Need To Stop For My Kids

Hi! I'm a young mother of three and i really need to think about quiting. I have been smoking on and off since i was 13(but mostly on), and im now 26. During my first pregnancy i was able to totally stop smoking. during my second pregnancy i stopprd in the begining but started again towards the end. Now my youngest child is 2 months old and i smoked almost all through my pregnancy. My baby is healthy and big weighing 8 lbs at birth and now 12lbs. I still smoke at least every other day, somtimes more and i breastfeed. I really want to continue nursing but i feel so guity that i may be harming my baby. please somone give me advise.
hey there,

i can tell you one thing; that guilty feeling is the start. I love smoking weed. I've been doing it for three years now..and I believe ive gone terribly down hill. Others dissagree, but you know that feeling.

I'm still trying to quit...but there's certain things i've come to realize. First of all, we don't NEED any of this. To think that we need to ingest a drug to function normally is rediculous, irrational, and a little pathetic. I enjoy taking a step back.."watching myself smoke from a 3rd person point of view". I see myself smoking alone usually..and you really see it as something that's a little pathetic..reaching for the drug to feel that "instant gratification". It's why babies suck thumbs..it's why people need their coffee in the morning. We crave that instant pleasure because it doesnt require work. When we get used to it, not only is it physically addictive (marijuana is a little) but it's mentally addictive (marijuana is A LOT).

If a middle aged man got his instant gratification from sucking his thumb; we'd look at him and think he's pathetic. What we do is no different; in fact, it's dirtier, more unhealthy, can make us anxious, depressed, burnt out, less motivated, less social etc. etc.

What's more pathetic?

On top of that, you have your children. These are human beings that arent given a choice when they breath in the smoke (if that's the case). Now this is not meant to offend you i swear!..When i have children, i'm going to think of them as a clean canvas. feed them the most nutritious food, avoid having them breath in cigarette smoke etc. so that when they're old enough to make these decisions, they'll be the best they can be.

I know it sounds like id raise machines but i dont mean it that way..haha..

I think in your case, you need a real mindset change when it comes to weed. I've been smoking for 3 years and need a mindset change..you've been smoking for many more years than that.

(remember, the first few nights are the hardest to stop!_

I hope i helped and didnt bring you down or offended you or anything..good luck and wish me some too