Well tonight is my last night on the current pills im on....i drop 1mg of xanax tomorrow!!! yeh ok im a little nervous! i wont lie! but im still doing it!! take care xx
p.s oh ive also put myself on a very strict diet which im asking my friend about in england....he used to be a male model so he knows all about nutrition and stuff, for the last couple of days ive only been eating apples and 1 banana during the day and cups of tea without sugar, to try and loose weight, i just want to get back to what i was......dont know if this is the best way to do it cuz i feel very sluggish so im waiting to hear from him!!! hell im changing alot about myself! :)) im just trying to better myself!! well its past midnight now so i guess i start today!!! i think i should go to bed and i will psyc myself up in the morning!! take care luv all xxxxxxx
Ok guys and gals well i start my journey today, ive come down 1mg xanax as of friday 18th march /05!!!!!
Dear Elvis,
Sounds like a great plan and a great report from your doctor! You can do this! You will be in my prayers. God bless!
Love,
Susan
Sounds like a great plan and a great report from your doctor! You can do this! You will be in my prayers. God bless!
Love,
Susan
Elvis i know you can do this hun im rooting for you ((hugs)) jackie xx
Thanks so much susan and jacky!!! Well i feel quite ok actually coming off the 1mg xanax. What i do fiil really crappy about is my dad took a swing at me last night and i thought he missed wasnt till a few mins later in my room i felt some pain, i touch my face and there was blood!!!! i looked and there was a cut on my cheek!!!!! im thinking how the hell did he cut me?!??!? i really hate him so much!!! Well i feel quite ok actually coming off the 1mg xanax. What i do feel quite low about today is the cut on my cheek, like its not bleeding anymore but my face is cut! Ive already got an order on him before u suggest it and he ignores it! anyway....
But im doing the tapering ok so thats a posititive!!!!! :)
But im doing the tapering ok so thats a posititive!!!!! :)
Hey Elvis,
I was saddened to read that your dad hit you. Is there anyway you can get out of that enviorment. The stress alone and the wondering can't and won't be good for your recovery.....or for you for that matter.......I will be keeping good thoughts for you, stay safe ok.....
Now onto the positive, you took the jump, well the reduction. I am so happy that you are working toward freeing yourself from benzo's..........You keep it up, and remember that know matter what happens you must take back your life......
Love,
Tina
I was saddened to read that your dad hit you. Is there anyway you can get out of that enviorment. The stress alone and the wondering can't and won't be good for your recovery.....or for you for that matter.......I will be keeping good thoughts for you, stay safe ok.....
Now onto the positive, you took the jump, well the reduction. I am so happy that you are working toward freeing yourself from benzo's..........You keep it up, and remember that know matter what happens you must take back your life......
Love,
Tina
Thankyou so much tina, my father walked into my nans last night, they didnt really want to let him in, he gave me a half hearted apology, i didnt answer him i just walked away and he left. I have no respect for him anymore and will prob never speak to him again, hes done it too much now.....thankgod for my grandparents. oh i also got some stuff from the chemist to clean the wound (dettol) and some steri-stips to cover it so it doesnt get infected, all i can really do for it for now....im staying at my granparents for a few days, and am working on moving, i am saving, but till then i just spend as much time down there as possible! thanx for caring! xx im just coming up home each day to get clothes etc.
But yes on the positive i seem to psychologically handling the xanax decrease ok just for the past two days now ive woken up with a huge headache! the first day i thought it was just the stress but now im beginning to wonder, but ill get through it cuz there is no going back now!!! and my nan seems so happy....with me!!! :)) i feel like i can hold my head up for the first time in ages in front of them!!! i dont care what the others think (mum, sis, father) just as long as nan and pa are happy i know im doing the right thing! i can always take a panadol for headaches, hopefully that wont last long!
Thankyou soooo much for your support!!! xxxxxxxxxxxx
But yes on the positive i seem to psychologically handling the xanax decrease ok just for the past two days now ive woken up with a huge headache! the first day i thought it was just the stress but now im beginning to wonder, but ill get through it cuz there is no going back now!!! and my nan seems so happy....with me!!! :)) i feel like i can hold my head up for the first time in ages in front of them!!! i dont care what the others think (mum, sis, father) just as long as nan and pa are happy i know im doing the right thing! i can always take a panadol for headaches, hopefully that wont last long!
Thankyou soooo much for your support!!! xxxxxxxxxxxx
Elvis whats up, Got you,re e-mail. I am glad that you have a safe and poistive environment to replace the dysfuntional situation you were in. Thats great about you're cut on Zanax but I am concerened that is one huge big cut at once but if you feel stabilized then I guess (hope!) that will be ok. My Moms' sister passed away yesterday morning. I am glad that I took the time two drive her to see her a few weeks ago to allow her one last goodbye. I told her that I cound not drive her again because of my back situation so we are looking at other alternatives. Got your post on my post I appreciate it alot. I don't go to this forum as much as I used to
for reasons I am sure you are aware of. Just don't need #$%&! if you catch my drift.
Wishing you the best
Blessings
Coolbeans
for reasons I am sure you are aware of. Just don't need #$%&! if you catch my drift.
