zg........i dunno.i just dont think helping t the meth clinic is such a good idea.....at least here i know.all kinds of deals go down.........there will be so much temptation there and its like i dont know putting yourself in the line of fire......I know what you mean about remembering.........thats important. but there has to be a better way...........just think back b4 the baby was born, how you didnt have your kids wiht ya, remember how s***ty ya felt all the time and how even on the worst days things are better now.there is hope..you have come so far.............i know i dont even feel the desire ever to use.........recall nothing good aobut it and still i dont think i could put myself in a position where I am around ppl getting high and at the clinincs so many r still getting high.......please think about this
Alright..all..Zg..I agree with MsT...maybe yer suggestion bout working at the meth.clinic was a throwaway one...but if yer serious..and only wanna do to remind you of how bad things were..i dont think ya need this..as Tres said yer really putting yerself at the hard edge.As ya said before Zg.you have family members still on it..is this not enough of a reminder?let us know coz i personally think yer one of the most solid straight posters on here...dont think im judging ya..im not ..just my take.All the best........Davey
TY Davy and Tres: it's always good to have people point out to ya that you may not be thinking to level headed lol. Fo sure every time i see my brother i know i don't REALLY wanna go back. His eyes and cheeks are all sunk in no clothes fit him. Those 2 years without the kids being under my roof were so draining and emotional. As for a reminder to not use just got look at my arms you'ld think that was enough huh. Rob thinks it's a bad ideal for me to go back to school to be a nurse "i would agree" except i think i would like that job! i want to be over being a addict hahaha i don't want that to stop me from doing something that could bring about better jobs and such. Kinda makes me angry that this bumb thing "addiction" is stoping me from doing things i would like to do. I just wanna move on i can't think of many jobs that appeal to me. I also see how being around the temptation would be A terrible thing one moments weakness could cause a whole bunch of bad crap to happen.
Hey ZG, how's your mom doing?
You'd be an excellent nurse.......know what too.......I don't think you'd mess up.
I think you'd be so determined........so tough.........you'd be the opposite.
Truly ZG you'd be a really good RN.........plus you've done it and been there...it's usually some poor RN been working for ten years........figures one day what the hey........and tries it.
I think you should honestly look into courses....ya know at least the prerequisite ones like all the English and math stuff........you'll have it under your belt.
You'd be an excellent nurse.......know what too.......I don't think you'd mess up.
I think you'd be so determined........so tough.........you'd be the opposite.
Truly ZG you'd be a really good RN.........plus you've done it and been there...it's usually some poor RN been working for ten years........figures one day what the hey........and tries it.
I think you should honestly look into courses....ya know at least the prerequisite ones like all the English and math stuff........you'll have it under your belt.
hiya Bryn my mum was released from the hospital then 2 days later put right back in she's still there now. The reconsturction took but, her bowels got some kind of infection she was put on i.v antibotics. Currently i'm just annoyed with Rob i swaer he get's PMS that man's getting on my nerves. I am thinking of looking into going back to school honestly with enough $$ to be independent I think i'ld stay out of relationships i'm so much happier ALONE!!!!!!!!!. Anyhow that's nuff bout me.
Wow, reading this post made me see so many positive attitudes going on. I mean when I read from the top, I felt right about what Tres lady was sayin. But by the time I got to the end and read Bryn's thoughts, I totally saw her view too. I think that ZG should go with her heart. I just think anyone who is strong enough to kick dope.....and I mean REALLY STOP and pick up the pieces of their lives and be clean for years... It's NOT easy or very often done! Man, if you can do that you can do anything as far as I'm concerned! Sky's the limit. I wish my BF could say he's three years or even three month's clean. DOPE SUCKS and if working in a clinic to help these poor pathetic people who have given up their souls to this demonic drug is gonna turn you on or make you want it?! That's just plain nuts! If anything it should do the opposite and remind you of how far you have come.
love ya girls,
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love ya girls,
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