evening all! i've been reading over a lot of the posts on this website and there's a lot of positive vibes and good advice being given for people in need of an answer, i take my hat off to you!!
I got released from prison on thursday and i've just been up to see one of my good mates, but i've never felt so out of place and inferior ( i don't know if that's the right word).I got started on naltrexon last monday in prison as i've had enough of all the s*** that goes with having a habit, so i thought i'd give it a try as nothing else has worked. When i was up in my mates there he offered me a burn, but when i refused he looked at me with the strangest look. Does he look on me as a threat now that i'm trying to get my life in order? After that i felt i couldn't tell him that i was on naltrexone, i felt guilty that i was getting help and he was still in the s*** ( we took most of our drugs together over the years) What do i do? do i still go and visit him or try to stay away? i felt so akward in his company there, is that wrong?
Anyone else got a similar story or a bit of advice? my heads pure minced with it. He's my mate and i've nothing but love + respect for him, but i shouldn't need to feel guilty and sh*t every time i visit him..does he see me as a foe now?
keep the faith, Kev
hey there kev i dont want to seem rude or anything but im gonna be honest--stay away--for now he needs to hit his bottm all you can do for him is stay clean yourself and pray for him i know the only times ive been able to get off and stay off is by staying away from my favorite using buddy ewho happens to be the father of my child and that was really really hard its really smart of you to have gotten on the nal-you know yourself well and you need to keep listening to you gut(higher power i call it) you know that hes not the best thing for you right now. Hang in there--im sure youve been to a meeting or heard of them its not too late to make more great friends and share new experiences with them--this site is great for that also--hang in there buddy and whatever you do dont use youll be right back there--sorry if i sound preachy but its really hard if you dont have a strong structure i know the first thing i always wanted when i got out of lockup was a high there just isnt great sources for recovery behind the wall
Thanks for the post Amity, and no i don't think you're being rude i know you're just being honest. I know i need to stay away but the thing is i don't want him thinking (or any of my other mates who still use) that i think i'm better than them just because i got help and have decided to knock it on the head, cause i don't far from it. I now know i'm a drug ADDICT so now i realise if i have just one that might lead to 1001 as it has in the past, but trying to tell people that is like speaking to a brick wall sometimes, know what i mean? Keep the faith, Kev
Greetingzzz.......My ex is / was a heroin addict. When he decided to stop and got on methadone, the people he used to share his life with did the same kind of thing as your mate. They couldn't understand it, and some used to say, 'he thinks he's better than us now'. That is exactly what you said in your post.
They probably will think that, but you've just gotta let them. Part of staying off is staying away from all the old people. Damned hard. I'm alcoholic (only just admitted it!!) and have had to loose the whole of my old life or else there is no way I could make it. My old best buddy was fantastic, and sometimes I really miss her but she is still a pisshead and I know I just couldn't stay sober around her.
We've all got the same raw deal. Complete life change.
All the best to you. I am glad you have decided to reclaim your soul from the devil.
They probably will think that, but you've just gotta let them. Part of staying off is staying away from all the old people. Damned hard. I'm alcoholic (only just admitted it!!) and have had to loose the whole of my old life or else there is no way I could make it. My old best buddy was fantastic, and sometimes I really miss her but she is still a pisshead and I know I just couldn't stay sober around her.
We've all got the same raw deal. Complete life change.
All the best to you. I am glad you have decided to reclaim your soul from the devil.
Alright Dee4..mate i know exactly were ya comin from ...i did a stretch in Pentontville in the early 90s...and i know were the prison vibe or solidarity comes from ...its like dont leave me in this s***....mates are mates but you have taken the hard decision you want out ...thats it bro YOU..ive GOT v.o.s to old pals ...with hep/aids...i cant go back there...i did it a few times but for me more or less 10mnths clean of H& benzos...as an addict i can not still deal with others downward spiral...same as you.Fair play for the inplant..that takes guts...me im on a l/t meth script....but each to his/her own.Yer out Free look forward to the future..ya gotta.
Take care..get back to us........Davey
Take care..get back to us........Davey
My personal opinion is that a person you smoke gear with aint your mate. If he cant be happy for you that your clean or you think he will think you it now your on naltrexone then he aint that good of a mate either is he?
I think you should stay away. You done so well to say no. It takes pure guts to say no...especially when your a recovering addict.
Maybe explain your situation and tell him you cant be around the gear as your trying to sort your life out. You may even incourage him to give it up?? Who knows?? But I am sure the look he gave you was more than likely jeluous that you said NO and he cant.
Well done for getting yourself clean.
Lynds xx
I think you should stay away. You done so well to say no. It takes pure guts to say no...especially when your a recovering addict.
Maybe explain your situation and tell him you cant be around the gear as your trying to sort your life out. You may even incourage him to give it up?? Who knows?? But I am sure the look he gave you was more than likely jeluous that you said NO and he cant.
Well done for getting yourself clean.
Lynds xx
Lynds...i hope yer read my may be disjiounted post..but experience breeds either either contempt or understanding.....sounds like D4 or me been around the block a too many times...as no jugdment here has as yer man.Prison is a breeding ground for mainly contemt.....ever heard of a Season Ticket?and it aint a soccor one ...its the one were low drug offeders..are called by the screws coz they come in on a 3/6monthly basis...thats life as an addict at the really short end of the stick.So i applauld De4s..attempt to get away from his using mates..big time but i also truely understand the guys difficulty doing so....its up to us on this board to lend a hand.
Lynds i really do understand the anger you have within ...concerning yer mans on/off attempts to get someway clean...but the obvious is there think take care of yerself and nipper...............All the best as ever .....a dis jionted .Davey
Lynds i really do understand the anger you have within ...concerning yer mans on/off attempts to get someway clean...but the obvious is there think take care of yerself and nipper...............All the best as ever .....a dis jionted .Davey
Davey1, Bunnyrocker and Lacey thanks for the posts. I understand where you're coming from. i appreciate yous getting back to me as i can't explain this to any family members as they wouldn't understand where i'm coming from. I went to an NA meeting tonight (my second one) and all the people there said the same, that i need to distance myself from old friends who are still using, so that's what i'm going to have to do. Cheers for the positive vibes. keep the faith, Kev
Hey Kev, good for you...........yeah that's a tough place to be in.....albeit actually an excellent one for you right now.........you're really making a great go at it, Kev.
Bunny Rocker, like Davey said......it don't work like that really.......while I was still using..........well Tres knows cause she was too......we'd call up this guy who is a lifer.........and his girlfriend who'd be the very last person I'd ever think would have gotten clean.........she'd answer and promptly hang up on us....we were more than mad........not that we wanted to see anyone back out there, BUT we were in it still and needed him and he was clean........oh we were mighty PO'd.........but after a bit we were like "Good for him".
Kev, got it going on now.........and Davey is right though, BR.......it's kind of all for one and all for one.................MYSELF and my Dope......heck with everyone else........it's kind of like that, unfortunately......we all got to save ourselves.
Bunny Rocker, like Davey said......it don't work like that really.......while I was still using..........well Tres knows cause she was too......we'd call up this guy who is a lifer.........and his girlfriend who'd be the very last person I'd ever think would have gotten clean.........she'd answer and promptly hang up on us....we were more than mad........not that we wanted to see anyone back out there, BUT we were in it still and needed him and he was clean........oh we were mighty PO'd.........but after a bit we were like "Good for him".
Kev, got it going on now.........and Davey is right though, BR.......it's kind of all for one and all for one.................MYSELF and my Dope......heck with everyone else........it's kind of like that, unfortunately......we all got to save ourselves.
