My daughter was bi-polar and a drug addict. Her mania began at 13. We were confused at first, thinking it was typical as a teenager. After awhile we sought out help through counseling and psychiatrist which began a long journey of medications try to find the proper dosage for her condition.
At 15-16, she was introduced to drugs other than what she was prescribed. When she turned 18, we began to fight the long battle which prevented us to be in full disclosure - which meant Hippa and a continual pull and tug in being in the know about what exactly was happening to her.
I know this is a drug addiction platform but it seems such a complicated mess with mental illness and drug addiction combined. Sometimes it's hard to know which condition is predominate. We really thought it was more of a mental illness but we were wrong. Two months ago she died of a heroin overdose. It was a tremendous shock to get the medical examiners report. Perfectly healthy young 28 year old.
It was a long painful journey. I wished I had asked more questions, took more time, showed more love, told her I loved her more, prayed harder and longer. It is complete despair and sadness because once they are gone, there is nothing you can do about it. It is a devastating reality.
This I know. Life is precious. In my daughter's case, she tried to quelch the voices in her mind with an addiction that changed her brain chemistry dramatically and killed her. Life will never be the same without her.
This my first time to share on a blog such as this and I hope what I've written here makes some sort of sense.
I am so very sorry for your loss. Much love and healing to you
I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. I think mental illness and addiction go hand in hand a lot of the time. Our son has dealt with both for 15 years. God bless you and your family.
Hi, I am so sorry to read your letter. It's hard enough losing a parent but losing your daughter, I just can only imagine the pain and loss you must feel. Don't torture yourself thinking you could have done more to help her. Some things are beyond a mothers help and drug addiction with a mental illness must be among them. You did your best and your daughter isn't suffering anymore because she is at peace now. I believe she will be looking down on you saying "I'm alright now mom". Try and find a meeting that is for parents who have lost children. I'm sure there must be one in your town. You will find people there to talk to and have a lot in common with. God Bless. Take care. M.
Hi Dear woman. I am so sorry to read about the loss of your daughter. My condolences to you and your family. hugsssssssss
