If ya wanna read a short story the likes of like Burroughs or something go over to Families...........I like wrote a short, long story.
In a nutshell I usually post over there about my daughter.......but to tell you guys..........this is when I'm like "A bag of dope"........that phrase.....something, anything...........to stop it.
Oh true confessions is I took some libriums.........I'm not a benzo girl so I'll be really in a bad mood tomorrow............not my librium, but what the hell?
My daughter is almost a year now walked out........trouble, strife, pain.......blahbadeeblah.........so she says she's coming to visit my mom......hasn't seen her in many months........mind you she ain't coming to see me.
Mom had a nice visit with her........was talking about her boyfriend.........showed my mom a photograph........mom says the dude don't look a day under 30, but we so must tread lightly and not pump her she says.......so my mom asked when she was going back to her dorm.
Night before the girl said she spent at her dad's..........my ex's.........well guess what he moved out of there.........so maybe she's staying with his P's.......I doubt it...........the few times I have spoken to her she brazenly lied she was in her dorm...........I ain't proud of this, but drugs gave me the ability to zone in on a lie immediately.
Oh and my mom asked what her dad thought of this new boyfriend........"Oh he don't know him. He never met him"..........my ex husband moved on up and out.........he got a new life...........dropped the kid off at the dorm and off he went.......which is fine, BUT dude you could have least worked with me here where she is and all that.............common da*n courtesy.
Daughter swore "Yes, mom-mom I will call like once a day and check in just so you don't worry"............and my mom asked how she was getting back to her dorm............SUBWAY AT NIGHT..............call me overprotective........call me smothering..............this is PHILLY/SUBWAY/ALONE/YOUNG CHICK/NIGHT!
Plain crazy, and wouldn't a person wonder did she make it to school..........this guys she says no he don't go down with her...........well allllllllllllllll night tonight myself, my mom, my brothers and a few friends try reaching this kid.......phone is OFF..........after hours of this I called around my ex in-laws leave a message..
People don't even bother to call back and say "We don't know"........and it goes on..........checking with the school/dorm.......on and on.
It occurs to me now.............and I have been so good..........so chill..........so working on myself..............but NOW...............this chump is up in his new upper echelon wherever...........that's fine, BUT you don't care where your daughter is.
I call them P's of his.............and say "Our daughter said she was staying there and leaving out to go to her dorm. Ummmmm, you were the last to see her. Any clue if she ver got there"...................BAM...........my ex is calling back..
"Why ya calling my parents?"................I explain.
He goes "She's in her dorm so don't worry about it".............I do not believe he called her................if he did get her how the hell does he know cause it's a cell where she really is..................and the piece de la resistance.........after I got called junkie scum.............."Sometimes she forgets. She forgets to call me. She just forgets".........WHAT..........and he says eventually she calls.
God forbid this kid something happens cause NOBODY knows where she is.......and these guys are zoning in on it...............and after the ex started with the names and anger..........I said "Thank you for your help it's appreciated" and I hung up..............see for me that's good............cause I'd go put a cap in his azzzz and I ain't kidding.............I'm that mad...........and still my daughter never called my mom back...........that's wrong.
Oh and her new myspace picture she's sans a shirt..........seriously.......it's head and shoulders like a headshot..............but clearly no shirt..........and she writes on there she's immensely sad...
Thanks for even reading all this................I don't think it was much to ask for a damn courteous call for my mom............HEROIN my use.............of heroin caused none of that chit............that's a liar and a dad lies for her.......a team.
That's born in ya mannerless drivel.
Even out there...........high or sick.............not even a quarter for a phone booth.......I called my mom collect to say "Just so you know I am alive, mom. I'm sorry"...........and I'd hang up..........am I demanding?
Libriums are whack............didn't do a thing for me..........I worry.
Hey Bryn sorry to hear you're going through all that sh*t..you don't need it! I've not got any pearls of wisdom for you, i wish i had. Bryn you're a good person, Mum, Daughter, everyone knows that. Take care, Kev
Oh Bryn, I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. You and your daughter are in my thoughts and prayers. I have 18 and 19 year old daughters and I can so relate with wondering WTF are they thinking. Hang on in there. Please don't let this be the straw that breaks the camels back. You are a kind hearted person and you always care about everyone else. Let othres lift you up and care for you for a while.
