my name is janine im 40years old i have been doing speed sence i was 17 i always thought i could control it because i did very little, i did it every day still do and the reason i still do is because when ever i stop for days, i cant get out of bed i m stressed and im tired. i turn in to a mean person, ive went weeks with no change to my tired and mean self. im a snigle mother of two, i have no family at all except my kids, no one knows i have a drug problem. i feel i cant hide it anymore, ive lost 3 jobs in the last 3years i know its because of the drug, is there any hope out there or will i forever be tired and mean. please help
I know your feeling well, I used for 35 years, and am now a month and a half clean. It takes a good month to two, before any resemblence of normal energy returns. The best thing you can do is to try to eat as balanced a diet as possible. also take vitamin supplements, a balanced daily with additional B's .I also use phenylalanine, and 5-HTP (5-hydroxytryptophan) . If you give living a very healthy lifestyle a chance, you might just begin to feel better than you ever did on meth. If you are still having problems , some prescription meds might help stave off the depression and anxiety that usually accompany quitting after prolonged use. best wishes and feel free to talk , ask questions here, there are many good people here that care and have answers
thank yor for your thoughts, your the first person to respond to my revealing my problem. im worriered that the emotional part of recovery my be to over welming for me to deal with alone, i guess i need to seek out local support groups or something. im going into this slowly because you see i cant fail. im at the cross roads in life and eighter i seek help and concour this issue once and for all or i except that i am nothing more than a drug addict and continue living this horrible lie. i understand that i will be in recovery allways i know theres no quick fix. i just want to make sure that i will still be able to function durring my abstance of meth. i can barely make it to work on time now and this is just a part time job. what are my kids going to think when i cant get up to get them to school on time or cant get up to make tham dinner or that mom crys all the time, and what will i say to tham when they make me mad, i say hateful things when im comming down. what damage am i going to do to my kids while i battle my demans. how will i dill with my cowrkers when then piss me of. im afraid of all my raw emotions that will be exposed to everyone that crosses my path weather good or bad. how will i do it. i have no family no friends to help me through this its just me myself and i, and God if i would only let him in. fearful is it really worth all this lisa
Yes it's worth it, is living long enough to to see your kids grow and have families of their own? You have no idea the joy of being a grandparent can be !! It is so much a mind over matter thing. Use what you know to help you through it. Read through this site, I first came here in august, I knew I wanted to quit but didnt think I could. There are some very wise people in here that really do care about others.You want to quit and that is the first step, dont stress too much over things ......I like to think of 2 rules,...first is dont sweat the small stuff, second is ..EVERYTHING is small stuff. addicts turn to their drug of choice as soon as the going gets tough. Every minute you make it without using turns to hours, then to days, then to weeks, months ....then you will be wondering how you got so addicted and be thrilled over how much better you feel. After 35 years of using meth, I am laffin at myself now , why? because overall I sleep a lot less, am able to get more done because I am not sweatin my fool a** off, and also dont waste time doing little useless things that sometimes I would get distracted into doing.It is not easy, I still have to force myself into doing things , but I reward myself all I can when I realize I made it through another day without using meth, I am very fortunate in that I have started a new relationship with a very undrstanding and supportive woman (well, supportive as long as I am not using, she would move on with out me in a heartbeat if I started using again, it isnt worth losing her to use ) use that type of thinking to keep you from using......arent your kids worth it?? all it takes is being in the wrong spot at the wrong time and poof, your life will be upside down, or worse yet "poof" and your kids are orphans because your heart and circulatory system can handle it......there are a lot of ways to get help....this site has done it for me, if not this site, some information in here will get you to where you need to be.....God bless you and keep you , and if he doesnt seem to be listening ....we are
