this challenge ahead of me. I'm looking at the future suffering, detox, and withdraw as a gift. It's a gift to build me strong. It's a gift to show how much power God has. It's a gift to be able to share with others it can be done. Through this trial I will be patient, persevere and it's building character and my HOPE is HUGE! Thank you God for bringing me this far.
205 pounds!!!
Wow, I'm motivated and feel great. The withdraw is almost completely gone now. I was back into withdraw in the mornings, but it's almost completely healed. I'm so grateful right now! I feel so good. It's like someone has given me life again. I feel happy, excited, sad, and all the emotions life use to give me. My body is functioning differently also. It's processing food better and healthy. I'm having spontaneous erections and wake up every time with morning wood to go pee! I can't believe how much life methadone sucks out of me. It's like it stole my soul for a long time. I'm going to stay on 14mg of sub for one month and then complete the sub taper. I'm going to make it! It's exciting to have this challenge ahead of me. I'm looking at the future suffering, detox, and withdraw as a gift. It's a gift to build me strong. It's a gift to show how much power God has. It's a gift to be able to share with others it can be done. Through this trial I will be patient, persevere and it's building character and my HOPE is HUGE! Thank you God for bringing me this far.
14mg sub's
205lb
I'm so happy. I'm smelling things again and food tastes so good! My senses have come back in full force. It's scary because you don't realize what's really going on when on methadone. I'm so grateful that I had so many side effects from it. I'm down to 25 a week of T treatment and my T levels are at 600 on the 6th day after my shot. Once I get off of subutex i'm going to do the final drop off the T treatment also and let me body begin functioning as it's suppose to. My testies have grown back bigger again also since lowering my dose of T. I had to have 125 a week when I was on a high dose of methadone and my levels were barely pushing 300 total T. Now I'm on less that 1/4 of that and I'm at 600 total. When I was on that much T my red blood cell count was huge! In fact, I was looking at having to get off T any way because of that. It's been a long journey. I truly believe methadone is a form of population control by the government. I don't believe it was legalized to improve the quality of life of a person. I believe it can be used as a tool for the hardcore IV user like I use to be. But, for a pill head or H smoker I would recommend just getting clean. If that fails 10 times or more then think about sub's maybe. But, I would be VERY cautious of methadone. It can be a trap to many and they stay stuck like chuck forever on it. I thank God I'm off of it now!!!!! With God ALL things are possible.
205lb
I'm so happy. I'm smelling things again and food tastes so good! My senses have come back in full force. It's scary because you don't realize what's really going on when on methadone. I'm so grateful that I had so many side effects from it. I'm down to 25 a week of T treatment and my T levels are at 600 on the 6th day after my shot. Once I get off of subutex i'm going to do the final drop off the T treatment also and let me body begin functioning as it's suppose to. My testies have grown back bigger again also since lowering my dose of T. I had to have 125 a week when I was on a high dose of methadone and my levels were barely pushing 300 total T. Now I'm on less that 1/4 of that and I'm at 600 total. When I was on that much T my red blood cell count was huge! In fact, I was looking at having to get off T any way because of that. It's been a long journey. I truly believe methadone is a form of population control by the government. I don't believe it was legalized to improve the quality of life of a person. I believe it can be used as a tool for the hardcore IV user like I use to be. But, for a pill head or H smoker I would recommend just getting clean. If that fails 10 times or more then think about sub's maybe. But, I would be VERY cautious of methadone. It can be a trap to many and they stay stuck like chuck forever on it. I thank God I'm off of it now!!!!! With God ALL things are possible.
Jason you are right with God all things are possible.
I am on methadone for pain and am tapering off. I was on oxycontin for 5 years. What a nightmare that was! Why do they strongly recommend putting you on these things. Only to force you to go off? I did have much trouble with Oxycontin. Now after 7 years of methadone. I feel it is the best thing to taper off. BTW James is my middle name. I feel my family went to my doctor or someone complained. My doctor all of a sudden changed his attitude for the worse! I didn't do anything wrong that I am aware of? I agreed that yes I have to get off of it amidst health issues that kept me on it. I have aseptic necrosis of the hips from a bout with prednisone. The surgeon will not replace my hips till I am a little older. They cancelled my first surgery due to heart issues they found. With this type of hip problem I haven't had much pain issues, just weather change. So with that said I am down to 30 mg of methadone per day. I had much trouble sleeping last night and for the last few days. My doctor told me to take one less pill per week. Is that slow, fast or ok? The last two weeks I have had to take the pink liquid otherwise I will get dehydrated. If you know what I mean? I am thinking of withdrawal ease? Anyone have luck with this? This is getting long. I am glad to have found a place to get this off my chest. Any advice will be appreciated. Thank-you
Jim drink lots of water and take hot showers to make you sweat because you can sweat out the methadone and it will help get it out of your system. While you are coming down it won't be easy but it can be done I am over 120 days since my last dose. Also eat right everyday because deathly food helps as well.
