hi there, finding this site was like a godsend. although most participants seem to be from the US (im from england) i find it so reasurring that others have and are experiencing what i have and what i am currently going through. It has gave me a far better understanding of my addiction than the mountains of crappy 'what is cannabis etc' leaflets that i have picked up over the last couple of months. I am 23 and have been smoking weed since the age of 13 with daily dependancy starting from around 15. i have been addicted to skunk and used to turn my nose up at hash as i found it failed to do anything for me any more. I have recently returned from a weeks holiday which i partly used as a starting block for kicking my habit. I started with regular palpitations and faint feelings throughout the first five days of the holiday which really did scare me and convinced me even more that quitting was the right thing to do. These didnt appear within the last two days which I found strange yet pleasing. The week after I got back I tried to occupy my time as much as possible, by going to the cinema, out for meals with my girlfriend and by participating in a new hobbie that I had thought up while I was away. During this time I still saw some of my mates who continue to smoke at the local pub and got a huge buzz from turning down joints that were offered to me. This was like a high in its own and nothing felt better than explaining the situation to my parents and my girlfriend (who have been very understanding and supportive). The second week however has been the complete opposite and from the minute I have woken up till the moment I go to bed iam thinking about scoring some weed. The last 3 days have been a complete nightmare for me and those around me, and I just hope I can pick myself up and continue to stay clean. My only worry, as from reading the posts from experienced reformed addicts on this forum like august-west is that there is no end in sight in the near future, and that this feeling will continue for a number of months or even years. The temptation is not helped by the fact that there are around 3 reliable dealers from within walking distance from my home. I know my situation may seem timid when compared to others on this site who have lost wives, kids, jobs etc but I cant help but feel that that will happen to me if I continue to use. I would just like to thank all posters on this site, for sharing their experiences in order to help others, as I already feel that there is someone their who understands properly what I am going through, and if it starts to work for me, then maybe I can try and help some of my friends who are in the same boat, but frequently admit that they dont have a real problem. Thanks again and any ideas or words of support would be much appreciated.
hi thanks for your support,you were talking about no end in site but youve already started to look towards that .you just have to keep on track.you sound like you have support take advantage of that.just keep talking to someone.i dont no about you but at 23yrs of age you got to do it now .time will slip by so fast and you will miss out on things you wont even no should of happined. its early here i got to go to work.keep up the fight mate later MARK
