Hey guys. I am very excited. On Monday I will be returning to work. Being unemployed for 8 month( 2 of which I was drunk )I am so looking forward to returning to the work force.I am excited about the the job I will be doing,which will be interviewing seniors who have relocated from smaller villages to bigger towns and submitting thier profile and stories in the local newspapers Also I will be collecting and cataloguing artifacts for the local museum. I am eager for Monday to arrive It's the first time in many months that I am actually looking forward to something. I am even excited about working without an hangover. lol. I am so very GRATEFUL for this opportunity and I feel good about the fact that I can be a functioning member of society again. Thanks for the support all and helping me in my recovery which in turn has help me achieve enough strength and confidence to do the best I can in making this work for me. Today I take nothing for granted and am thankful for all my blessings. By the way skg does that quality for at least a little small "ding" ? lol
Hey Pirate, I just want to say a HUGE congratulations! You've come so far, it's amazing! You're gonna be a valuable person to have around with all your experiences! I really hope you enjoy this bit of your life, all the effort was worth it!
Love and hugz!
Izzy
Love and hugz!
Izzy
Pirate,
I'm so happy to hear you saying that you have something to look forward to. I don't know about you but drinking always took that away from me. When I was drinking, I was always hoping to avoid something or other. Its nice to be able to be looking forward to things isn't it?
one day at a time, Cookster
I'm so happy to hear you saying that you have something to look forward to. I don't know about you but drinking always took that away from me. When I was drinking, I was always hoping to avoid something or other. Its nice to be able to be looking forward to things isn't it?
one day at a time, Cookster
I'm excited for you. Best of luck.
That's great pirate, congratulations!
Martin
Martin
Fantastic Pirate,
I'm so happy and proud of you. Congratulations on getting back out there. I loved what Cookster said about how we now can look forward to doing things. Because for me when I was drinking I didn't look forward to anything, well except another one. Sometimes that wasn't the case either.
Your new job sounds interesting and fun. You give me hope. I'll be looking early this fall. I've only had one part time job in 7 yrs. I worked full time before that. It's scary thinking about going back into the work force. I wonder if they'll will want me. I wonder what will I say if they ask, why I haven't worked. Or what have you been doing. I think my fear of being homeless and eating green beans out of a can when I'm really old is scaring me more.
I will pray that you are treated well, learn the job quickly and are efficient at it. All while possibly having a good time.
Congratulations and good luck to you my friend!
I'm so happy and proud of you. Congratulations on getting back out there. I loved what Cookster said about how we now can look forward to doing things. Because for me when I was drinking I didn't look forward to anything, well except another one. Sometimes that wasn't the case either.
Your new job sounds interesting and fun. You give me hope. I'll be looking early this fall. I've only had one part time job in 7 yrs. I worked full time before that. It's scary thinking about going back into the work force. I wonder if they'll will want me. I wonder what will I say if they ask, why I haven't worked. Or what have you been doing. I think my fear of being homeless and eating green beans out of a can when I'm really old is scaring me more.
I will pray that you are treated well, learn the job quickly and are efficient at it. All while possibly having a good time.
Congratulations and good luck to you my friend!
Thanks guys for the replies. I don't know what gets the matter with me. Yesterday I was all excited and happy and today I'm just in a slump that I can't get out of . I am still looking forward to going to work and all but today it's like I have this heavy feeling of doom hanging over me as if I am waiting for a bomb to drop or something. Feeling very down. I don't want to drink but if it was back in times when I did drink today would be one of those days where I would go on a bender.It's almost like when something good happens for me I get scared that something bad is coming right behind it. I know you all must be thinking I should have stayed with the addiction counselling but really she was of no help but I forgot to mention in my post that I do still see another counsellor which I do find helpful so I am not swinging it all alone. also the addiction counsellor told me that I can go back to her anytime I want.I know this post seems like it's all about me today and for now I guess I am moping somewhat but just needed to get that out of my system. I know this too shall pass so thanks for letting me vent yet once AGAIN. Have a great sober weekend!