Love and Hugs, Dawn
Love and Hugs, Dawn
Hi Bryn, I do know what it's like to see your kid nekked on the net.....my son with his buddies all pissed up doing a full monty pose, covered their what-its with a hat.....niiiiice makes a mother proud hey !?? I responded to the picture with an "EWWWW" written remark and my friend (who is no longer my friend) made a sexual remark.....bottom line is...he's em"bare-assed" and I'm glad he's feeling guilty about what went down with my friend and of course everyone knows his mommy saw this etc. I think he'll think twice should there be a next time. I'm writing a book, it's called, "The Facebook Book and how to cope in a world with no bloody boundaries/common sense or shame."
Love ya Bryn, you'll get through this....
Love ya Bryn, you'll get through this....
Hi Bryn, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time with your daughter and your ex. You are so kind and caring towards others, I hope you will take good care of yourself and let others support you too. I don't have kids so I don't know what it's like to have that kind of worry. My nephew is going through a big "party stage." I'm hoping it will just be a stage. He drinks heavily, smokes cannabis and snorts ridilin. He looks so hung over most of the time. My sister and I are hoping that he doesn't lose his job. He hits her up for money on a regular basis. She has paid for him to have some drug counselling but otherwise says the money outflow has to stop. (He's 22 and making more than me or my husband) I feel very helpless. I know you can't help but worry. Hang in there.
Please, I can not thank you all enough for your responses. These past few days have been the wrose for me and that's even worse than last year when my daughter left home. I was beside myself the last few days and you guys really have helped.
Rachel, I'm sorry about your nephew. That has to worrying everyone sick as you said. I can't even give advice. I can't even parent correctly so I don't know what to say except I hope he wakes up. Meanwhile thank you so much Rachel.
WW, you're my girl. Thanks honey. I don't know what to think about these kids. The photo of my daughter isn't showing anything, but shoulders. Just missing the boobs by a fe inches, but there ain't no shirt that's for sure. No bra. Nada. I'd like to say she's like a "Girls Gone Wild", but the concern is even before she moved out she'd say things like "I need to have sex. I need to get laid". This was a 17 year old. She did have condoms on her and that's great she is educated (by me) on safe sex and relationships. BUT she hadn't a boyfriend at the time. I asked about the condoms and she said "So when someone wants to screw me I have them. I don't need to know them".
As always Kev just you caring means the world to me. I thank you.
Dawn, your reply made me cry. I can't thank you enough. Especially after I gave ya the old dressing down regarding another post. You are a class lady, Dawn. I am proud of your recovery and please, please know that reply truly helped me alot. Thanks again.
Rachel, I'm sorry about your nephew. That has to worrying everyone sick as you said. I can't even give advice. I can't even parent correctly so I don't know what to say except I hope he wakes up. Meanwhile thank you so much Rachel.
WW, you're my girl. Thanks honey. I don't know what to think about these kids. The photo of my daughter isn't showing anything, but shoulders. Just missing the boobs by a fe inches, but there ain't no shirt that's for sure. No bra. Nada. I'd like to say she's like a "Girls Gone Wild", but the concern is even before she moved out she'd say things like "I need to have sex. I need to get laid". This was a 17 year old. She did have condoms on her and that's great she is educated (by me) on safe sex and relationships. BUT she hadn't a boyfriend at the time. I asked about the condoms and she said "So when someone wants to screw me I have them. I don't need to know them".
As always Kev just you caring means the world to me. I thank you.
Dawn, your reply made me cry. I can't thank you enough. Especially after I gave ya the old dressing down regarding another post. You are a class lady, Dawn. I am proud of your recovery and please, please know that reply truly helped me alot. Thanks again.
Bryn, keep on venting honey! It sucks that things are like they are, but we take what we get.