14mg sub
205 pounds!
Pray and don't fight the withdraw feelings. Watch encouraging movies of people that overcome. Listen to powerful music that instills strength into your spirit. Humans are strong and can endure much more than we know. The most important thing is to pray and know the Lord is with you through the feelings you are going to experience. Look at this withdraw as a blessing. Look at it as something that is going to make you strong. Look at it as something you have to lean on God for and He will draw you close. Know that it will end and the glory will come. Weather the storm because the blessing are always on the other side.
I feel so good it's hard to explain. I'm SO GRATFUL I made this switch to subutex. The first 3 to 4 nights after switching my body was drenching the bed. It was pushing those toxins out of me! On January 7th I get to begin my subutex taper! I love that I have this challenge. I'm going to preserver! I have a wonderful new sponsor in AA, Christian, and have a lot of friends there also. I'm well connected with good men now. Also, I have my church, bible, and exercise. I'm taking care of my mind, body, and spirit! Man I feel good and am filled with gratitude everyday. I mean I have a warm home, good food, gym, friends, son, mother, and health. I'm just so blessed.
205 pounds!
Pray and don't fight the withdraw feelings. Watch encouraging movies of people that overcome. Listen to powerful music that instills strength into your spirit. Humans are strong and can endure much more than we know. The most important thing is to pray and know the Lord is with you through the feelings you are going to experience. Look at this withdraw as a blessing. Look at it as something that is going to make you strong. Look at it as something you have to lean on God for and He will draw you close. Know that it will end and the glory will come. Weather the storm because the blessing are always on the other side.
I feel so good it's hard to explain. I'm SO GRATFUL I made this switch to subutex. The first 3 to 4 nights after switching my body was drenching the bed. It was pushing those toxins out of me! On January 7th I get to begin my subutex taper! I love that I have this challenge. I'm going to preserver! I have a wonderful new sponsor in AA, Christian, and have a lot of friends there also. I'm well connected with good men now. Also, I have my church, bible, and exercise. I'm taking care of my mind, body, and spirit! Man I feel good and am filled with gratitude everyday. I mean I have a warm home, good food, gym, friends, son, mother, and health. I'm just so blessed.
14mg sub's
I'm going to two aa meetings a week. Meeting with sponsor once a week. I'm going to church on Sunday's and going to 2 of my sons basketball games a week. I'm hitting the gym 5 days a week with 40mins cardio and 20mins of lifting. I'm also doing daily readings in my bible and some other books. I'm eating healthy everyday and a few times a week gorging...
Sleep is still not perfect. I'm napping everyday, which I can't seem to stop (3hours). I'm then sleeping about 5 to 6 hours a night. My sleep has been messed up since being on methadone so long. I have been in a multiple sleep cycle in a 24 hour period for a long time now. I've read this is common with methadone patients. I have to continue to surrender to these things that are not in my control. Acceptance for me is so important. When I quit trying to control things I finally relax and have piece...
I'm so grateful I made the switch! It was the best decision ever. Thanks for your posts mojo, they have been encouraging.
I'm going to two aa meetings a week. Meeting with sponsor once a week. I'm going to church on Sunday's and going to 2 of my sons basketball games a week. I'm hitting the gym 5 days a week with 40mins cardio and 20mins of lifting. I'm also doing daily readings in my bible and some other books. I'm eating healthy everyday and a few times a week gorging...
Sleep is still not perfect. I'm napping everyday, which I can't seem to stop (3hours). I'm then sleeping about 5 to 6 hours a night. My sleep has been messed up since being on methadone so long. I have been in a multiple sleep cycle in a 24 hour period for a long time now. I've read this is common with methadone patients. I have to continue to surrender to these things that are not in my control. Acceptance for me is so important. When I quit trying to control things I finally relax and have piece...