Hi pirate,
Well, as you know, I'm an advocate of letting it out....lol..I know I simply had to process my emotions by venting them to someone, anyone...the Samaritans, friends, friend on the board...I think for some it felt like I was obsessing but these were things I'd never ever felt and I was utterly bewildered. I needed to do it and the support I found here enabled me to work through that phase of just letting it sink in....that this was real and had happened/was happening....I needed that to get to acceptance. I know that bottling up my emotions is as damaging to my well-being as alcohol because it was what got me here in the first place.
What I've learnt about me is that I am not my emotions....when I discovered them (!) they hijacked me, took over....and I guess they always had done, just that I wasn't aware of it at the time....now I'm learning how to live with them (I'm growing up) I realise they flow through me like a river....soemtimes I'm down and I don't know why and sometimes it's hard to shake, but the wonderful thing is that I know that muddy water will flow away downstream and cool, clear peace and joy is on its way from the mountaintop.
Sorry to get all poetic on yer, but ya know what I means....
Have a good day. A really good one.
Martin
Well, as you know, I'm an advocate of letting it out....lol..I know I simply had to process my emotions by venting them to someone, anyone...the Samaritans, friends, friend on the board...I think for some it felt like I was obsessing but these were things I'd never ever felt and I was utterly bewildered. I needed to do it and the support I found here enabled me to work through that phase of just letting it sink in....that this was real and had happened/was happening....I needed that to get to acceptance. I know that bottling up my emotions is as damaging to my well-being as alcohol because it was what got me here in the first place.
What I've learnt about me is that I am not my emotions....when I discovered them (!) they hijacked me, took over....and I guess they always had done, just that I wasn't aware of it at the time....now I'm learning how to live with them (I'm growing up) I realise they flow through me like a river....soemtimes I'm down and I don't know why and sometimes it's hard to shake, but the wonderful thing is that I know that muddy water will flow away downstream and cool, clear peace and joy is on its way from the mountaintop.
Sorry to get all poetic on yer, but ya know what I means....
Have a good day. A really good one.
Martin
Pirate.
You're an alcoholic. It's called stinkin' thinkin'. You need a program, a sponsor, and I suggest some humility in understanding the disease. I used to think I was different, too.
"At some of these we balked. We thought we could find an easier, softer way. But we could not. With all the earnestness at our command, we beg of you to be fearless and thorough from the very start. Some of us have held on to our old ideals and the results were nil until we let go absolutely."
You're an alcoholic. It's called stinkin' thinkin'. You need a program, a sponsor, and I suggest some humility in understanding the disease. I used to think I was different, too.
"At some of these we balked. We thought we could find an easier, softer way. But we could not. With all the earnestness at our command, we beg of you to be fearless and thorough from the very start. Some of us have held on to our old ideals and the results were nil until we let go absolutely."
Hi Pirate,
Sounds to me like you are nervous as well as happy about your new job. Thats normal... Be patient with those feelings, once you get your feet wet at your new job you may well feel better about things.
one day at a time, Cookster
Sounds to me like you are nervous as well as happy about your new job. Thats normal... Be patient with those feelings, once you get your feet wet at your new job you may well feel better about things.
one day at a time, Cookster
Gidday Pirate
How did the day go?
Did any of the scenario fears happen that made you fearful yesterday?
And what fears(if any) is your scenario thinking putting on your first day?
For me going back to work was a mind F until i handed it over and allowed the serenity prayer and all the positives recovery has given me to work.
Keep up the good work and congrads on the job from NZ
light and love Zac
How did the day go?
Did any of the scenario fears happen that made you fearful yesterday?
And what fears(if any) is your scenario thinking putting on your first day?
For me going back to work was a mind F until i handed it over and allowed the serenity prayer and all the positives recovery has given me to work.
Keep up the good work and congrads on the job from NZ
light and love Zac
