Hi Guys,
I need your opinion. I got hooked on Herion a few years back and I finally quit and managed to stay clean for over 30 days.
Then idiotic me decided to visit a friend that I was concernd with. Part of me said to stay away since I new he could get the drug, but I stopped by to see how he was doing and to see if he wanted to go out for lunch.
Before I knew I went on a 2 week run.
The guilt of using was overwhelming. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror and I couldn't look at my familiy because I felt that they would know.
I tried to quit on my own and I stopped for almost 2 days. I got sick and didn't feel well.
Then another friend who had Vicodin offered them to me to feel better.
He had the big Vicodin, I think 10mg. I bought a bunch hoping that I could successfully ween of the Vicodins better then Heroin.
I did that for about a week. I took 4 of them the night I bought them. The next day I took 3. I stayed on 3 for one more day and then went down to 2.
By the time the weekend came around I found myself back up to 3 on Saturday, another 3 on Sunday. And today I took my last 2.
I feel ok right now. It's 3:20pm where I am and and I took my last Vicodin this morning at 7:00am.
Should I expect the worst? Will I be terribly ill? I feel so bad about relapsing and I can't let anyone know. I feel so alone in all of this and I don't know what to expect when I wake up tomorrow.
I've been through it all. I've taken Methadone over a year ago, tried Suboxone and went to a 30 day rehab. After the rehab I was almost certain I would be fine.
Anyway, now that the Vicodin is all gone, I'm going to try my hardest to stop and not take anything. I just get very anxious wondering how awful I amy feel and sometimes the anxiety is overwhelming.
How serious is a 3 a day Vicodin habit? It couldn't be worse then the herion, right? Just so you know I wasn't taking the 3 Vicodin all at once. i would take one in the morning, one in the noon and one in the eve.
Thanks.
Unfortunately the Vicodin is an opiate just like heroin. Better, worse, it's all the same really. I did almost every opiate and thought one might be safer, but it led me to heroin and will probably lead you back to heroin. So you know what I'm gonna say....stop with the Vicodin before you are taking 30 a day and then you go back to heroin. I am 127 days clean from everything...it's especailly important to stay away from alcohol as well. It gets easier, really. You can do it and you wouldn't be writing if you though everything was okay with the Vicodin. So stop now and the wds won't be as bad as if you keep using and increasing. Keep posting. CAS.
i can assure you that the pain of withdrawing from the vicodin will be a lot less severe than the pain you will experience if you keep taking them.
*sdr*
Sure, I understand. I guess what I am trying to figure out is how bad my situation is. On average I was taking about 3 Vicodin at 10mg spread throughout the day. I know it's the same as Heroin as they are both diagnosed as opiates.
My question is how bad is a 3 Vicodin habit? When I stop (which is today) will the withdrawals be laughable? Will there be any at all? I can handle being a little sick since I've been Heroin sick.
I just want to prepare myself for what's going to happen tomorrow.
Anyone experience would be helpful.
My question is how bad is a 3 Vicodin habit? When I stop (which is today) will the withdrawals be laughable? Will there be any at all? I can handle being a little sick since I've been Heroin sick.
I just want to prepare myself for what's going to happen tomorrow.
Anyone experience would be helpful.
On a side note, I just bought some Benadryl, ibuprofen and immodiam just in case I get withdrawals.
These should help me right?
These should help me right?
Hey beau,
Compared to your heroin detox this should be a walk in the f*ing park.
Tell yourself you have the flu, bunker down, watch movies, lie on the couch, you'll be over it in no time.
Then remeber how you are feeling now, just WORRYING about detoxing, and dont repeat your past mistakes...( easily said i know..but possible)
You'll be fine.
Hugs,
Ali
Compared to your heroin detox this should be a walk in the f*ing park.
Tell yourself you have the flu, bunker down, watch movies, lie on the couch, you'll be over it in no time.
Then remeber how you are feeling now, just WORRYING about detoxing, and dont repeat your past mistakes...( easily said i know..but possible)
You'll be fine.
Hugs,
Ali
Thank you. That's exactly what I needed to hear. :)
You are right about the anxiety, the sneaking and the guilt. It's enough to make me wonder why I ever came back to the drugs in the first place. I just feel horrible after having 30 days clean and making a bad decision.
What really sucks is that I just met a girl and I may be going on a second date either tonight or tomorrow. I get the nervous jitters just thinking about it and part of me wants to go out and grab some stuff just so I won't be in the least bit sick.
I'm going to try and not to. I think I can do it. I'm so close to having a my normal life back and maybe even having a steady relationship. But I am also close to throwing it all away.
As an addict, I know it's not about making the right decisions, so much as it is about faith and willpower. I need to get away from my triggers and sometimes that is the hardest part.
I'll do as you suggest and think about the mess I am in and hopefully it's enough to turn me off for good! :)
You are right about the anxiety, the sneaking and the guilt. It's enough to make me wonder why I ever came back to the drugs in the first place. I just feel horrible after having 30 days clean and making a bad decision.
What really sucks is that I just met a girl and I may be going on a second date either tonight or tomorrow. I get the nervous jitters just thinking about it and part of me wants to go out and grab some stuff just so I won't be in the least bit sick.
I'm going to try and not to. I think I can do it. I'm so close to having a my normal life back and maybe even having a steady relationship. But I am also close to throwing it all away.
As an addict, I know it's not about making the right decisions, so much as it is about faith and willpower. I need to get away from my triggers and sometimes that is the hardest part.
I'll do as you suggest and think about the mess I am in and hopefully it's enough to turn me off for good! :)
I hate to be the bearer of bad news but in the begining of your thread you said you went on a two week run with heroin I presume, so before you finished the w/d's you started taking Vicodin.Well, what will probably happen is you will get sick from all the opiates leaving.Its hard for me to figure out how only a few Vicodin were keeping you from getting sick after the heroin because thats a pretty big drop in opiate intake.
Lets just hope it doesnt go too bad for you.Ive alweays found that it was the amount my body had gotten adjusted to and how fast that dropped determined how sick I got.Like if i was snorting 3 or 4 oxys 80mg and then would eat 2 or 3 of the 10mg. percocets,I would notice that I would start getting a little sick.Everyones different so it might be easier for you.
Lets just hope it doesnt go too bad for you.Ive alweays found that it was the amount my body had gotten adjusted to and how fast that dropped determined how sick I got.Like if i was snorting 3 or 4 oxys 80mg and then would eat 2 or 3 of the 10mg. percocets,I would notice that I would start getting a little sick.Everyones different so it might be easier for you.