I'm so grateful I made the switch! It was the best decision ever. Thanks for your posts mojo, they have been encouraging.
Work The 12 Steps and keep working them. They will save your life.
All the best.
Bob R
All the best.
Bob R
14mg sub
203 pounds!
Yes, working the 12 steps now. I'm just grateful I have a sponsor who believes in the same God as I. I'm excited to have a number of men in my morning group who are Christians. We don't announce it. I feel great and have an amazing future in head of me. I've been on this fight, for real, for 7 years since I got saved in a men's homeless discipleship. That was the best experience ever. It's been change, pain, and learning ever since.
203 pounds!
Yes, working the 12 steps now. I'm just grateful I have a sponsor who believes in the same God as I. I'm excited to have a number of men in my morning group who are Christians. We don't announce it. I feel great and have an amazing future in head of me. I've been on this fight, for real, for 7 years since I got saved in a men's homeless discipleship. That was the best experience ever. It's been change, pain, and learning ever since.
AA's HOW IT WORKS http://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/p-10..._howitworks.pdf
I love The 3 Pertinent Ideas at the end. They have proven to be true repeatedly.
For most of us they are the very last thing we want to see .. to admit.
Bob
I love The 3 Pertinent Ideas at the end. They have proven to be true repeatedly.
For most of us they are the very last thing we want to see .. to admit.
Bob
14mg subutex
Now this clinic has made it so anyone not working fulltime can't dose until 6:45am. That makes it so I will be late to my morning meeting everyday. Also, I was thinking of taking the coffee position and I can't do that now either. These clinics have been nothing but negative for me. Honestly, they way you are treated with zero trust and rules upon rules keeps a man in a certain mind set without even realizing it. I'm grateful I have a good support system and my faith, which has built me up. But, the clinic experience has done it's job keeping me stuck in old ways of thinking about myself. I'm going to be so grateful to be done going their. It's funny because you can pee dirty all day long and it's no big deal. I know as a fact the clinic is just a business to make money. I have used it as a tool, which helped me get stabilized in certain ways. But, I'm so ready to be freed from this heavy ball and chain. The power they exert over people is enormous. The lines you have to wait in the mistrust observed UA's to get a carry I could go on and on. I thank God that I had so many bad side effects from methadone and such a horrible experience with clinics for over 5 years! It's given me even more strength to get through the taper!
Merry Christmas! I love Jesus and He has changed me from the core!
Now this clinic has made it so anyone not working fulltime can't dose until 6:45am. That makes it so I will be late to my morning meeting everyday. Also, I was thinking of taking the coffee position and I can't do that now either. These clinics have been nothing but negative for me. Honestly, they way you are treated with zero trust and rules upon rules keeps a man in a certain mind set without even realizing it. I'm grateful I have a good support system and my faith, which has built me up. But, the clinic experience has done it's job keeping me stuck in old ways of thinking about myself. I'm going to be so grateful to be done going their. It's funny because you can pee dirty all day long and it's no big deal. I know as a fact the clinic is just a business to make money. I have used it as a tool, which helped me get stabilized in certain ways. But, I'm so ready to be freed from this heavy ball and chain. The power they exert over people is enormous. The lines you have to wait in the mistrust observed UA's to get a carry I could go on and on. I thank God that I had so many bad side effects from methadone and such a horrible experience with clinics for over 5 years! It's given me even more strength to get through the taper!
Merry Christmas! I love Jesus and He has changed me from the core!
14mg subutex
203 pounds
I feel so good this morning. Merry Christmas! I had such a great meeting yesterday morning with my sponsor. We are reading through the first 164 pages of the big book together. I have so many friends in the two AA groups I attend. I have friends again and am in the community active. I'm so grateful and I haven't been so happy in a long time. I thank God everyday for so many blessings in my life! I won't list everything, but i'm filled with gratitude.
God Bless Everyone!
203 pounds
I feel so good this morning. Merry Christmas! I had such a great meeting yesterday morning with my sponsor. We are reading through the first 164 pages of the big book together. I have so many friends in the two AA groups I attend. I have friends again and am in the community active. I'm so grateful and I haven't been so happy in a long time. I thank God everyday for so many blessings in my life! I won't list everything, but i'm filled with gratitude.
God Bless Everyone!