hi its me again, i just unloaded on the category did methamphetamies for to many years. to Richard? i feel strange for poring out my life the way i did, you know its hard to put such personal exsperiences into a 4paragraph message. o'well talk to ya later, oby the way thank you, always Lisa
Hi Lisa, Today makes 72 days clean for me. After 30 days of recovery on my own the cravings were overcoming my resolve to stay clean. I called a friend and found where the nearest narcotics anonymous meeting was held. I have only missed one nightly meeting since then, I was sick. I became involved in the group and it helps me vent my loniliness etc. You gotta wanta. At the beginning of my recovery and even now on a bad day I exercise. It helps to relieve my sluggish feeling and gives me an anergy boost to get chores rtc. started and finished. In group they say you have to find your own ways that will help to stay clean We share our results. Of couse different ways help people. Humans have great diversity in personalities etc. I hope you can keep trying to quit. I started in about 1985 and haven't stayed clean this long since a 4 yr. personal recovery 1989 to 1993. I have made many attempts to quit since then. This is working so far. I just found this site today so I need to do a profile or whatever they have. My support and any help towards recovery are here for you. Linda
Welcome linda, congrats on your recovery, You are right, everyone is different in what it takes to maintain recovery. I found meetings to bring me down, although a friend of mine said I should try other meetings till I find the right chemistry. I found this site in late august while I was still using.I am up to 7 weeks now I believe. after 35 years of using, it is not easy, Sharing our experiences is what it takes and there are many here who care . when I first came here the big question was why no one on the meth board cares, well, we are gettin somewhere now. there are people that care now and almost everyone that asks for help, gets answers, or a shoulder to vent on , thanks and best wishes
Hi,
I was addicted to highly addicted pain killers oxycontin. Hillbilly herion they call it.
I was high most of the time for a year I dont remember xmas and dont remember much at all.
It took me two months before my energy come back I still am depressed but your energy will come back. Will all mind altering drugs the first thing it affects its your mind and your energy and your body. Take it a day at a time and stop using is the first step to getting well.
I know its hard we have all been there its tough its really tough and painful but you can do this nobody every died from coming of drugs. Take it easy take it slowly
and think of your children they and yourself and the most important people in your life look after yourself get off the drugs and get on the recovery road.
Nobody can do this but you. If you choose not to than dont but I am sure if you didnt want to you would have come to this recovery forum. We are all here for you everyday. Everyday somebody is here to help you keep you chin up no matter how hard and tough it gets.
Rhonda
I was addicted to highly addicted pain killers oxycontin. Hillbilly herion they call it.
I was high most of the time for a year I dont remember xmas and dont remember much at all.
It took me two months before my energy come back I still am depressed but your energy will come back. Will all mind altering drugs the first thing it affects its your mind and your energy and your body. Take it a day at a time and stop using is the first step to getting well.
I know its hard we have all been there its tough its really tough and painful but you can do this nobody every died from coming of drugs. Take it easy take it slowly
and think of your children they and yourself and the most important people in your life look after yourself get off the drugs and get on the recovery road.
Nobody can do this but you. If you choose not to than dont but I am sure if you didnt want to you would have come to this recovery forum. We are all here for you everyday. Everyday somebody is here to help you keep you chin up no matter how hard and tough it gets.
Rhonda
thanks justonemore, I read a sentence in one of the N.A. books that stuck in my mind: An addict alone is in bad (or poor) company. And that is my hardest time in living a life in recovery. It is getting better as my clean time increases and my self worth flows back in. Since I started exploring sites on the computer dealing with recovery and drug addiction and I chair up to four n.a. meetings a week the cravings are diminishing rapidly. Thank goodness I found this site now when you have joined to give new members a boost. Again thanks...Linda
It takes time....dont give up you can do this ...