Wishing you the best
Blessings
Coolbeans
Oh cool im so sorry to hear about ur mums sister!! i will send prayers ur way!!
yeh im coming down 1mg a month.....its not too bad i guess cuz its not like its every two weeks it is only once a month but dont worry i will tell him if i dont start feeling good! and yes i do understand why u dont want to pop in here as much.....to be honest and i dont care who reads this, all my friends will understand and anyone else i dont care what they think so.....whenever i log into this page i check the other board first the prescription page one and then i must admit when i click onto the pain pills i think, i wonder if ive got any crap from anyone today? and with a sigh i go in and just check.....ya know!? most people are great its just a few, one in particular lol! oh well, im sorry to hear about the pain in ur back too, i hope that gets better over time, my face is still sore....see my g.p wed. well take care my friend and thanks again for dropping into my thread!!!! sending my prayers to ur mum and u and ur family. take care, talk soon xoxooxoxo
yeh im coming down 1mg a month.....its not too bad i guess cuz its not like its every two weeks it is only once a month but dont worry i will tell him if i dont start feeling good! and yes i do understand why u dont want to pop in here as much.....to be honest and i dont care who reads this, all my friends will understand and anyone else i dont care what they think so.....whenever i log into this page i check the other board first the prescription page one and then i must admit when i click onto the pain pills i think, i wonder if ive got any crap from anyone today? and with a sigh i go in and just check.....ya know!? most people are great its just a few, one in particular lol! oh well, im sorry to hear about the pain in ur back too, i hope that gets better over time, my face is still sore....see my g.p wed. well take care my friend and thanks again for dropping into my thread!!!! sending my prayers to ur mum and u and ur family. take care, talk soon xoxooxoxo
feeling depressed today, but ah in todays world im sure that is a small problem compared to what is going on, so i just keep going on! x
Elvis, Stay strong, determined and be kind to yourself, you deserve it. Don't let the family problems sink you into depression. I know this is easier said than done. But I know you have a resolve and you can work through this. Seek professional help please if it gets bad. I don't want it to hamper you're recovery. Besides there are people on this forum that are in need and can learn from you!
Blessings
Coolbeans
Blessings
Coolbeans
Oh thankyou so much coolbeans, all ur worries at the moment and u think of me!! ur a wonderful person! dont worry i am trying real hard to not let it get me down, i saw my doctor today, and apparently the cream i got from the chemist on the weekend for my face i was allergic to and it made it worse, my luck huh! so he put some antibiotic cream on and it feels better already and he said it should be looking better by the weekend if i apply it once a day! i will take care and u take care u, bless u for thinking of me! xoxoxoxoxooxo
My father walked out tonight saying we will never see him again and as much as i have detested him for what he has been doing, i cant believe i still care!!!! xoxo
Huny of course you care.No matter how many mean nasty sad things my mom & dad did to me(& theres alot)a part of me was ALWAYS this little girl who just wanted a mom & a dad.Dont get mad at yourself.Is he for real sweets?If so that is good in away.No more slaps.What can I do to help E???
oh mj ur so good to me just by letting me know ur there is a great thing!!! thankyou so much! i luv u heaps! i just hope he has gone to a friends and has a bed to sleep in......everyone home thinks im mad for even caring after he cut my face, i even walked up to the park just before and was yelling out dad dad, in case he went there to sleep but he wasnt there....i dont even know why i care.....but i do.....xoxoxo ill check in tomorrow thanks ur a great friend nite xoxo
feeling sullen today, but im still determined with my taper! just thought id update! xoxo
just picked up my dad......we'll see how it goes... xoxo
E Good luck sweety you know where Im at if yoyu need ok How is he?Is he at least being nice to you?????????????????????
Elvis, Hi, I am new to posting, have read lots, plenty of you here & in "other drugs". May I say I enjoyed reading your posts and feel you have good things to pass on, please keep it up. Apologize if I sound like I know it all, I have just been through so much and just wish to chatt with people who have been through things in life like this and if my words can help anyone my day will be filled.
Best of Luck. Wjacky has it so right- Keep Trying. Do remember "denial" is not a river in Egypt and be sure to keep your doc's app. You Can Do It. If you haven't do be sure your doc sets you up with any meds (over the counter/script) that can assist you with most all disscomforts, eh. I only say this with caring, love and prayers. I have 25years sober (alcohol) am addicted (currently cleaner than before) of pain meds. Taking few hundred + a month for years after many major back opps, total knee, etc. Been there done That. Only post because I care and offering any help to anyone is only goal.
Favorite happiness is five & a 1/2 GrandKids. Again, Best to You. Gramps
Best of Luck. Wjacky has it so right- Keep Trying. Do remember "denial" is not a river in Egypt and be sure to keep your doc's app. You Can Do It. If you haven't do be sure your doc sets you up with any meds (over the counter/script) that can assist you with most all disscomforts, eh. I only say this with caring, love and prayers. I have 25years sober (alcohol) am addicted (currently cleaner than before) of pain meds. Taking few hundred + a month for years after many major back opps, total knee, etc. Been there done That. Only post because I care and offering any help to anyone is only goal.
Favorite happiness is five & a 1/2 GrandKids. Again, Best to You. Gramps
Elvis, wait up. Don't get Mad. Take in the critics words for what they are worth, as you have said is the right thing to do in your many posts. Being so defensive can only harm you and all your work, think about it. Obviously alot of people care about you so don't allow a missguided comment jeapordize your progress.
"KNOWING THE TRUTH IS THE FIRST STEP TO FINDING A SOLUTION".
Gramps
"KNOWING THE TRUTH IS THE FIRST STEP TO FINDING A SOLUTION".
Gramps
