I am 17 and only been using for 4 months. I dont like the high, I cant stand it ussually. Most the time I get anxeity attacks and my mind races, thinking about all that is bad in my life. I hardly ever have fun.. I cant function right, I dont want to go out because I feel like everyone knoes, I get word vomit, I stay up for a couple days even of one day of doing it, I feel like s***, look like s*** and want to sleep but I cant. I cant stop thinking. Still- I crave it. My anxeity attacks when Im sober trigger me because thats how I feel when Im using and/or coming down. I have dreams about doing it and even after a couple weeks of sobriety will end up back in the loop. I am going through a huge lifestyle change, I only started using because I wanted my mom to stop. Not only that but she was selling it to my friends, and doing it with my boyfriend. Now she is clean but I am still using. I am going to meeting and church and writing down all my feelings- I stopped hanging out with the people even my boyfriend which was extremly hard for me because I am very codependent on him. The whole change is too much. I cant get usr to the normal living.. It makes me uncomfortable. Even before I was using I was living in dope houses for years. Now everything is so dull and I feel trapped.I miss the people I miss my boyfriend, and I am finding it hard to function without dysfunction. I want to do the right thing, I dont want others to suffer for my drug addiction but even when I dont want to get high I want to go back to the lifestyle-then I ended getting high anyways. What should I do?
I really feel for you. The best thing I can tell you from my experience is to permanently stay away from ALL people around you that use, which it sounds like your doing, start a new life and surround with good people and get to lots of Na meetings.
I am 29 from UK and started using coke when I was 17 and like u instant problems, now I'm stuck im in oz and using meth rarely but I still have not defeated my addiction. Please do everything you can at this early stage, take it very seriously, it has a high potential to follow you for years and years and deep pain and misery with it. Stay strong I wish you luck x
I am 29 from UK and started using coke when I was 17 and like u instant problems, now I'm stuck im in oz and using meth rarely but I still have not defeated my addiction. Please do everything you can at this early stage, take it very seriously, it has a high potential to follow you for years and years and deep pain and misery with it. Stay strong I wish you luck x
