hey guys,
well i finally got on how are things in n.j. i really appreciate ya'll alot. i don't know what else to talk about except for the fact everything is still the same here. raining and warm for this time of year. i am getting ready to go home and see my babies. that is the only thing i have going for me right now. i wish sometimes i was someone else or somewhere else or something. i knoow it don't sound to good, i guess i am just on a pity party today. can't help thinking of when i wasn't on anything and how good i felt then. i don't know why i went to using meds. just stupid i guess. when i quit everything in 1990 i didn't go through w/d's or anything and i had been using drugs since i was 13. just goes to show you when God does it for you it will be o.k. but if you go back then you kinda have to do it on your own. he's there with you but you have to go through it by yourself, if that makes any since. the bible talk about cleaning the house and if it get dirty again then it is 7 times as bad, well i believe that right now. I ALTHOUGH AM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP, I WILL BEAT THIS DEVIL!!!!!!!!!
well enough of my whining so i'll post later
with lots of love
johnny
Hey Johnny,
I posted to you in Teresa's thread.......Wanted to know if I can come to the pity party too. I do know in some ways how you feel. Would be nice to just run away from it all.....Thing is thats what got most of you in the situation you are in now. And for the life of me thats the only way I know how to run away.....but to me it to easy. It is much better to stay and fight...never worth letting the demons win...no matter how big and bad they are. You need to know you are stronger and smarter. Look around you, you may not have all you want.....but I am sure if look closely you have all you need. The good days come right along with the bad.........sucks but it is reality and that thing we all call LIFE. How you live it, what you take from it each day, makes you the special person you are......
Love Yah,
Tina
I posted to you in Teresa's thread.......Wanted to know if I can come to the pity party too. I do know in some ways how you feel. Would be nice to just run away from it all.....Thing is thats what got most of you in the situation you are in now. And for the life of me thats the only way I know how to run away.....but to me it to easy. It is much better to stay and fight...never worth letting the demons win...no matter how big and bad they are. You need to know you are stronger and smarter. Look around you, you may not have all you want.....but I am sure if look closely you have all you need. The good days come right along with the bad.........sucks but it is reality and that thing we all call LIFE. How you live it, what you take from it each day, makes you the special person you are......
Love Yah,
Tina
whats up my man read the stuff you wrote i know i am far away but i am your friend man anytime you need to talk just call or post or e-mail hell i will give you the cell no to and you can get me there during the day just tell the wife and i will know i will help you as much as i can cause thats what friends are for not real good with the writing how i feel out i leave to the wife worried about you hope tomorrow is a better day you take care i will call this weekend
Johnny, if you every want to email me, it's Bullwinkle343@aol.com
BUMP.......Where are you hiding Johnny?
hey tina,
i'm here. i'm just lurking in and out every now and then. i am better today i guess i just had a day when everything was feeling kinda down. must be the rain and gloomy clouds. every time it is going to rain my feet and back really starts hurting. the other night i told elaine it will be raining by 24 hrs and sure enough it was. i ought to be a weatherman the way i can predict the rain. ha ha
well tell ba i am o.k. and there is no need to worry about me. just one of those days ya know. well how is the family? i pray everyone is doing good. i read your baby wasn't feeling good, i hope and pray she gets alot better fast. well i better go back to work(bumpity bump)
with lots of love
johnny
i'm here. i'm just lurking in and out every now and then. i am better today i guess i just had a day when everything was feeling kinda down. must be the rain and gloomy clouds. every time it is going to rain my feet and back really starts hurting. the other night i told elaine it will be raining by 24 hrs and sure enough it was. i ought to be a weatherman the way i can predict the rain. ha ha
well tell ba i am o.k. and there is no need to worry about me. just one of those days ya know. well how is the family? i pray everyone is doing good. i read your baby wasn't feeling good, i hope and pray she gets alot better fast. well i better go back to work(bumpity bump)
with lots of love
johnny
bumpity bump
Hey you are still out there......I have been busy. I am so glad that you are feeling better. I hate when I am in a mood like that. Just wastes all that good energy we could have on feeling sorry for ourselves.........lol
The baby seems ok but I haven't let her out of my sight, she has been glued to me. She isn't sick.......like flu. But something is bothering her, wish I knew what, probably something she ate. Her skin is real itchy and she has some hives, you can see she is uncomfortable............welcome to allergy hell.
You have a great weekend........I am sure we will talk.
Take care,
Tina
The baby seems ok but I haven't let her out of my sight, she has been glued to me. She isn't sick.......like flu. But something is bothering her, wish I knew what, probably something she ate. Her skin is real itchy and she has some hives, you can see she is uncomfortable............welcome to allergy hell.
You have a great weekend........I am sure we will talk.
Take care,
Tina
