My name is jenny2....I have been addicted to painpills for over 2 years.....I have tried several times to stop, with only a 14 day stop until I was repeating the same habits!! I am trying really,really hard to kick this habit......I am down to taking 1 pill a day......after taking about 6 or more a day, depending on the strength of them. I can't seem to compeletely stop......I could use some advice on what to do!!!! This has been a deep rooted secret that I have been carrying for one to many years....I am very ashamed that I can not just stop......I am 28 years old with a great career, and I know it will be hard but I want this more than anything......Can anyone please help me?
Dear Jenny,I'm mollyjean welcome to the board we are a great support system.What kind of pain pills are you on?Why did you start taking them (injury etc)....mj
Hi Jenni2......
Just stop, I have the faith that you can do it.....is it worth it having 1 pill a day control your life.....You sound like you have a lot going for you, how much more will you have when you let go of that last pill.....all the worry and guilt and hate you have for yourself will disappear. Then you can work on reclaiming your life, which is possible for everyone, I watch my husband getting his back little by little everyday......Also, try to get to a NA/AA meeting, there you will learn what you need to do to keep yourself clean.......
Good Luck to you and take care,
Tina
Just stop, I have the faith that you can do it.....is it worth it having 1 pill a day control your life.....You sound like you have a lot going for you, how much more will you have when you let go of that last pill.....all the worry and guilt and hate you have for yourself will disappear. Then you can work on reclaiming your life, which is possible for everyone, I watch my husband getting his back little by little everyday......Also, try to get to a NA/AA meeting, there you will learn what you need to do to keep yourself clean.......
Good Luck to you and take care,
Tina
good morning Miss Tina how are you today?...mj
jenny are you still here???mj
MollyJean......I started taking perocet 5 years ago for kidney stones.....I was 5 months pregnant......I took about 14 a day under the supervision of my Dr.
He never once told me I would get addicted to them.....5 months later after the delivery of my baby and a kidney surgery...I tried to just stop taking them....I found out real quick I couldn't.....I went to my urologist crying to please help me, at his time I as honestly taking them properly, not for pleasure.....He weaned me off of them slowly which took several months and them I took 1/2 a pill for two weeks then drunk as much caffiene as possible! That was the end of that.....I then replaced pills with exercise...that seem to get my mind off of them. About 3 years ago someone told me you can take lortab 10 for energy.....foolish enough I believe them........And a bad habit formed....up to as many as I could afford......I want to stop cold turkey, but the withdrawls are unbearable!!!! Yesterday was the first day of just taking one, after taking about 5 a day......That was a meserable day....but I survived.....This morning I took one to get rid of going to the bathroom! I was thinking of weaning what I have left which is about 3 pills......What is your thoughts?
He never once told me I would get addicted to them.....5 months later after the delivery of my baby and a kidney surgery...I tried to just stop taking them....I found out real quick I couldn't.....I went to my urologist crying to please help me, at his time I as honestly taking them properly, not for pleasure.....He weaned me off of them slowly which took several months and them I took 1/2 a pill for two weeks then drunk as much caffiene as possible! That was the end of that.....I then replaced pills with exercise...that seem to get my mind off of them. About 3 years ago someone told me you can take lortab 10 for energy.....foolish enough I believe them........And a bad habit formed....up to as many as I could afford......I want to stop cold turkey, but the withdrawls are unbearable!!!! Yesterday was the first day of just taking one, after taking about 5 a day......That was a meserable day....but I survived.....This morning I took one to get rid of going to the bathroom! I was thinking of weaning what I have left which is about 3 pills......What is your thoughts?
Hi Jenny2!