I have a 12 y/o suspended for 3 days for fighting. According to him the kid hit him in the nuts, so he hit him back and the kid went ballistic. We are starting counseling this afternoon, don't know what else to do. The way things are going my son is going to be a major handful. Gotta try to nip it in the bud. The kid needs to learn responsibility, cause hell, everything is always somebody else's fault. Meeting tomorrow at the school board with Child Welfare. Oh, joy!
I'm just floored. This kid was so sweet and sensitive. Nothing works with him, hopefully he will be able to vent out his problems and learn to work them out. He's been off since my MIL died in July. He took both hers and his pappaw's deaths really hard. Yup, something to do with it. Something to do with abandonment for his mom going out and partying every weekend when he was 4-6. We all have blame here.
Just know you aren't alone. All of us parents go through some load of crap or another.
My crutch, yup, I bought ciggies this morning....damn.
I have a 12 y/o suspended for 3 days for fighting. According to him the kid hit him in the nuts, so he hit him back and the kid went ballistic. We are starting counseling this afternoon, don't know what else to do. The way things are going my son is going to be a major handful. Gotta try to nip it in the bud. The kid needs to learn responsibility, cause hell, everything is always somebody else's fault. Meeting tomorrow at the school board with Child Welfare. Oh, joy!
I'm just floored. This kid was so sweet and sensitive. Nothing works with him, hopefully he will be able to vent out his problems and learn to work them out. He's been off since my MIL died in July. He took both hers and his pappaw's deaths really hard. Yup, something to do with it. Something to do with abandonment for his mom going out and partying every weekend when he was 4-6. We all have blame here.
Just know you aren't alone. All of us parents go through some load of crap or another.
My crutch, yup, I bought ciggies this morning....damn.
"SMOKE EM IF YA GOT EM"
Thanks Janet.............sorry about the fighting/suspension.
I'mmma have a ciggie myself.
Know I appreciate the heck out of ya Miss Louisianna.....when we need a new lung I wonder if them tops of the ciggies people save for points........instead of free camping gear they'll give us a lung? Hang in there babes.
Thanks Janet.............sorry about the fighting/suspension.
I'mmma have a ciggie myself.
Know I appreciate the heck out of ya Miss Louisianna.....when we need a new lung I wonder if them tops of the ciggies people save for points........instead of free camping gear they'll give us a lung? Hang in there babes.
Ya know sometimes kids say stuff cos it makes em look tough...but I'll bet she's not behaving the way she says she is...and a lot of it is designed to shock and worry you. As a teacher of teenagers, I know that a lot of them talk the talk but don't walk the walk.
Try not to worry too much, I know that's easy to say and really hard to do. Am thinking of you.
Much love, Maddy x x x
Try not to worry too much, I know that's easy to say and really hard to do. Am thinking of you.
Much love, Maddy x x x
Bryn,
Anytime you want to talk, beech about daughters or anything, email and I will be more than happy to call. I have a great unlimited phone plan so it won't be any problem here.
I admire you. I am so glad to hear you are getting through this. That alone gives me hope that we can make it through anything.
Love and Hugs, Dawn
ant5tns@msn.com
Anytime you want to talk, beech about daughters or anything, email and I will be more than happy to call. I have a great unlimited phone plan so it won't be any problem here.
I admire you. I am so glad to hear you are getting through this. That alone gives me hope that we can make it through anything.
Love and Hugs, Dawn
ant5tns@msn.com
Thanks for the ear Bryn. Girl, ya know I quit smoking last October. HA! That is except for the occasional cig EVERY time my step daughter is here and the five day relapse when my MIL died, the 4 day relapse the last time he got in trouble, the 3 day relapse about 3 weeks ago and now this ONE! Garsh! I had to start the Chantix the last time for a week, does wonders for my Gastrointestinal system...can you say P.U.? LMAO
Hope that this will only be this one pack ciggie relapse...
oh and BTW, at least I'm getting my car cleaned out! Little guy is not going to just sit around, he's gonna work!
Hope that this will only be this one pack ciggie relapse...
oh and BTW, at least I'm getting my car cleaned out! Little guy is not going to just sit around, he's gonna work!
