i had stopped drinking had been totally sober for 3 months, and then it all hit me. i am alone in my fight to be the person i dream of. i dont even have a friend to run to when things get really bad. so now i dont remember the past two weeks because everynight i have been so drunk i dont even know how i got covered in cuts bruises and funny looks from coworkers. i am lost and feel that i have been left to just blow in the wind. there is nothing or no one to ground me anymore. i am scared cause i dont know what to do for myself anymore. i feel i am to tired to keep up the fight.
Hi
I know how you feel but if you go to meetings you will make great friends and people are there for you if you want them to be you dont have to do it on your own.
Start today its a new day , you can have a wonderful life you deserve it.
take care you dont have to be alone xx
I know how you feel but if you go to meetings you will make great friends and people are there for you if you want them to be you dont have to do it on your own.
Start today its a new day , you can have a wonderful life you deserve it.
take care you dont have to be alone xx
Hey TC you have just learnt how powerful addiction is, you have done 3 months before you can do it again, one day at a time.
You are not alone, and deep down you know that but addiction wants you to think you are alone so you give up trying. There is always AA in phonebook or accessed via computor, if you contact them it gives you options also you have a lot of support via these threads and if you believe in a higher power then you can ask for support from whoever you believe in, as long as you are willing to do some work towards this recovery as well.
When i drank i was never alone i had addiction and fear as my friends egging me on to die, now i am not drinking addiction and fear are still hanging around the playground looking for me to fall, but now i have positive options and ways of coping.
Keep posting whatever is going down for you, give AA a try, and pray. There are options and you are definitely not alone.
Light and love Zac
You are not alone, and deep down you know that but addiction wants you to think you are alone so you give up trying. There is always AA in phonebook or accessed via computor, if you contact them it gives you options also you have a lot of support via these threads and if you believe in a higher power then you can ask for support from whoever you believe in, as long as you are willing to do some work towards this recovery as well.
When i drank i was never alone i had addiction and fear as my friends egging me on to die, now i am not drinking addiction and fear are still hanging around the playground looking for me to fall, but now i have positive options and ways of coping.
Keep posting whatever is going down for you, give AA a try, and pray. There are options and you are definitely not alone.
Light and love Zac
TC
You are right in a sense - you are alone in that if you depend on another person for your recovery and sobriety eventually you'll fall because eventually the other person will let you down (whether its a real or imaginary let down it will happen).
If you are placing your dependency on other people you will falter. But you are not alone in the universe, there is a higher power that can help you.
That is why AA is a spiritual program based on a Higher Power.
I never was a religious person or into any of that stuff but I have learned now to be in touch with my higher power, so that even though now at times I'm lonely I'm never alone.
I use meditation and some prayer to connect with my higher power and TC believe me, even in a few short months it has brought me more peace than I ever thought possible.
As soon as I start to not connect, not meditate those old thoughts, fears, head running on stuff comes back.
AA can help in that there's people there who will understand you, people who you can call on etc, but that alone is not enough.
TC - even if you think I'm preaching, or think AA and all the HP stuff is a load of crap - why not give it a try? I mean what could it hurt? What have you got to lose?
I know the loneliness and emptiness can be devastating, struggling, struggling and never making any ground. Its a horrible feeling, especially when it seems to consume your every waking moment.
I used to feel like that all the time and I drank to blot it out but it kept coming back, haunting me.
I don't feel like that now. I still have bad days and get negative depressed thoughts from time to time - but I also have calm, rest and peace in my mind. Contentment, sometimes even happiness and joy. And boy is it a great feeling.
You can have it too TC...and by the way you might be troubled, but you are not a cow....
much love
Idgie.
You are right in a sense - you are alone in that if you depend on another person for your recovery and sobriety eventually you'll fall because eventually the other person will let you down (whether its a real or imaginary let down it will happen).
If you are placing your dependency on other people you will falter. But you are not alone in the universe, there is a higher power that can help you.
That is why AA is a spiritual program based on a Higher Power.
I never was a religious person or into any of that stuff but I have learned now to be in touch with my higher power, so that even though now at times I'm lonely I'm never alone.
I use meditation and some prayer to connect with my higher power and TC believe me, even in a few short months it has brought me more peace than I ever thought possible.
As soon as I start to not connect, not meditate those old thoughts, fears, head running on stuff comes back.
AA can help in that there's people there who will understand you, people who you can call on etc, but that alone is not enough.
TC - even if you think I'm preaching, or think AA and all the HP stuff is a load of crap - why not give it a try? I mean what could it hurt? What have you got to lose?
I know the loneliness and emptiness can be devastating, struggling, struggling and never making any ground. Its a horrible feeling, especially when it seems to consume your every waking moment.
I used to feel like that all the time and I drank to blot it out but it kept coming back, haunting me.
I don't feel like that now. I still have bad days and get negative depressed thoughts from time to time - but I also have calm, rest and peace in my mind. Contentment, sometimes even happiness and joy. And boy is it a great feeling.
You can have it too TC...and by the way you might be troubled, but you are not a cow....
much love
Idgie.
