I am really grateful to have been led to this site by endless searches. My Son's addiction is 10 years old now, it began in Phoenix AZ, a state with one of the highest traffic of meth and meth addicts.
He has (WE have) been through the courts over time, as an addict does, he would relapse on every chance given by the court(probation/CS, until he eventually spent time in juvie/county jail/state prison. Once out of prison 2009/2010, he cleaned up well for a while, worked with his dad in dad's business. He and His girlfriend brought a daughter into the world in 2008. No kind of life for my beautiful grandaughter who now is living with her grandpop & wife in AZ. Like other mom's, I say the same, my son is one (even active in addiction), who has a big heart, the first to help another, and respectful. Over the past 2 3 years, the signs of addiction have shown their ugly signs such as, the skin issues, meth mouth, horribly skinny, very short tempered and at times violent. He's already lived through heroin and shooting up and is down to snorting meth drinking, of course, pot. We all have done all we can to guide him to a healthy life but the addiction still runs him. Back in 03, he was on the streets for the 1st time and I lost track of him for 8 months. I would get a hint of a sighting of him from some of his friends in AZ. Last week, he is on the street again. He's now been through countless jobs, 2 vehicles, lost visitation rights, his girl moved out July, he was evicted Aug. 23rd. Back onto the street. Got the familiar call last sat. night. He was a mess-you guys know the deal-criying, desperation, confusion, asking to come to my home here, and speaking strongly of "serving the Lord full time" (He is familiar with the Bible and tries his best to live the word). This is the 1st time I had to tell him NO, I just can not take you in son, I'm barely making it on my own. My heart is breaking. I already have education in addiction, but now, I am craving to meet other single parents dealing with their adult S/D who is in the same situation. I am the only person in his life who is speaking to him and I am there for him only to try and guide him to rehab. I know it has to be he that walks in the door on his own but I will not shut him out completely.
My biggest fear other than how sick he is, is that he will die on the streets hating himself, hating life, and all alone. This is where I struggle. It's really hard when there is no partner to bounce things off of. I am in counseling and my next appt will be about handling myself and my emotions while still being able to be in touch with him. We were able to text all last weekend, then, I spoke to him Monday eve from a girl that let him use her phone. Since then, I haven't been able to reach him at all. I called back to the girl, and she said his phone had broke(maybe sold?). Now-there is zero communication, he has burned all of his bridges, and I have no way of keeping up with him. I am trying to accept this and trust in God's Will and Plan, and I am human so I get fearful at times that I will never hear from him again and never know what happened to him. I am so sorry for writing such a long post. For now, writing is my outlet.
I am open to any shares here, either with the parent or the addict. I thank you so much.
Hi and welcome
It is good that you want to get it off your chest. It will be hard. You have done the right thing. I'm a recovering heroin addict and been clean now from pain pills for a few days.
It is so cruel what we do too those that loves us. You can't carry him while you are carrying yourself. Hopefully he will sort himself out or at least try and get clean especially for his child's sake. Just keep strong and keep on posting on here. It is at least away to deal with the things you don't have anyone else to share it with.
I will keep him and you in my prayers
x
It is good that you want to get it off your chest. It will be hard. You have done the right thing. I'm a recovering heroin addict and been clean now from pain pills for a few days.
It is so cruel what we do too those that loves us. You can't carry him while you are carrying yourself. Hopefully he will sort himself out or at least try and get clean especially for his child's sake. Just keep strong and keep on posting on here. It is at least away to deal with the things you don't have anyone else to share it with.
I will keep him and you in my prayers
x
Hello. My 32 year old son is an alcoholic and a drug addict. Although he has used every drug in the book, he is now a meth addict. He has spent the past 16 years in and out of jail and psychiatric hospitals. He is also bipolar and schizophrenic, which makes everything that much more complicated because of the medication issues.
His problems have literally consumed my husband and me for the past 16 years. We were finally, miraculously, able to find housing for him this spring but he has been evicted from three different places in the past 4 months. He has been on the streets numerous times, which has usually resulted in either jail or another hospitalization.
We are so tired and so sad. All of the money that we have spent trying to help him? I can't even think about it or I get too depressed. Sometimes I get so sad that I go into a depression of my own, and end up feeling like my life is just slipping away. It's a challenge to get out of bed some days. However, seeing this site on my computer tonight made me feel just a little less alone. Thank you for giving me a little place to say it. And tomorrow is another day. God Bless you all,
Connie
His problems have literally consumed my husband and me for the past 16 years. We were finally, miraculously, able to find housing for him this spring but he has been evicted from three different places in the past 4 months. He has been on the streets numerous times, which has usually resulted in either jail or another hospitalization.
We are so tired and so sad. All of the money that we have spent trying to help him? I can't even think about it or I get too depressed. Sometimes I get so sad that I go into a depression of my own, and end up feeling like my life is just slipping away. It's a challenge to get out of bed some days. However, seeing this site on my computer tonight made me feel just a little less alone. Thank you for giving me a little place to say it. And tomorrow is another day. God Bless you all,
Connie
