Monday

Well here I am once again . Some of you amy remember me and some of you wont but I am back and I am shooting for starting clean Monday . Tomarrow . Wow it seems so close when I say tomarrow . For those of you who dont know me I am a 23year old Oxy Cottin freak. 10 or 12 and sometimes more 80s a day . I have tryed to get clean many times and the longest I made it was 30 days. On the 30th day I felt I could handle and "little buzz" for old times sake. After I sniffed my first one I was once more out of control. Last Monday I told myself come next Monday I will be done . So here we are almost at the dawning day and I am hopeing I am ready . I want to be ready . I am scared because w/d is so hard for me to go though because I have no one to help me at all . I can not ask my husband he is a jerk that "knows everything" . I have a 4 year old daughter and a big house to take care of . Also I own a shipping company so it is not like I can take a week and stay in bed . I have to go on as if nothing is wrong . I hope I can. Anyway I have to go befor I am caught on here . But I will come back in the a.m. and I hope to have heard from some of you . This board helped me last time.
Mandy
goodluck mandy. iam also addicted to oxys, but have giving them to my huby to give to me 2aday, its been realy hard, but the withdruls are harder, but my day is coming soon, to go of them for good, but one day at a time, can you go to some mettings, that would help, we need people to get throu this its to hard to do it on our oun, i wish you goodluck, keep posting there are some realy good people,here. take caer karen.
Mandy, Good luck to you. My DOC was oxycotin also. Detoxing can be hell!
Can you possibly taper or go to an outpatient suboxone program? Sub has saved my life and made this whole processs much more bearable. I am worried about you being able to function while w/ding from this. It can be done though. You are not alone. One problem I always had was when I was trying to quit, and failed. As soon as I took that first pill I would think "well that's it, I failed so I may as well take my max dose and try tomorrow." I am not encouraging you to take anything, but remember, if you do it does not have to be 10-12 pills. I also suggest that you cut off all sources for you to obtain these evil pills. That is one bridge we all need to burn and never rebuild. Please consider counseling and/or NA. It will help you to have some support, especially since you are not getting it at home. I got very little support from my husband and I have been clean 6 weeks and 5 days. You can do this. The empowerment you will feel from taking your life back will make this process worth it. Your suffering will make your victory over these pills that much sweeter. You will be in my thoughts today. Your friend, Atlas
Mandy I do remember you & I will agree with atlas I would really look into the Suboxone.I mean it has also changed my whole life too.No its not a wonder drug but it will give you that extra support until you can stand on your own.Please keep us updated.....mj
Hello Miss Mandy... yes, i remember you. Please keep coming back... let us know how you are... i agree with MJ... talk with your doctor. Love and God Bless,Bri :)
Thank you guys so much for replying to me . It dose make a person feel better to know they are not 100% alone . It is day one and so far so good. But I know after being on those things so long and being slow release I still have it in my system . So I know what is coming and to be honest I am so afraid . I do not want to go though this again . I hope I have it in me .
Love Mandy
Oh I almost forgot, could nerontin be used to help with the w/ds at all. I am sure I misspelled that . I need spell check ! lol I know not to trade one prob for another but they are non narcotic right ? I thought I read that somewhere . If I am wrong please let me know ok. I have about 6 of them and if they help I will take them . I just thought that they are for nerve pain right . And w/ds are all about haveing nerve pain . For me anyway . My back, legs, my whole body . Can you guys please let me know ? I did look it up because I read here you all dont want to give advice about drugs anymore but I could find nothing to help me. Thank you all.
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HI MANDY
Im glad youre back-- i will be looking forward to reading your progress!!
good luck!!!
Mandy,

From what i know about neurontin, it wont help with w/ds....but best to check with your dr....

You are not alone, and in fact you are now armed with evenmore knowledge of how to prevent a relapse....you can do this girl...if you really want it...you can have it!!!!!

Hugs

Ali
Thank you Ali. Yes I do want this . I need it ! But it seems so out of reach for me.
It is 10:30 here in upper Michigan so I have been clean for 26 hours give or take and I still feel hopeful if only a bit . I just fear tomarrow and the next days to come . I know it will hurt .
Thank you all though , I hope everyone sleeps well .
Mandy
You will be in my thoughts Mandy........
Hey Mandy,
Congrats on 26 hours! YAY! If I may throw in my 2 cents...try to be right here, right now. Try not to think about tomorrow and the next day. Take it a minute at a time if you have to. You did 26 hours and that is wonderful!
You can do this!
Hugs,
Omega
Thank you both . 26 hours seems so nothing to me though . But I will give it a go .
Mandy
mandy..pleased to read you..i,m just coming in to 2and a half days clean..but it feels like a lifetime...hang in there girl..its 3.50am where i am in london .so i know how your feeling..stay strong..robbie.uk.
Hi fatherofone
I am feeling ok . Thank you for asking . How about you ?
not feeling to good but no pain no gain..i know W/Ding is the worst feeling.ever..but with as much willpower we,ve got in our aching bodies we can get thru it....if your feeling rough at any time just put down how your feeling on here and i will stay with you for as long as you need..robbie.uk.
Hi Mandy, and good luck to you!
I did take nuerontin through wd and still do on occasion. I think it was somewhat helpful to me. Is it already prescribed for you?
Perhaps it was just the motion of taking a pill that comforted me. Who knows? lol.
I do find them effective for burning pain.
Anyway, just wanted to wish you luck.
Love, Kat
thank you that is so sweet . I am sure it wont be long and everyone will be sick of my whining ! lol Really though so far I am ok. London . Wow you are so lucky !! Is it really all it is said to be ?
Mandy, I am glad to hear you are feeling OK. Keep up the fight! There will be some rough spots along the way, but you CAN do this. I am living proof. Do you know about suboxone and have you checked to see if they have it in your area? I can provide you with any information you may need. It is an excellent tool for getting off of oxys. Have you thought about what else you plan to do to stay clean? Atlas
Miss Mandy,

If the Neurontin was prescribed for you and you have taken it in the past without any adverse side effects, it can help with your withdrawal's. I don't know what your symptons are, but many people experience restless legs after withdrawing from opiates. I found that taking Neurontin when I experienced this really helped me. Also depending on the dose prescribed to you, it may help you get to sleep easier.

Please keep in mind that I am only saying that it helped me, and I only took the dosage as prescribed by my physician. Please do not take them if they were not prescribed for you and only take the recommended dosage the MD ordered. It may or may not help you. Often what works for one person will not work for another.

Sharon