Not too long ago this site was jumpin with people , every day new faces ( ok, names-- -- I'm not seeing things!! ) I know a lot of you are here just not posting ....hmmmm , since I started coming here there have been NO instances, that I am aware of , of anyone attacking anothers view , or making anyone feel as though they were idiots for asking ,or saying something .....oh, lets say "off" to be PC. ( unlike a few sites I have been to where there is a lot of anger and "in my opinion" other agenda's being played out ) <<<disclaimer>>> hehehe,....just my opinion , maybe I am too "touchy" ..... Many people post and we never hear another word!!!! I for one have asked how they have been doing , or what became of their situation . COME ON PEOPLE!! dont be shy .... I am doing this the only way I know how......asking . Who all out there is a regular visitor to this small corner of our addicted world???? oh, ya...and the recovering addicted corner, What would it take to get more of you involved in discussing our addictions ???? SPEAK UP ....please???
OK Im here!!!!!
I have been clean for 10 years. I snorted meth for about 5 years straight every day. Well, actually, I taook one day off to sleep. I am an open book and I will do whatever I can to help and encourage people. I am currently prescribed Paxil Cr, Xanax and Lamactil(bi-polar) . All of these meda are due to my past drug use. At least thats what the Dr. says. I am 33 years old. I have 2 children and live with my BF. I have been throught it all, Done everything there is to do. I have not seen meth for 10 years and dont ever plan to.
Anna
I have been clean for 10 years. I snorted meth for about 5 years straight every day. Well, actually, I taook one day off to sleep. I am an open book and I will do whatever I can to help and encourage people. I am currently prescribed Paxil Cr, Xanax and Lamactil(bi-polar) . All of these meda are due to my past drug use. At least thats what the Dr. says. I am 33 years old. I have 2 children and live with my BF. I have been throught it all, Done everything there is to do. I have not seen meth for 10 years and dont ever plan to.
Anna
Thanks MK ... geeez, a huge feeling OLD came over me.....I have used meth for 2 years more than you have been alive !! THUD!!!!!! quick!! CPR here!!! hahaha, you have given me another question for others. I dont really have much faith in doctors , too many know only what they are programmed to think. Not to insult you MD's that have insight and the ability to listen and understand what your patients needs are , Even with all the years of meth , I still think I can make a well informed decision on my own body and what it needs ( oh ya, like I NEEDED 35 years of meth , the first 20 including everything else!!) hey, give me a break!! it takes a while but I do learn from my mistakes. What forms of treatment are you other recovering addicts using ?? and do you feel they are working or not ??? Do any of you use homeopathic methods to recovery . As a side note ......I can understand some doctors not wanting to prescribe drugs , Way too many people are addicted to prescription meds , some by their own choice ! others by a doctor who doesnt really know how to go after the cause of a problem, only treat symptoms. ( oooooops, I am never going to find a good doctor now, I'm gonna get blacklisted!!! hahaha , I shouldnt laff, a very serious subject )
After having two children I was diagnose with post-partum depression. That I wont argue with. THe Paxil has done winders for my overall anxiety and feelings of lowness. Now the Xanax, different. My quack Dr. has prescribed 150 1mgs a month. I only take 1 mg at night to sleep and maybe 1 in the afternoon every once in awhile. I definatly dont take 150 mgs of xanax a month. I could have 6 months ago though.
As far as other therapy. I work out everyday and I try to eat healthy and drink more water than soft drinks and caffine. I love coffee. MOst of my friends are younger than me and do speed on the weekends. I listen to there stories and I think how crazy I used to be. The meth they get does not even compare to the meth I got when I was younger. I was in California. Meth Land.
I hope I can help people here. Sunday seems to be having some trouble. I dont htink she comes here until the evening.
MK
As far as other therapy. I work out everyday and I try to eat healthy and drink more water than soft drinks and caffine. I love coffee. MOst of my friends are younger than me and do speed on the weekends. I listen to there stories and I think how crazy I used to be. The meth they get does not even compare to the meth I got when I was younger. I was in California. Meth Land.
I hope I can help people here. Sunday seems to be having some trouble. I dont htink she comes here until the evening.
MK
Awwww, I'm an ex-californian myself ..... bay area growing up , moved to central cali till I left last sept. I had to , I knew it was crucial to my recovery , Maybe it is just me and my tolerance level , but I laff at what most people think is great nowadays .....compared to ....oh it creates a craving thinking about it ,... what it was like 30 years ago...... but that is ancient history now .... .. there is satisfaction ( at least I know there is for me ) in helping others deal with recovery , I cant help but feel maybe my life wasnt a waste when someone says thank you . for the first time in years I was able to look my mother in the eye and admit my addiction , and have her smile back with pride as I told her my plan to deal with it and help others .... She is 86 years old ...and at least now she can feel like she wasnt,and I wasnt a failure. after all what better legacy can any of us leave behind ....money??? f-no!!! the world a better place , a few lives and families made better ?? HELL YES!!!
