I havent had any drinks this week. I had the urge the last two nights just to have one or two, which i somtimes can do, and other times it doesnt work. Lately i've been having diet coke in a wine glass. I know it's wierd but it kinda eases the urge to have a beer or wine! I am not planning to go to AA if i can keep this up, but i am just scared that i'll slip up. I know i'll be ok this weekend cause i'll be on a trip with my mom. She doesnt know i have a problem, but i wont get drunk if i'm with her. Thanks for the people who wrote me back with all that additional info.
Mupmup
Hey, congrats!!!
I completely know what you are going through. I am 26 and have been fighting alchol since I was 14. I was just such a great drinker. I was the party girl, having fun, dancing acting wild. I could drink any guy under the table.Alot of pain came my way as well. I have been in the hospital over 10 times because of it. Stomach pumped, head injury from falling, overdose on drugs, broken ankle from racing wasted, and the most recent and most embarrasing - gashing my leg with a knife - 30 stiches after trying to drink away the pain of my husband cheating on me. All this and yet I still have the urge to drink. I feel like I am a dry drunk. I haven't had a drink since June and now that the scar is starting to fade, I am worried that I am going to fall. I was the same as you thinking; I will just have 3 social drinks. It would work.....sometimes. The scary thing was I never knew when I was going to go too far. I do find that talking about how you feel helps. Don't be embarrased, it takes a strong person to admit they have a problem and try to fix it. The dumb ones are the ones who make the same mistake over and over. I am here if you want to chat.
take care,
s
I completely know what you are going through. I am 26 and have been fighting alchol since I was 14. I was just such a great drinker. I was the party girl, having fun, dancing acting wild. I could drink any guy under the table.Alot of pain came my way as well. I have been in the hospital over 10 times because of it. Stomach pumped, head injury from falling, overdose on drugs, broken ankle from racing wasted, and the most recent and most embarrasing - gashing my leg with a knife - 30 stiches after trying to drink away the pain of my husband cheating on me. All this and yet I still have the urge to drink. I feel like I am a dry drunk. I haven't had a drink since June and now that the scar is starting to fade, I am worried that I am going to fall. I was the same as you thinking; I will just have 3 social drinks. It would work.....sometimes. The scary thing was I never knew when I was going to go too far. I do find that talking about how you feel helps. Don't be embarrased, it takes a strong person to admit they have a problem and try to fix it. The dumb ones are the ones who make the same mistake over and over. I am here if you want to chat.
take care,
s