it has been awhile sence i've posted anything, guess i'm ashamed of my self because i'm still snorting my life away. i'm no longer working, my 12 year old son is out of control my x whom is still my roommate has been a real a** to me. i tired, i'm scared, i'm an emotional reck just thinking about recovery, i'm a sad case i no. i have attended one 12 recovery program at my local church, i missed last week because my son decided to pick that evening to run away. he wasnt gone long, just long enough that i missed the meeting, i'm planning on going tomorrow. well i guess i'm just venting right now, i gotta go before my a** roommate wakes thanks lisa
Please , dont feel too ashamed to keep venting here . We are here because we have been there , are there , I personally posted here for a couple months while still using . I very much miss a few people who quit posting here , partly because they were still using and felt it was wrong to keep posting .Being honest and open is so easy to do online. Everyones input is vital to understanding this disease called addiction .Nobody understands it better than those of us who live it . Please continue to "vent" here if nothing else , I can feel the anxiety building in you as I read your posts from the first one to this last ..... quitting meth IS possible ,.. best wishes , with love and respect ..AL
addiction is so hard...........the beauty of this site is to vent when we vent even if to total strangers somehow we feel better, this is a war that i am fighting daily we do feel a sense of guilt when we use but it happens i really feel for you i can totally feel where you are coming from there are no easy answers but i do urge you to get back to the meeting you need to be surrounded with people who care and can share with you their experence strenght and hope............and i do belive there is hope............forget the a****** ex and do what you have to do for you and your children
thank you both for your uplefting notes. right now thats what i need. i'm so down on myself. well my 12 step starts in one hour and my son is no where to be found so i must go find him so i dont miss another one. thanks again lisa
hey its me again. i made it to my 12 step recovery tonite. i also bought The Life Recovery Bible.. Love ya Pray for me!!
Hey Sunday,
My name is Anna. I have been 10 years clean of meth. I dont normally post here but you have captured my attention. I am 33 years old. I have 2 children. I quit meth CT when I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I did meth everyday. I sold it, I made it, I did it all.
Here is what helped me. Well.... I became pregnant. Dont go and do that. Ha-Ha. I completly secluded myself from all my friends. They were all meth users. I stayed home in the evening. I ate a balanced diet. I joined a gym and met people who were not aware of my problem. I became friends with these people. I forced myself to become healthy.
Like any good speed freak the first thing to go is your complexion, then your physique, then your teeth. These are all the things that you can have back. I am still working on my poor teeth.
The funny thing about my stopping CT is that I did not suffer from any WDs. I think maybe because I was taking prenatal vitamins. I dont know bout that.
Sunday, you can do this. Meth is a terrible drug. I remember once I got a hold a batch cut with sheet rock. SHEET ROCK!!!! WTF!!!! I landed myself in the emergency room with a strange rash all over me. I could go on with the horror stories. I will spare you, Im sure you have some of your own.
I will be here to help you. I am a SAHM and I have time for you. If you would like my E-mail I can do that.
Good Luck Girl, and PLEASE keep me posted
MK
My name is Anna. I have been 10 years clean of meth. I dont normally post here but you have captured my attention. I am 33 years old. I have 2 children. I quit meth CT when I found out I was pregnant with my first child. I did meth everyday. I sold it, I made it, I did it all.
Here is what helped me. Well.... I became pregnant. Dont go and do that. Ha-Ha. I completly secluded myself from all my friends. They were all meth users. I stayed home in the evening. I ate a balanced diet. I joined a gym and met people who were not aware of my problem. I became friends with these people. I forced myself to become healthy.
Like any good speed freak the first thing to go is your complexion, then your physique, then your teeth. These are all the things that you can have back. I am still working on my poor teeth.
The funny thing about my stopping CT is that I did not suffer from any WDs. I think maybe because I was taking prenatal vitamins. I dont know bout that.
Sunday, you can do this. Meth is a terrible drug. I remember once I got a hold a batch cut with sheet rock. SHEET ROCK!!!! WTF!!!! I landed myself in the emergency room with a strange rash all over me. I could go on with the horror stories. I will spare you, Im sure you have some of your own.
I will be here to help you. I am a SAHM and I have time for you. If you would like my E-mail I can do that.
Good Luck Girl, and PLEASE keep me posted
MK
hey MK
thanks for caring every little bit helps, im not doing to well still using, my sons school just called i gotta go see what thats all about, i'll write more later, p.s. thanks again Sunday
thanks for caring every little bit helps, im not doing to well still using, my sons school just called i gotta go see what thats all about, i'll write more later, p.s. thanks again Sunday
Sunday,
I will wait to hear from you. Until then, Its all good.
MK
I will wait to hear from you. Until then, Its all good.
MK
Have you ever noticed when your trying to quite something it seems to just fall in your lap? sunday
Sunday, If you change people, places, and things the chances go way down re; falling in lap. The chances for success go way up. This iis some advice from an ex user. 20 yrs mainly high. 150 days living and dealing with life CLEAN. Your friend,,,Linda
