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HI All,

I've been reading this board for the past 2 days and for the first time in the past year I feel NORMAL, my story is similar to so many that I have read. I've been abusing Norco since last June, about 25-30/day yikes. I finally decided this had to stop in February and i've been to 4 rehabs since I've made the decision to quit. I'm once again coming up on 2 weeks this Sunday and i'm pretty scared.. this is usually when I relapse. It seems like the farther away I get from this drug the more I forget about how hellish it really is.. I convince myself I can just try it one more time and before I know it i'm in hooked again. This cycle has to end.. I was so high on Norco and Ativan about 2 weeks ago I took about 14 2mg ativan and had to go to the hospital.. it was humiliating.. I was totally out of control. Anyway, I just wanted to reach out and say hi to everyone since I know you can all relate to where I am.. any support is appreciated:-)

Rach
rachel@ivmost.com
Hi Rach
We can do this! I had 30 days under my belt and I gave in about a week ago. Today is my 1st day trying again, and already I'm thinking about those dilaudids. Aprox 25 2mg/day. High tolerance andI feel my liver ache. If you hang in there, I'll try to, too. You will be in my thoughts today.
Your friend, Pharm
Thanks Pharm,

Again, happy to know i'm not alone but I feel your pain. I couldn't do it on my own.. I had to go into detox every time. The first time they detoxed me with Ativan and clonidine.. so I left with a new addiction to ativan. The 2nd time it was methadone for 3 days which realllly helped, the 3rd time it was just clonidine and the 4th Darvon.. jeez I cannot believe how many times I've tried to quit.. this is getting tiring and ridiculous.. My thoughts and prayers are with you as well! Be strong.
Thanks Rach,
Sorry I took so long. Since I have been hanging around this board for about 2 weeks I've been trying to think of an appropriate name for me to go under. I thought of Pharmacy because I'm such a pill junkie, ...and this is my first official post! So I'm glad I was talking to you on this momentous occasion! Thankyou for sharing.
Pharm