I agree With Linda. You have to make a commitment to remove yourself from the people places and things that trigger you to use. That is the first step IMO.
MK
linda thanks for the reply how did you handle the being tired all the time? thanks
Sunday, Just re-reading our posts and remembering what worked. It all comes back. So fresh. so sad. By the time I quit I was so unhappy with my life and my soul. So I had a really good "power-rush". I was beating that monster. Then the slump. I started taking vitimens and forcing myself to get off the couch and do something. Usually a walk. Any exercise gets the endorphins, pleasure signals from the brain, coming back. Any abuse of speed throws the natural production of these out of whack. Our minds are fooled and we quit the natural production. These sensors get back to normal. It takes a while. When my mind started heading downward I found a variety of ways to reverse the direction. I made up little ditties to sing about beating the " meth monster", I imaged flipping a coin into the air. It always flipped to the reverse side. It was my mood. So my mood had to "flip" over. Sorry, That's about all I can think of for now. I've got a lot on the agenda for today. When I have a " peaceful" moment more will probably appear....My love and support,,,Linda
hi sunday...
not sure my example is the best...but i found the strangest things to have "clicked" for me. so here goes...i quit after moving myself across the united states. of course, i had the tragedy happen first. so my double whammied self sat in bed for five months, felt sorry for myself, ate a an unbelievable amount of food and let myself go. now, i feel loads better. but i'll tell you...sticking with these boards, knowing you're in understanding company is comforting in the way that gives the strength to leave that darkness. talking about it with people who understand gave me the strength to go ahead with some stuff i put off...and accomplishing the dumbest things make me feel good. taking care of the dogs (other "beings") is also good, to feel needed is good. i dunno, i also kept a journal when i was tweaking, and looking back in that thing is weird because i tend to remember a lot of good feelings, but my little book has quite the opposite inside. kind of like here. there are people at all different points of this "road" and they all assure me that i'm not alone in these feelings. i wish you the best, and will be here in the weeks to come...
smiles
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not sure my example is the best...but i found the strangest things to have "clicked" for me. so here goes...i quit after moving myself across the united states. of course, i had the tragedy happen first. so my double whammied self sat in bed for five months, felt sorry for myself, ate a an unbelievable amount of food and let myself go. now, i feel loads better. but i'll tell you...sticking with these boards, knowing you're in understanding company is comforting in the way that gives the strength to leave that darkness. talking about it with people who understand gave me the strength to go ahead with some stuff i put off...and accomplishing the dumbest things make me feel good. taking care of the dogs (other "beings") is also good, to feel needed is good. i dunno, i also kept a journal when i was tweaking, and looking back in that thing is weird because i tend to remember a lot of good feelings, but my little book has quite the opposite inside. kind of like here. there are people at all different points of this "road" and they all assure me that i'm not alone in these feelings. i wish you the best, and will be here in the weeks to come...
smiles
: )
Sunday,,,Have you tried any of our suggestions? Hope we helped you some. I can still remember that blah, life sucks feeling. It does go away. And from there it does get easier. There will always be bad days or moments. The intensity and length of the feelings does wane. So keep striving....Love and support,,,your friend,,,Linda