Ill tell you a story:
I was living in Orange County. San Clemente to be exact. I had a boyfriend and a cat named Clovis. I loved this cat dearly. My boyfriend and I were in lust, not love. Anyway, My BF went to jail for all kinds of minor warrents, but was going to be there for at least 9 months. I still continued to party and meth it up. I woke up one morning after a couple of days of partying to feed Clovis. I called for her and she never came. That was about 9 that morning. I figured she was in the hills catching mice. I called for her again at 11, she still didnt show. Meanwhile, Im thinking Im pregnant. I had been thinking this for several days but, of course, that could never happen to me. I called me brother over to my house to help me look for Clovis. I sent him into the hills behind my house to look for he. In the menatime I was taking a pregnancy test. 10 min later my brother walked into my house with Clovis. She had been attacked by a coyote. She was dead. I looked down ant my pregnancy test and it was positive. In the background a song was playing. I cant remember the name of the song: "In the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion rules the land" Something like that. I used to sing that song to Clovis all the time. Silly, I know.
Well, My BF decide that he wasnt the father and he wasnt going to be around. I quit using drugs that very day and tolfd him to F*** Off. My daughter is so very beautiful and happy and healthy.
I dont know if this means anything cosmic but I think so. Alot of sacrifices were that day in March of 1994. I will never forget that day.
MK
I was living in Orange County. San Clemente to be exact. I had a boyfriend and a cat named Clovis. I loved this cat dearly. My boyfriend and I were in lust, not love. Anyway, My BF went to jail for all kinds of minor warrents, but was going to be there for at least 9 months. I still continued to party and meth it up. I woke up one morning after a couple of days of partying to feed Clovis. I called for her and she never came. That was about 9 that morning. I figured she was in the hills catching mice. I called for her again at 11, she still didnt show. Meanwhile, Im thinking Im pregnant. I had been thinking this for several days but, of course, that could never happen to me. I called me brother over to my house to help me look for Clovis. I sent him into the hills behind my house to look for he. In the menatime I was taking a pregnancy test. 10 min later my brother walked into my house with Clovis. She had been attacked by a coyote. She was dead. I looked down ant my pregnancy test and it was positive. In the background a song was playing. I cant remember the name of the song: "In the jungle, the mighty jungle, the lion rules the land" Something like that. I used to sing that song to Clovis all the time. Silly, I know.
Well, My BF decide that he wasnt the father and he wasnt going to be around. I quit using drugs that very day and tolfd him to F*** Off. My daughter is so very beautiful and happy and healthy.
I dont know if this means anything cosmic but I think so. Alot of sacrifices were that day in March of 1994. I will never forget that day.
MK
Yes it does mean something . I just rambled on to Bob in other post about what we all have inside . We take what we get and we do what we want with it , can be for the good......or we can waste it away ....you made the right choice , I love pets , Had a cat once , used to protect the house and girls while I wasnt home ... and I do mean protect ...he wouldnt let any male in the house without pullin out the claws and all , got hit by a car , took me 3 days before I could bury him , and I had to leave my dog back in cali when i left, damn I miss him, he got me through many hard times . sorry
bump...... there are more than just monster kitty here.......hello!!!! is anyone out there????
Hello??? is this thing working????
het there Al ................and everyone else i so enjoy reading the post here and i do post when i get a chance this is really a great site i have introduced my daughter who is 14 to this site i think it to be so very helpful...............and wow i was reading the post 10 years clean......damn i cant fathem that at this point in my recovery that is just to much projection for me i have to concentrate on today..........but it is great to hear that "someone" has managed life 10 yrs without meth it gives me hope thank you so much for sharing that with me .............well us alll but i have this " all about me syndrom"............lol anyways i just wanted to say hi and thanks to you alll for being here...................
Thanks teresa, I remember your daughter Kristin isnt it?? Glad you are still on board .... again thank you .....AL
Teresa, I remember reading your posts, too. your daughter and you were both posting. What a caring bond. And such a wise daughter. Know that you did well with her. It was a joy for me to "hear" how wise and compassionate your daughter is. And your immense love for her in your posts. What a bond. Your friend,,,,Linda
Yes, here, 5 days clean.
And Teresa, that 'all about me syndrome'......I thought that was just me............! ;-)
Love and hugs Buffy x
And Teresa, that 'all about me syndrome'......I thought that was just me............! ;-)
Love and hugs Buffy x
Hi everyone, it's pretty boring checking in and seeing only my posts, hint, hint... Where is everyone? Love and support,,,,,Linda