Don't feel ashamed, you are not alone. Even looking for support and advice is a very hard thing to do. Be proud of yourself! I am also 28 and maybe I don't have a great job going but a great family I do! And I know all about secrets. My very own husband has no idea about this! See, that's how it keeps us down; we fight it alone. You can't win like that. Even though I know I will not, any time soon anyway, tell my husband, coming to this message board makes it where I am not alone anymore. If I need advice or want someone to give an encouraging word, here I come...clicking away! Just don't quit talking to these folks! They know what they are talking about! I haven't been posting but for 2 days but I have fought this fight alone for 9 years! And until now, I haven't had any support from anywhere! So, please let me know if you need to talk or cry! I'm just a click away!
Don't feel ashamed, you are not alone. Even looking for support and advice is a very hard thing to do. Be proud of yourself! I am also 28 and maybe I don't have a great job going but a great family I do! And I know all about secrets. My very own husband has no idea about this! See, that's how it keeps us down; we fight it alone. You can't win like that. Even though I know I will not, any time soon anyway, tell my husband, coming to this message board makes it where I am not alone anymore. If I need advice or want someone to give an encouraging word, here I come...clicking away! Just don't quit talking to these folks! They know what they are talking about! I haven't been posting but for 2 days but I have fought this fight alone for 9 years! And until now, I haven't had any support from anywhere! So, please let me know if you need to talk or cry! I'm just a click away!
Ok keep in mind that I too have a pill problem but I can give my thoughts on tapering.For me the tapering is alot better than C/T I caved in about 12 hours into cold turkey.Now my awesome bf leaves my amount and takes the rest to work with him.Do you have someone you can trust to do that?I will admit since I joined here I have overdone it a couple times and a couple times I just was nuts.But talking with people here kinda help me get a grip.We don't judge here so thats a +.So for me the tapering is working I've gone from 13-14-15-16 to 9 that I'm down to now.The DR prescibed 8 a day and I would like to go even less than that.Please read through all the different post there is alot of great information here....mj
flipflop very very good advise.Reaching out is the hardest part it took me 20yrs to do that.Thankfully the people here grabbed my outstreched hand and helped.Like I've said I made some really great friends here.People I am proud to call friends.....mj
DEAR MOLLYJEAN.......I WASN'T TRYING TO SAY YOU INVADED MY SPACE, I WAS NOT SURE HOW TO MAKE A REPLY.....I WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT MY REPLY WAS UNDER THE TOPIC I WROTE:>}
I AM STILL NOT SURE ON HOW TO DO THIS......THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING.....IT IS GREAT TO HAVE POSITIVE FEEDBACK FROM PEOPLE WHO KNOW WHAT I'M DEALING WITH......THANK YOU!!!!
I AM STILL NOT SURE ON HOW TO DO THIS......THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR WRITING.....IT IS GREAT TO HAVE POSITIVE FEEDBACK FROM PEOPLE WHO KNOW WHAT I'M DEALING WITH......THANK YOU!!!!
Hi Jenny;
Congratulations on getting down to one pill a day! That's not easy to do, and you deserve a ton of credit! Now I would suggest it's time to flush whatever pills you have left and get on with a life of recovery. If you've been tapering down to the one pill per day then the wd's probably won't be too bad.
And based upon my experience it makes sense to make a plan for recovery. I've stopped a couple of times in the past only to relapse again because I didn't have a recovery plan. Today I attend NA/AA meetings regularly and I see a substance abuse counselor weekly. I need to stay vigilant against these pills because this is such a disease of the mind.
Stay strong and God bless.
jim
Congratulations on getting down to one pill a day! That's not easy to do, and you deserve a ton of credit! Now I would suggest it's time to flush whatever pills you have left and get on with a life of recovery. If you've been tapering down to the one pill per day then the wd's probably won't be too bad.
And based upon my experience it makes sense to make a plan for recovery. I've stopped a couple of times in the past only to relapse again because I didn't have a recovery plan. Today I attend NA/AA meetings regularly and I see a substance abuse counselor weekly. I need to stay vigilant against these pills because this is such a disease of the mind.
