Hello, all my friends,
My first post was back in january when I was asking about stopping "cold turkey" and I was feeling really down then and have been for quite a while after too.
I thank again those who answered, Mark, Mom, Brynda...
Now, I'm not completely off it but I'm nearly there and when I am I'll tell you how it went.
But I do feel so much better mainly because I feel so close to success, closer than I've ever been.
Its like I can feel the joys of spring and life has suddenly got colour and sent and warmth and yes, life is so horrible on H. Its a tastles big muddle.
What cheers me the most is not seeing dealers 'cause i hate them so much. They are lying greedy scumbags (sorry for the vocab but, hey, how else can you describe them?) who think they can treat you like s*** 'cause you're
and addict and have no pride and consequently you'll always come back. True untill you decide enough is enough, I'm not going to give them my money and see their ugly mugs again.
I havn't seen mine for a week and I know its not a long time but believe me, without methadone, sub or anything else, it feels long.
It also feels so good, I'm just starting to feel good so I thought I share with you all.
What do I give up for lent? Heroin, yes!!!
Big love to all
GO YOU!
I am :) xxx
Thanx
Thanx
Bibo! Bibo! Bibo!
That's wonderful news, Bibo. Good for you.
You'll have the entire Chruch in an uproar if ya tell them ya gave up heroin for Lent. Hey whatever it takes.
Don't get me started with the dealers. Right? One of the best things to me getting clean was not hearing "Twenty more minutes". Never early, always late! Then they got ya out on the street like a sitting duck for the cops to see. "Twenty more minutes" and they have on $150.00 sneakers. Well I think trainers to you. Oh and presents for their kids on your dime.
HA, Bibo you could even ask my friend. I used to fume going "Well this is just a total abuse of power how these guys treat us. I'm telling 'em". Anybody else I would tell off, but ya never want to tell a dealer off. Lord forbid.
So good lookout, friend.
Keep your head up. You're doing good.
How about music too? Sounds way better, right?
That's wonderful news, Bibo. Good for you.
You'll have the entire Chruch in an uproar if ya tell them ya gave up heroin for Lent. Hey whatever it takes.
Don't get me started with the dealers. Right? One of the best things to me getting clean was not hearing "Twenty more minutes". Never early, always late! Then they got ya out on the street like a sitting duck for the cops to see. "Twenty more minutes" and they have on $150.00 sneakers. Well I think trainers to you. Oh and presents for their kids on your dime.
HA, Bibo you could even ask my friend. I used to fume going "Well this is just a total abuse of power how these guys treat us. I'm telling 'em". Anybody else I would tell off, but ya never want to tell a dealer off. Lord forbid.
So good lookout, friend.
Keep your head up. You're doing good.
How about music too? Sounds way better, right?
its the first week thats the worse then its the staying off, try it i keep tryinandfalling back again the thing is to distract yourself after stopping keep busy dont get bored boredom s the reason people go back to ti and then hate thenlseves for it good luck
Hiya my friends,
I am only a week into this but I have done a lot of preparation like reducing my intake to make it easier for one and planning what to do to keep myself busy, so true viv. I am buying suitably "nice" second hand furniture and redoing them in "shabby chic" style to resell. I think it is something that interests me and that i can do.I have nearly completed a bureau (started before starting drying up!), to get myself motivated, because I guessed I would not feel like doing much for a bit. So, I really want to do this and I feel on the right track at the moment, especially today being the first day I am feeing somewhat better.
I keep telling myself all journeys start with the first step, so, now keep going, I really think its going to be well worth it.
Today. I had the money, the time, the opportunity to go and score but I didn't, so far, so good.
love and best wishes in you personnel journey,
xx
I am only a week into this but I have done a lot of preparation like reducing my intake to make it easier for one and planning what to do to keep myself busy, so true viv. I am buying suitably "nice" second hand furniture and redoing them in "shabby chic" style to resell. I think it is something that interests me and that i can do.I have nearly completed a bureau (started before starting drying up!), to get myself motivated, because I guessed I would not feel like doing much for a bit. So, I really want to do this and I feel on the right track at the moment, especially today being the first day I am feeing somewhat better.
I keep telling myself all journeys start with the first step, so, now keep going, I really think its going to be well worth it.
Today. I had the money, the time, the opportunity to go and score but I didn't, so far, so good.
love and best wishes in you personnel journey,
xx
Way to go, bibo! A week is huge!
You're so smart to have tapered down before quitting. You can do this! I do the furniture thing too, good to keep us busy.
Remember those bad times. Don't let your mind fool you.
H sucks!
You're so smart to have tapered down before quitting. You can do this! I do the furniture thing too, good to keep us busy.
Remember those bad times. Don't let your mind fool you.
H sucks!
Giving up H for lent - hahaha! But seriously you're doing so well. Keep up the good work and life will be so so much better for you. All the best,
JX
JX
Dealer, well mine were more like this:
"meet me at ..."
wait.
ring.
"2 mns, 2mns"
wait.
ring.
"I'm round the corner"
wait.
ring.
"stop ringing me. I'm coming"
30, 40, 50 mns later, he's there and I feel like hitting him but, yes, god forbid.
I give him the money and he give the wrap and I'm off straight home.
Sad sad life.
Remembering this definitly helps!!!
You all do too, thanks
xx
"meet me at ..."
wait.
ring.
"2 mns, 2mns"
wait.
ring.
"I'm round the corner"
wait.
ring.
"stop ringing me. I'm coming"
30, 40, 50 mns later, he's there and I feel like hitting him but, yes, god forbid.
I give him the money and he give the wrap and I'm off straight home.
Sad sad life.
Remembering this definitly helps!!!
You all do too, thanks
xx
it seems we all feel the same about the dealers and alll feel the same about the boredom, but the house clearing which i wanted to occupy myself is so hard when feeing so =weak and feeble after the body no longer has its daily food difficult and always a relapse and back to square one, does anyone know about the so called new wonderdrug for helping reduce withdrawal effects?gabapentin?meant to be used for anxiety insomnia firbromyalgia and neuralgea but aparentyl drugforum .com are saying? that si being tested as a possible helper for opiate wthdrawals, anyone had succes with this?