Stay strong and God bless.
jim
FLIPFLOPS.....THANK YOU! MY HUSBAND HAS NO IDEA EITHER....HE'D PROBALLY DIE. I HAVE COME TO THIS SITE SEVERAL TIMES TO JUST READ WHAT OTHERS HAD TO SAY, AND THIS MORNING I WANTED TO SEEK OUT ANYONE WHO WOULD LISTEN.....THIS IS A VERY LONELY BATTLE TO TRY TO FIGHT ON YOUR OWN!!!! I WOULD LOVE TO FINALLY BE IN THE POSITION TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE!!! I TRULY BELIEVE IN PRAYER AND I WILL KEEP YOU AND MOLLYJEAN BOTH IN MINE!!! THANK YOU FOR TAKING TIME OUT TO TALK TO ME!
Dear Jenny I was not trying to be mean or anything.Trust me when I say I try very hard not to hurt people here.I was just saying sorry if I over stepped it.I have a habit of jumping around on here.That way I get as much info on the subject at hand.that being said...you mean to say nobody knows about your problem?That is so very sad.To feel totally alone with this is a rotten feeling.I'm glad you came here that way we can mentally hold your hands so you don't feel alone.I joined Nov 18 I think and it was the best thing I've ever done for myself....mj
JIM.....THIS 1 PILL A DAY IS ON THE SECOND DAY.....YESTERDAY I WANTED TO DIE!!!! I TOOK SEVERAL HOT BATHS AND SOME MOTRIN AND TYLENOL.......THIS IS THE SECOND DAY I'M GONNA DO WITH JUST ONE PILL......I ONLY HAVE THREE LEFT AND WED. I'M GONNA BREAK THEM IN HALF,BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AFTER THAT?
MJ: I AM ALREADY REALLY GLAD I FINALLY JOIN IN....I HAVE BEEN READING FOR SEVERAL MONTHS.......I DON'T KNOW HOW I MANAGE TO KEEP THIS A SECRET FOR AS LONG AS I HAVE BUT I HAVE........I'M NOT PROUD OF IT AT ALL!!!! THE SOONER I KICK THIS THE BETTER!
Jenny the hot baths are great for W/Ds I have found for the terriable leg cramps that all natural lavender oil rubbed into your legs kinda relaxes them a bit.Jenny there is no one in your world you can talk to about this.You must feel so alone or you did.We are here now to be your strenth when you feel weak and we will pray that the addiction demon will leave you in peace....mj
THANK YOU AND I WILL PRAY FOR EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU! I KNOW THIS WILL BE A BATTLE I WILL EVENUALLY WIN.....AND I AM PRAYING FOR IT TO BE SOON.....I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS I CAN TAKE........BOTH EMOTIONALLY AND FINIACIALLY IT NIS DRAINING ME!!!!! I DO NOT HAVE INSURANCE AT THIS TIME TO GET HELP, I AM IN THE PROCESS OF BEING APPROVED, BUT I HAVE STOPPED BEFORE I KNOW I CAN DO IT AGAIN!!!!!!
Jenny try hard not to put too much pressure on yourself.Sometimes baby steps are better than giant leaps.The thing that is important is 1 you want to stop and 2 you realized how hurtful this stuff is.As I said going C/T for me didn't do it.For me the hardest is the mental cravings that I have everyday.That is a persons private battle and I belive its the hardest for all of us.Keep on working for your goal in the long run it will be worth it and think....YES I WILL HAVE MY LIFE BACK......mj
DOES ANYONE HAVE REALLY BAD HEADACHES FROM WITHDRAWLS? I FEEL GUILTY TAKING MORE PILLS,BUT DO YOU HAVE TO JUST SUFFER THROUGH THIS? I READ ON ANOTHER MESSAGE TO TAKE BENADRYL? WHAT IS THAT FOR?
That is to help you sleep.When I first started to taper I had very hard headaches right in my temples.I took tylynol which wasn't the greatest because of what it can do to your liver.The headaches have stopped now unless I over do it on the board or read too much....mj
